missmontana's Journal
10.17 F*CK my lifeNov 30 -1 00:00
Seriously, fuck my life. I thought things were getting better. I was starting to feel better about my diet, starting to feel better since breaking up with Zach and everything...until at work today my boss comes in out of the blue...trust me, totally out of the blue, and let's me know that its my last day at the office, the owner has cut my position. I have no full time fucking job now. Fired, finished, laid off...call it what you will, I have no real job. FUCK So I came home and ate a pint of ben and jerrys and drank a bottle of wine (which might explain the language...my bad). So I'm not logging exact intake, I consumed around maintenance today. I just have to try and stay positive and think that God has something better right around the corner for me right!? So until I find that something...that next job...I'll either have a lot of time on my hands to workout a ton, or sit on my ass and eat a ton...pretty sure I'll be spending most of my time at the gym...wish me luck.
First of all, I am so sorry you got laid off, that is just bullshit. The least they could have done was give you more notice. I hope you file for unemployment right away. If you were laid off you will get it. Secondly, I'm glad to see the foul language finally. You are usually not one to curse and its refreshing to me since I have a filthy mouth. Haha. Lastly, I think the most important thing for you to do right now is put all of your energy and focus onto the 26th, and in doing so try your best to not become desperate as it approaches just because you need it more now. Try to treat that opportunity the same as you planned to treat it. If you overwhelm yourself, you may not be good to anybody. Eat well, spend more time at the gym, and knock em dead. Save the Ben and Jerrys for afterwards. I am glad however that initially when you lost your job that you found comfort, even if it was in a pint of ice cream or bottle of wine. Good for you. We all need some way to be comforted. If you need anything, we are all here for you. Don't let this one speed bump make you veer off track because you are on the road to success, kiddo, you really are, and I'm proud of you. Keep youe head up!!! |
I'm so sorry to hear that! Hang in there things will get better soon. At least you still have modeling to fall back on. I can't believe they didn't give you more of a heads up... assholes! |
That's so fucked up that they didn't have the descency to give you any notice what so ever! But in retrospect, you shouldn't let this throw you off. All the success you've had with you diet and getting over your ex isn't foiled just because you ate a pint and brank a bottle. You had a bad day with a very tasteful ending! Tomorrow (well not tomorrow since you wrote this 2 days ago), but you can wake up fresh and start a new day, and not have to worry about going to work. Treat it like a vacation. Go to the gym, take a hot bath with essential oils, give yourself a mani pedi and just enjoy the day. I hope you're doing well! |
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