mommakitty's Journal

The temptation was definately there.
Sep 24 2008 19:13

Someone I know handed me a bag of goodies today.  I didn't think much of it at the time but thanked her as my bus was arriving and I couldn't stay and chat.  When I looked, it was full of Starbucks stuff.  OMG!   I looked very hard at that stuff at first and thought I'd take it home to my roommate for him to eat.  Yes, I can be nice to him, occasionally. lol!  In that bag of stuff I saw white chocolate/macadamia nut brownies, carrot cake w/cream cheese frosting and something else that just looked too dangerous to even fondle.  I still had 4 hours before I could get back home and didn't want to carry it around that long.  I knew that stuff would win.  I had to get rid of it, but it seemed like such a waste of perfectly wonderful treats; I hesitated to throw it away.  When I got off the bus, I was going to head for a garbage can.  At that moment an older car pulled up with an older lady driving it and she got out and walked into the store.  She left her drivers window unrolled.  I quickly scribbled a note telling her that I was given this and couldn't eat it, and I hope she enjoyed the treats then dropped the bag in her car.  Then I walked away.  Only regretting my decision for about a split second.  Well, maybe two or three seconds. As I logged my dinner calories tonight, I realized for sure that I had done the right thing for myself.   I was so close to taking that first bite, and I'm afraid that would have been all she wrote for me for the day.  I'm thanking God for letting me make that decision.  I hope my "victim" doesn't have a medical condition that would cause her health problems by eating this.  (there had to be 3000 calories in that bag).  I hope it made her smile.  ~Tonnie

SV for me!! No plateau this time!
Sep 22 2008 08:25

I beat the plateau devil.  I lost another 1.6 lbs in only 4 days.  (Not taking 7 - 10 days this time).  So my total loss is 32.6, weighing in at a very svelt (ha!) 157.4.  I would dance a jig if I had the room and it wouldn't scare BU or the roommate wouldn't call the padded wagon to come get me.   I weigh 9.4 lbs less than my drivers license says (that was a lie anyhow!), and I have 2.4 lbs to reach my lowest adult weight EVER.  Life is Gooood!  Thanks to my friends here at CC, your encouragement has kept me motivated.  I only have 22.4 to reach my goal..And did I mention that life is goooood!  ~Tonnie 

How To Look Good Naked
Sep 18 2008 17:36

If any of you watch Lifetime TV there is great show called "how to look good naked".  I was curious at first, but have fallen in love with it.  The host, Carson, (can't remember his last name) is fantastic.  He's taking these women who have little or no self-esteem and making them see just how beautiful they really are.  Yes, the new hair and makeup, and the new clothes really changes these womens attitudes about their self image and give them confidence.  I look forward to every episode.  I hope you watch it.  Sometimes it makes me weepy.  I could be wrong, but,  I think he really does care.

I was really excited this morning that I still weighed 159.  I went to bed last night thinking what if it was some horible joke from Mother Nature.  I didn't get lunch today.  I usually have it with my friend Karen at DSI computers.  She told me Monday that my sandwich stunk.  I forgot, she doesn't like onions and I had really piled them on.  I had a larger breakfast thinking that would get me through until I got home.  That was wrong.  I had only brought some carrots with me.  By the time I got home at 3:00 I was starved.  I ate a Fiber One bar, then fixed dinner.  Half way through my dinner I was full.  So I put it in the refrig to eat sometime tomorrow.  That's going to leave me about 200 cals shy of my 1200.  I have thoughts going through my head.  Listen to your stomach (I did) don't cut back on your calories (I did anyway)  You'll be starving in the morning (I hope not).  Eating everything would have stuffed me and made me uncomfortable.  I guess I'll see how I am in the morning.  Isn't that a number one rule about listening to your body?  Well, maybe not number one, but definately in the top 10  So I listened.  I hope it wasn't a misteak.  Cramming all those calories into such a short time frame can't be good for  body either.  (I'm justifying NOT eating) 

Check out this gal:  K9Stylist.  She reached her goal today.  She's gorgeous!  And today is her birthday!  What a gift.

I hope all of you are well this evening.  I'm going to read some journals now.  It's 6:10 PDST so I would imagine most of my friends are just about tucked into bed by now.  Sleep well.  ~Tonnie

I did it! Finally into the 150's
Sep 17 2008 12:35

I weighed 159 lbs, I weighed twice just to make sure it wasn't wrong the first time. I thought that last plateau was never going to stop.  Whew!  So officially I have lost 31 lbs with only 24 to go!  I can't believe I am within that little bit of weight left to my goal.  It seemed like such an endeavor back in May.  I know that the next 10 lbs will take longer than the first 31 did.  At least I'm prepared mentally for that.  If I ever sound winey, please tell me to shut up.  I think that sometimes I expect action now, not next week.  

I had a phone call last night from my roommates sister.  She is buying new drapes for the house and wanted to know MY opinion of what she likes at JCPenny's.  Funny, her name is Tanya, knick-named Tonnie or Tawny.  Im not sure how she spells that.  You don't run across too many Tonnies/Tawnys how ever it's spelled.  I guess that's why I'm always asked if my real name is Tanya.  She said she wasn't asking for Norm's opinion, and added "he just a man!"  Please, that is a quote from her, but it made me laugh.  I'm anxious for the new drapes to arrive, and will install them myself because if I wait for roommate, they will sit in the packaging in a corner somewhere.  Just like the new mini-blinds that have remained in their boxes since I moved in in October.

I was busy this morning in the yard.  Fixing the hose that sprung a leak, trimming flowers that are done for the year and that ever-lovin' batch of weeds.  I want to get in some sewing for the day.  I have so much to accomplish there it's hard to decide what to work on.  I'd like to restyle another shirt (I've got a closed full of way too big things to experiment with).  I better get moving because BU doesn't sew too well, and she's busy holding down the sewing table so it won't fly away!  I love my cat!~Tonnie

I forgot to eat dinner last night
Sep 15 2008 15:06

Me, of all people forgot to eat the dinner I had warming in the microwave.  No wonder I felt starved this morning.  I had eaten a large salad, then went back to the computer to wait until 5:00 and it just slipped my mind.

I had applied for a job that required Power Point, and I brushed up on my PP skills.  So every one I wrote to last night got an attachment with a different style PP on it.  I had a blast just playing around.

I am still at 160.2 lbs.  It's been 9 days!  I am going to win this battle of the 160's wanting to keep me and the 150's just within my grasp.  Eat well! ~Tonnie

Restyled shirt, jeans and person
Sep 13 2008 11:09

This is the same shirt and pants that I was wearing in my "horrible picture".  This was yesterday at 29.8 lbs lost. 

My computer has decided to cooperate with me now and I can do all sorts of things.  It was the network card that somehow got damaged.  That was so frustrating.  Yesterday my friends Karen and Jere came over and installed a new card.  No charge I might add.That's the nice thing about having friends in the computer repair business.

I remain at 160.2.  I know, I seem to do this.  It's like my body is revolting against what my mind is trying to accomplish.  I have my support here at CC, and of course, Mia.  I sent her this picture last night and she was ever so elated with seeing me.  It's been almost 2 months since our trip for my parents anniversary in July.  I weigh 10 lbs less than them. 

I hope everyone is well.  I'm so thankful that I don't live in the eye of any hurricane.  I know Ike wasn't as horrible as was predicted, but I think the amount of hurricane coverage on the news, and the level of preparedness and the increased warnings for the people has increased immensly since Katrinas devistation.

Have a good weekend everyone.  Eat well, take care of yourselves and drink uour water!~Tonnie

This stinks
Sep 10 2008 09:47

  New computer is wonderful, but the new printer/scanner I installed has fouled up my internet access on it.  Now, I have to get a hold of my friend Jere (pronounced Jerry) and get an installation disk to fix it.  I was on the phone with the cable guy both last night and this morning with what seemed like hours.  He determined that it had to be something in the computer resulting from the installation of the printer/scanner that deleted the internet part.  Jere is out on a house call (one that pays), so I can't reach him.  In the mean time I'm pacing, well not really.  But my mind is.  I'm arming myself with celery sticks (thanks Nicole) so I don't have something bad to eat.  I've got a bottle of water.  (I've already drank one full one).

My weight remains the same (160.2).  That's a good thing.  I should go out and play in the weeds, but it's too chilly (that's my excuse for today on exercise).  I need to clean up my sewing room.  It's embarassing to have the carpenter that is going to cut a brace so see the disarray.

I needed to vent.  I know this will pass.  I just want it now.  At least the roommate took off so he's not around to add to my frustration.  I've got stuff to do, my messes await me. ~Tonnie

It's so sweet!
Sep 08 2008 18:46

You probably thought I was refering to a weight loss.   Yes, I did have that.  Back to touching the 150's within .2 lbs.  But, I got my new computer hooked up today..  I thought UPS would never get here, and I probably terrorized Mia with hourly arrival updates.   I'm a little cramped for space, but a brace on a leaf will stabilize it so I can move the monitor out of my face.  It's amazing how much faster I can log foods now, and I could go on and on about how much better this is, but I have to remember that in November I didn't even have a computer.  So for this I am truly thankful to Mia and Aaron and their generosity in providing everything for me and asking for nothing in return.  Not even reimbursement for shipping.

I had a good food day.  Nicole, I'm going to take your advise about eating more celery (I'll force myself).  I don't know if it the time of year, but it seems like lately the carrots didn't taste as good as the did in the spring.  I remember picking up a load of carrots with my (MIA) husband once up in Washington at Mercer Farms.  He was a truck driver.  Oh man, the smell I mean aroma of the fresh carrots is really something.  I've often wondered why we used to truck carrots and onions down to California, and then other truckers would haul them from CA grown, back up here.  Never could figure that one out. 

I 'm going to play around a bit on the internet and visit some web sites that I always thought were slow to respond, and see just how fast things move for me now.  Hope everyone gets a good nights sleep and wakes up refreshed and rested for tomorrow.

God bless you all ~Tonnie

The face in the mirror.......
Sep 07 2008 12:52

I had to look twice this morning when I used the restroom at church.  Was that really me?  I know I'm loosing inches because my clothes keep growing, but it wasn't until I saw my reflection that I saw what was happening to my face.  It was almost heart shaped, and not quite as round as I have lived up with.  I believe I saw the beginning of collar bones too.  Just last week I discovered I had ribs.  I've never worn turtle necks because my round face just looked like a jack-o-lantern sitting on a stump!  I bought a turtle neck last week thinking it just might be possible to look like it is something I can wear.  If the weather takes a turn to cold, I will wear my new turtle neck sweater and feel confident that it's not a fashion faux pas.

I bought some Mrs Smiths 100 calorie one bite cheesecake things.  All I can say is, while they were great tasting, they're definately NOT worth it.  I wanted to eat the whole box (4), but stopped after the one and switched to a Fiber One bar.  I know, more calories per serving in FO, but entirely less than eating the whole box of the bites.  I logged everything and all is well in diet center at my house!  If I was smart, I would send the bites down the garbage disposal, because now they're tucked in the back of the freezer waiting to catch me in a weak moment.  I probably will do just that right now.  brb.  Okay, they're gone now.  If I didn't do it they would show up to haunt me later. 

I hope everyone has a great week.  Hopefully, next time I write it will be from my new computer--not that it matters, but I have new pictures to post.  Eat Well, BU says hello (I had to delete four lines of ....... that she inserted when I was doing my burial.  She sat on the keyboard.    I love my cat.

Oh no! So close, but no cigar!
Sep 06 2008 19:52

I was reluctant to write this, I still haven't logged this, but I am no longer at 160.2.  This morning I was at 162.  Who knows?  I'm hoping this will change tomorrow, at least back to the 160.2.  The 150's were letting me peak in, but did not allow entrance to this goal, yet.  I know it will happen. 

Mia sent me pictures of her new bedroom.  All I can say is WOW!  It is lavish without being gaudy or frilly.  Besides her many other talents she can add interior design to her list.  It is romantic, just inviting you inside to rest a spell.  I told her that her husband Aaron should be shot if he doesn't like it.  I don't see how he can't absolutely love it.

I think it's bed time now.  I cooked a lot today making freezer meals.  This batch contained wild rice, chicken, broccoli, carrots and FF cream of mushroom soup.  It analyzed to an A recipe with only 264 calories.  Very filling and high on the fiber.  I read an article in Prevention magazine to watch out for raw carrots.  While they are high in fiber, they also tend to stick around in the digestive tract for a bit longer than if they were cooked.  So, I cut back today on the baby carrots to only about 5.  I was eating 10-20 a day.  Just when you think you got it all figured out, ya know?   Good night, amazing blessings for you all tomorrow.  ~Tonnie