mommakitty's Journal

Rough day on the internet
Aug 04 2008 17:25

I spent a lot of time on the computer today.  I normally don't do that, but was looking for jobs in the local newspaper and writing or updating resumes to submit.  Plus, I got sidetracked by a few quilting sites.  All I wanted to do was put something in my mouth and eat it.I managed to escape the temptation though, and now it's dinner time and it's ready to come out of the microwave in just a few minutes.  I logged my cals and found out that I'm fine for the day and even have some left over for a pudding cup after dinner.  It's time to eat, and I try not to eat at the computer or infront of the TV.  I'm not always successful at that.  ~Tonnie

Happy Sunday to all
Aug 03 2008 11:25

I had a sort of plateau again (4 days), but today it's over.  I lost 1.2 lbs since yesterday.  I kind of thought the Lord was holding out for today; it's my 49th birthday.  He's funny that way.  I'm not going to pull one weed, or shovel one scoop of rock.  I'm going to catch up on my emails and probably work on taking in another pair of jeans. 

I received a letter from Portland State University.  I was chosen (random) to take a health care survey.  Along with that survey was a five dollar bill.  Wow!  The survey was concerning my health care coverage-specifically the Oregon Health Care plan, which I belong to.  I'd of taken the survey for free even if there wasn't $5 included.  I got this mail yesterday and just kind of set it aside until this morning.  I'll probably take my new found wealth (and a couple more dollars) and to clothes shopping.  There's a new 2nd hand store that I haven't been able to get to yet, and won't be able to until Tuesday (they're closed on Monday).  Tomorrow I will grocery shop-need to make my list.  I hate to run out of foods that help me survive my eating frenzys (yes, I have them).  I've been able to control them with having plenty of options.  A dill pickle cures my craving for chocolate.  Baby carrots keep me satisfied when I just want to munch something. 

Hope you all are fine.  God bless you all - Tonnie

It's over
Jul 28 2008 15:19

I finally broke the curse of the plateau.  I lost 1.8 lbs since yesterday.  I'm still eating right, but I know those little fluctuations can be deadly.  I may not loose more tomorrow morning, but please just let me maintain.  I upped my fiber intake (more vegetables) and drank lots of water all day.  I did quit that an hour before bedtime.  I take Enablex (that's something fun to announce), and it gives me a very bad dry mouth, so I keep a water bottle on my night stand to sip off of, or else I wake up with scummy lips and my tongue stuck to the roof of my mouth.  But, I'd rather have that than the consequences of not taking the medication.  It's such a beautiful day; only about 78 degrees and a nice breeze.  I hope everyone is eating well.

It's been a while since I last logged
Jul 26 2008 20:03

My friends, I feel like a failure.  I haven't written in my log for almost a week.  I have been busy, and I really didn't have anything to say.  I'm trying to out wit this plateau (3 days same weight).  I tried something different for breakfast this morning and had dinner at lunch time, and for dinner I had breakfast.  I've read on this site your body needs some stimulation and a change of an eating pattern has been suggested to end a plateau.  I'll let you know tomorrow if it works (for me).  I'm not going to get really concerned unless this goblin hangs on through the weekend.   I'm still weeding and moving rock, but I don't think I've drank enough water.  I'm not going to dwell on it.  I have been a good little CC'er food wise, and it's just a matter of time.  Hope you all are well.  God Bless you. ~Tonnie~

I'm home, tired and frustrated :D
Jul 21 2008 17:50

Being home is good, being tired is expected, being frustrated is hard to describe.  I haven't mentioned much about my roommate, (he's at work now), but if he was to walk through the door right now it would take a serious amount of self-restraint to keep from choking him to death.  Yes, he fed my cat (2 giant bowls of food), it was a brand new bag, where's the rest of it?  He didn't check the mail (I asked him to-important stuff coming about my medical insurance I need for a Dr's appointment on Thursday-can't go without it; it gets returned to sender if it sits in the mail box over 3 days.  I stressed the importance of this-he told me No Problem).  Well BS.  I have a day of housecleaning to do tomorrow (kitchen is a big grease pit).  I could go on, and on, so I'll quit now.  I don't want to turn this into a b____ session. 

I don't mind that the rocks and weeds are still there.  As is the tree (unwatered-I can tell), and unplanted. 

My visit with my family was everything and more than I hoped for.  It was time to come home though.  My cat missed me.    I''m hoping there's a logical reason why the bag of cat food is missing.  Maybe he fed all the neighborhood cats.

I had a challenge with eating breakfast at a truck stop this morning.  I was hungry-no need to be-I brought food with me.  But I went in and ordered Biscuits and Gravy.  You could order from 1 to 3.  So I ordered one.  I was very discriminating though.  I ate a few bites, decided they wern't that great, had 2 more bites just to be sure, and ended up leaving 80% of my food.  I felt good about that, and once again didn't have to pay the consequences of "just eating" because it's there.  B & G is just about my favorite thing to eat for breakfast on the road.  This was truly, not worth the guilt at the scale.

Now, I can go back and read your messages and hopefully respond to them, if it's not too late.  I missed you my friends.  I am so glad to be home.  God and his angels were with me, once again. ~Tonnie~

No more ham!
Jul 19 2008 12:59

Dad and I love ham.  Once, twice, but enough is enough.  Mom wants to eat it up while I'm here.  Dad and I are hammed out!  So today while at the store we snuck in some beef (smaller steaks).  I hate to say it, but too bad Mom.  The ham fest can continue after I leave.  I told her I love ham and beans (I'd eat the beans and sneak the ham back in the pot. 

Mia left for home this morning, hopefully around 2:00 am.  They have a 16 hour drive to make today so Aaron (my son-in-law) can be there for the Sunday service tomorrow.  Lot's o' tears, on my part.  That was the most special 3 days I've ever spent with her.  I didn't know Aaron composed music.  He played a song he wrote at the anniversary dinner.  Mia said she thought she told me, but if she did I didn't remember. (CRS)  I hope to get some pictures uploaded soon.  My face is still too round (I was told I'm too critical of myself.)

Dad has agreed to let me use the computer here, so I don't have to sneak into the Hotel and use theirs.  I'm going to try to answer some of my friends (I'm not negelecting anyone, just didn't have access whenever I wanted it).    I got a tour of the town this morning.  I had everything pointed out to me what it was, for instance, SEARS, in great big letters was pointed out that that was Sears, and so on.  It drives me nuts.  They both have a habit of pointing out the incredibly obvious.  Every store, car dealer, the realator, Mormon church (we're Methodists).  Finally even I think my Mom got tired of it.  As we were driving by the Coor's warehouse (big sign again, and another big sign that said Keystone Light, my Mom turned to Dad and said Dear, I could care less!  She said it, not me.  I hope you all understand that I am only kiddingly telling this annoying habit to you all, I love these people with all my heart.  But Dad still treats me like I'm 12.  Time to go.  Eat well.  ~Tonnie

They're gonna think I a guest
Jul 18 2008 12:51

Here at the hotel lobby again.   Dad's computer remains unplugged.  My time is limited here (30 mins per session-but at least it's here).  Mia leaves to go back to Denver tomorrow, so I wonder if I could sneak in and quickly log to CCP.  I don't really even care about the rest of my email.

Last night's dinner was just fantastic.  Mia and I ordered our meals, not exactly what we had planned on having, split them and traded halves so we had more variety.  By having sandwiches we didn't get soup or salad; just the option of FF, cottage cheese or tater tots.  If the cottage cheese isn't low-fat then it's no better than having fries.  Since I could care less about fries, that''s what I ordered.  When I think back now (smack the side of my head,) I probably could have asked for a side salad instead of the fries.  I guess it's the excitement of being loose in a strange town.  Any how, I only ate until my stomach said I'm full.  I listened for a change.We did as we had planned and served each other the cake.  I actually was proud that we didn't pig out like I feared.

Well, today, different story.  Chinese all you can eat buffet.  I used 3 plates, took some of everything I thought I wanted and sampled.  If I really liked it I had 1 or 2 more bites; if it was just ordinary, the one bite sifficed and I moved on.  By the time I got through the 3 plates my stomach was talking to me again and I listened (amazing).  I shamefully left almost 80% of my food off those 3 plates.  But, I did not have to deny, and lets underline deny (I would if I knew how)  myself anything.  I got to eat and chose to be a picky eater.  While all the food was good, nothing was outstanding, or "to die for", and I was happy, and importantly, satisfied that I had missed out on nothing!

That's the saga of today.  This is supposed to be a journal entry, not a newsletter.  Eat well.  Think about what you are eating.  Eat it slowly.  Does it really taste THAT good that you MUST have more.  Will this only extend your target date for weight loss.  (I've never had a carrot come back to haunt me.)

Just having fun...............
Jul 17 2008 14:54

Today the family went to the Senior Center for a baked potato bar.  I was a bit intimidated by the prospect of the really bad foods you could put on a baked potato that would now make this innocent potato scream with calories.  The choice was taken out of my hands, because we ate what we were served.  I watched the food being dished up ahead of me and decided to take it all.  No one was going to gain a pound eating there.  The portions were rather small.  I was served 1/2 potato, then they added beans-not chili, and cream of broccoli soupy sauce stuff, approximately the same size sering spoon as you would use at a salad bar.  There were mixed vegetables, a broccoli/cauliflower dish that had bacon bits and some kind of dressing to bind it together.  Once again, the tiny portion spoon.  Canned mixed fruits (so syrup), no bread, and iced tea.  I figured I was safe on calories, guestimating the over-all calorie count to be no more than 400 calories, and that was over-guestimating (probably closer to 350. )  But we had a lot of fun, and this is what Mom and Dad wanted to do.  I'm sure my brother, Mark was a bit let down with the amount and I heard whispers of chips and dip coming from him and his boys (teenagers), but all-in-all it was fun.

Tonight is the big dinner.  We still need to stop and check the menu.  I've got a predinner snack to eat, and other than that everything should be fine.  I'll have some pictures to download when I get home.

Mia also took me clothes shopping and got me a nice new outfit, bracelet, and earrings to wear.  Naturally I migrated to the Plus sizes first and she said to me "Mom, remember you don't wear those sizes anymorel".  That was so good to hear, and was such a wonderful thihg for her to say.  My whole family seemed impressed with my "transformation".  Mia paid for a new sexy hair-do, and everyone said I looked 10 years younger.  Plus we got our nails done.  I wonder how those are going to hold up when I'm back to the weeds.  This has been a wonderful time.

I'm at the Motel where Mia is staying using the lobby computer, but I'm sure I'll be able to come back tomorrow to at least log on, but I'm not sure I'll be able to respond to anyone immediately.  Eat well.  I was right, Dad literally pulled the plug on his computerHave to go here, time's up on my limit.~Tonnie

I made it
Jul 16 2008 12:15

I got here!  Here is LaGrande Oregon.  11 hours on a bus (two hour layover in 95 degree heat).  But I arrived on one piece.  I took carrots, and some snacks to tide me over for the ride.  Bought a FF lattee and had 3 bottles of water.   I'm not a bottled water drinker, but I could'nt find a "fountain" to refil my original one with.  I had bought a sliced apple with caramel sauce, but didn't realize the calories were so high (had limited time to shop at the bus stop and forgot my glasses on the bus, so I couldn't read what it said until I got back on the bus.  I saw 250, and realized I made a mistake.  Then I looked at the sell by date which was the 13th, and yesterday was the 15th.  I debated whether or not to eat the apple (the apple was fine), but I knew if I opened it, I would eat the carmel too.  So I still had my receipt and this morning returned it to Safeway.  The challenge there was to ride with that caramel for another 75 miles knowing it was there, and not eating it.    So, I won.  I guess it's the little stuff like that that just makes me feel good when I am successful. 

The company is starting to show up.  Mia isn't here yet, but she is about half way between Boise and LaGrande.  Of all the people I'm going to see, besides my parents, she is the one that matters most. (Teary eyes now)

Friends, thanks for all your support.  Everyone out there means so much to me.  Eat well, drink you water.  Adam, eat your watermelon. ~Tonnie

Leaving on a Jet Plane (not really, by bus)
Jul 14 2008 18:17

I'm doing my last load of laundry, then I get to pack.  It's been a long month waiting for this day (tomorrow) to arrive.  I don't know who's more excited, me or my daughter.  (I didn't notice anything to log under activities for excitement.  But if there was a way to log it I would have to say 8 hours of joy should equal an extra 200 calories burned per hour. 

Tomorrow will be 11 hours of bus riding, but I don't see where to log that either! I'm going to have to cut back on the water consumption because I don't think the bus makes pit stops that aren't scheduled.  Can you tell I'm excited?  No weeding, no shoveling, no roommate.  I wish I could take my cat.  She'd never forgive me if I were to cram her in a carrier for 11 hours. 

I had a great day today.  I've made some terrific new buddies, to go along with my terrific "old" buddies.  I welcome and thank you all.  This trip is going to be a real eye opener for me.  My fortitude will be tested, but I think I have all my ducks in a row to handle what ever get's thrown my way (food speaking).  I did call ahead to the Restaurant well be eating at, and found out that they have a small "Heart Healthy" menu, and a grilled chicken dish.  The cake shouldn't be a real problem.  I do know that something I usually don't eat, like cake, automatically becomes something I have to have. 

So, I'm talking to myself right now.  Tonnie remember your goals.  You are 1/3 of the way towards your goal, and it would be a sorry shame if you blew it now.  You have support coming with you (daughter), loving parents that will be obliging to your  food needs, and a supply of road snacks for the trip.  When it comes time to order dinner, you know what you should have, and you know how to choose wisely.  You don't want that brand new scale to scream at you when you get back.  My pep talk to myself is over now.  I will keep in touch however I can.  I almost have tears because it's like I'm going on a long trip and leaving you all behind, but that's not true.  Even if I can't log on, I know you'll all be there for me when I get back.  This is such a wonderful site to visit.  I am to very thankful that I found CC.~Tonnie