mommymommycrystal's Journal

It's been one month since I could bear to log on
Aug 23 2009 23:40

After killing myself to lose weight for months and never see results, my vacation came.  It was a bummer that I wanted a better body everytime I look at anyone.  

Let's see the vacation was ok, except the overly exciting last day.  I went out to the ocean kidless at 7:30am.  I had a teen girl with me.  We watched the water, took pictures (see my gallery), and gathered shells.  The beach was deserted with a few occasional joggers.  It was hot and we decided to get in for a few minutes.  It was a very calm day.  We were talking when I saw something bob up and down.  At first I thought it was a person who was wearing a mask moving around.  I thought - I didn't see anyone get in the water.  I get a lil paniced, and try to look better to see if it was garbage or something else.  Well as I look at this surface object, my eyes adjust on the spot as it turns at the same time and I see this huge long black shape bigger than a car less than 15 feet from me.  I freak scream the girl's name as I run the best I can OUT OF THE WATER.  After following the shore it becomes apparent we had a close encounter with a manatee.  Since my bathing suit is green and nothing else was in the water - everyone jokes it thought I was lettuce.  Later that day we saw 2 more - safely from the shore.

Coming home and looking at my pictures depressed me so badly that it has taken me a month to log on and try tracking.  I can eat healthly, exercise, my body is just stuck here.

Suggestions & encouragement needed asap
Jul 13 2009 22:36

Vacation is 4 days away, I'll be gone 10days & I worry that without access to the computer I'll fall into trouble.  It took me almost 2 months to lose 8.5 lbs and I don't want to add more on.  We are going as a group and meals are custom to what the 6 kids and 2 teens will eat.  Very worried-spaghetti, mac and cheese, chicken nuggets, a few few restaraunt meals (((half, half, half)))), etc.  I'm garunteed 2 cases 24 20oz water battles to go w/me if the teens don't waste them.   Very stressed, will swim/walk daily all day/ but hardly exercise while supervising children simutanously.

me there last year 7months preg

note: I was 172 when I had her and I was still 162 when I started calorie count 2months ago, today 153.5

I didn't see that comming
Jul 03 2009 22:10

OK, so without warning or notice I am able to go out with my husband - kidless- the day sucked but thats another story.

After the movie we go to Chili's & I know I'll blow the calories up, but I had no idea what I'd find out when I got home.

I ordered a half appetizer and half meal and a key lime shot.  Turns out my cheating dessert was best thing I had at 240 calories.

I only calculated what I ate & I was very strict about eating half of the half app/meal well after dividing by 2 and adding my 240calorie dessert I totaled for 1 meal 1,876 calories.   I didn't see that comming.

Check out this menu and avoid Chili's http://www.brinker.com/gr/nutritional/chilis_nutrition_menu. pdf

In the begining to now-suggestions WELCOME/WANTED
Jun 28 2009 23:45

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The gaps are hospital stays with my lil girl and another with my son.  We went hours (almost 20 at times without food) then we would get tray service started and me and my husband shared a meal for one or relatives FINALLY brought snacks.  This put my body into severe "CAVE MAN MODE" as my doctor described it.  It wasn't sure when the next meal was comming so it conserved it's calories for survival. 

In this month of June I went from zero, zip, zilch exercise to so far 1085 but my goal was 1250minutes with 2 days left.  I might not make it.  I litterally worked my legs to the point of complete anguish at times.  Adjusted my food as best I knew.  My grades started as D's and now I have some A days.

Today I tried to create a meal plan for the week and I bought the groceries for it.  I need suggestions because my menu is not as calorie friendly as I would like.  I need quick and cheap, and something picky little boys will eat.

My goal this menu covered food groups which is something we do not do around here.  If we have mac & cheese then that's it.  Now this weeks menu includes a meat item, grain, fruit, dairy, and a vegetable.  Hopefully it will help the kids get feeling well too. 

I'M HOME
Jun 25 2009 20:16

I'm home, a 4 hour surgery trip turned into a 2 day affair.  My little one is doing good, but he is still very sore.  A very rough night at the hospital.  Very glad to be home.

Unfortunately, cafeteria closed at 1:30 for the day, very weird.  Anyways, my eating is very messed up and I am looking forward to a better start.

I need meal plans I can afford and stick too without tons of help from others.  So glad my lil' one is home.

Little guy having surgery tommorrow =(
Jun 23 2009 22:37

I've been frantic all week trying to secure insurance referrals and I think we have the go ahead.

Please keep your thoughts and prayers with me and my 3year old because Wednesday morning he is having his tonsils and adnoids removed, and a sinus lavage--- he just turned 3 this month. 

I'm so looking forward to it being Thursday and having this behind me and having my baby home - safe and sound. 

I want results
Jun 19 2009 22:46

My doctor offered me pills, and I was like no I can do this.  He said count calories , exercise more, do both and it will happen. 

********* When???? At first I was such a good girl, all water, no cheating.************************

NOW I'm sliding more & more everyday on the food.  He said don't skip meals eat small and often - I tried.  He said exercise - I went from NO EXERCISE DAILY to EXERCISE RELIGION.  Just this month so far I've exercised for 780minutes -- huge for me.  My calories stayed at level give or take 100. 

The scale never moves - 4 weeks I SHOULD SEE SOMETHING.  The last 2 I really slipped on my water but it was a few and not all day everyday coke fest.  I now enjoy coke zero too.  My body still feels fat too.  No tighter tummy, no tigher legs.  JUST ACHES AND MEGA PAINS - so bad I'm taking tylnol.

SOMETHING SHOULD GIVE BEFORE I LOSE ALL MOTIVATION, FEELING SAD, AND DEFEATED

***I WANT MONEY*** so I can exercise
Jun 13 2009 19:15

Last night I 'investigated' what many people keep referring to .... A Wii fit.  Since I have physical limitations - I've always been limited on what exercise I can physically do.  I've not been able to participate in gym machines so that network is out for me.  I was 28 years old before  I was ever able to ride a bike and I must say I LOVE IT.  (It was over 300.00 though)

Looking at the Wii fit board I truly believe I could do it.  I had a step once and I was able to use it.

It looked like so much fun.......  I Want one but it doesn't look like its going to happen for a long time. 

Seriously debating the nasty credit card, but I know thats what got me where I am financially today.  I know better, I know better,I know better,I know better,I know better,I know better,I know better,I know better,I know better, BUT I STILL WANT IT.

http://www.nintendo.com/wiifit/launch/?ref=http://www.google.com/search?q=WII+FIT&rls=com.microsoft:en-us:IE-Address&ie=UT F-8&oe=UTF-8&sourceid=ie7&rlz=

249.99

89.99

My legs feel the burn
Jun 04 2009 22:56

So I have this circle and it has a tree in the middle - it's basically a culti-sac dead end road.  It is slanted for water drainage and about three cars could park in the middle and maybe about 8 on the road itself. 

I forget to count the laps, but I'd love to know how many miles I've racked up.  I'm not sure about my tires since I ride in the dark,

but my legs sure do feel the burn.  

On the road again
May 31 2009 23:01

Okay, I know we are going through a drought and everyone prays for rain, but I've enjoyed the last 3 days of night riding. 

I've been able to bike with my neighbor walking with me for atleast 45-100min of steady go.  I'm very hopeful that the scales will have moved atleast a little.  I'm very nervous about losing motivation or getting my feelings hurt.

TOMORROW I WILL WEIGH AT THE STORE - I don't even have a scale here at home.  Its either a good or bad thing.  I've read it's better to weigh in less often to see results.  I hope to see even 1 pound loss. 

I want more than anything to have my nightly biking.  I feel so much better durring the day.  I'm very scared that my neighbor will not keep it up and its a wee bit dangers for me to be alone - outside - in the dark.    UGH I hate depending on others for support.  However, I vow to enjoy it & exploit it as much as possible until it does end.

Until it rains or I lose my buddy......... I'm on the road again.