momofone2004's Journal

Here I go!!
Nov 06 2009 02:10

Well, I have never really had to diet - I had always kept a steady weight around 110-120 but I have been through several bouts with my asthma and was hospitilized.  With the constant drip of predisone in my IV, I began to swell and put the weight on.  I went then to 150.  Then I started  having trouble with my back and was given 4 sets of steriod injections in my back - I then went to 175.  My husband even said the other day, "Baby I am not trying to be mean but you have become fat.  I would like to have the Karen back that I had when we first got together."  Those words hurt like a knife but they also opened my eyes and made me see what he sees.  So I am trying to break old habits of eating in the middle of the night when I can't sleep due to the insomnia from the fibromyalgia.  I have resorted to getting me a couple of carrots and a bottle of water.  I went this week and bought water, diet dr. pepper, fruit, and salad makings.  I am going to keep a journal of my food intake and the calorie counts.  Also will write my feelings about that day in my journal.  Kinda like this one but hand written.  Well it is 1:15 AM and my eyes have decided to get sleepy.  I will sign off until the next time, God Bless and Good Night!!