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Oct 12 2008 00:02

So, I kept within the stated goal of 1500/day. For some reason I feel guilty if I go above 1200, even though I know that's not enough calories for me at this weight. I want to lose weight at a healthy rate. It's just- the guilt about eating is constantly there for me.

I think about food all the time, and want to eat constantly. It's better if I am out and doing other things- if I am around the house, it's generally even worse except for directly after i've had a meal.

Anyway, so it's a vicious cycle: i think about eating, i eat, then i obsess about eating too much and feel guilt about what i have consumed. there are a lot of emotional issues wrapped up in food for me, that much is clear.

to be continued...

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Oct 11 2008 13:47

Ok, so I started my weight loss journey roughly 3 months and 22 lbs ago. Since then, I've completely changed my diet and eating habits. However, as yet still haven't started excercising. The change in diet has been amazing- I feel sooo much better- and I know I look better, too. Especially my face which has lost like 2 chins already.

I'm 33 and have been fat pretty much my entire adult life. Not surprisingly, Ive never been married or in a serious relationship (if you don't count the adulterous relationship I've been in, on and off, with my ex for the past 10 years- great I know).

When I looked out over what my life was going to be- what sort of future I was creating for myself- something finally clicked, and I decided I can't live like this anymore. I won't. So...I've focused all my energy now on getting healthy and changing my life for the better.

While my friends and family have been really supportive, none of them is going through this, and I know I can use all the moral support I can get. So...thanks in advance!

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