montie_j03's Journal

day 3
Jun 24 2009 08:44

Ok so things are going good so far. I have made a couple of slips, but that is ok. I want this to be a learning experince for me. I am trying to take all the knowlege that i learn from all the past things i have done and apply them. I know it is going to be slow and that is ok. one of the things i have found a little bit hard is my thinking. It is a lot harder then what i thought to change the way you think about food and how you beat yourself up after you mess up. before i when i messed up i would just quit and tell myself it is never going to work and i will never be able to change. This time i know that is not true. It will work and i will change, i just have to give myself time to do it. I am trying to think of how good i feel not eating that much and sticking to my calories. I have went over my calories everyday, but not by much. i am still in a good calorie zone. I am also not stressing when i slip. once i have slipped there is nothing that you can do about it so why beat myself up, just move on and learn from it and why i did it. I have been doing good on the water. yesterday i did drink enough, but today is a new day and i will get it done today.  I have not been doing much active, but that is ok, that is not my focus right now. I want to start working out, but i also don't want to run ahead and make the same mistakes i have in the past.

concluetion is that in the last 3 day i have learned that it is just as much your mind set as it is the food you eat and how much of it you have ate. had i been using my old thinking ways i would have already gave up. i also know that i not have to be perfect everyday in the things i do nor will i ever get it perfect and when i don't that is ok.

Will til my next update God Bless:)

day 1
Jun 22 2009 11:16

ok so here we go day one. I am really excited today, but know that this will quickly fade. I am so determined to do this and i think once i start to lose weight and inches i will get it back and keep going. I have to remind myself that this is going to be a long journey and it could take years to get to my goal. this is something that i have come to terms with, but at the same time gets me a little discouraged. I have done really good to day and i am ready to push myself and tell myself no. That is another thing i have a hard time with, say no to myself when it comes to food. I will get this done and i will hit my goal.

right now i have 2 main goals for the week: drink 111oz of water ( that is half my body weight) and do not eat over 1354 a day.

those are the 2 main things i will struggle with so that is going to be my focus for the week. now i am going to walk and maybe do weights, but i am not going to make them goals at this time. I really want to make baby steps right now. I don't want to overwhelm myself and end up quiting.

So here is go a new beginning and a new life that is much healthier. Please Pray for me.

God Bless

No more messing around
Jun 20 2009 10:06

Wow it as been a while since i have been active on here. i do still come on, but i just look. I am so tired of doing this (trying to lose Weight). I mean i am really sick of it. I keep trying to get out of counting calories (i hate counting calories), but that is what it is going to take. I know this and i always have. I am tired of wasting my time trying to find a quick fix to my weight problom and it is just not going to happen. I know i have to make a life style change and there is nothing wrong with that, Well besides the fact that i hate change. I know i need to do this. No more wasting time that i could be using to lose the weight and get healthy. I just keep getting bigger and bigger. So here is to counting calories no matter how much i hate doing it i am going to do it.

 God bless.

still on the road
Jan 26 2009 13:13

Well "Becoming the woman I want to be" is going really good. it is kinda werd for me. I have never tried to lose weight slowly. Anytime I tried to lose weight I tried to find what would bring it off fastest. It is hard trying to pace myself to lose slowly. I always want to rush ahead and do something drastic and lose a quick 20lbs. I guess this is a lesson I need to learn when is comes to diet and God. I can not rush ahead of the Lord, becaus when I do that is when I fall. Same with diet. Time and time again I try to rush it and fall. It is a hard thing to hold myself back just because that is who I am. I am a "go getter". I feel I am getting closer with the Lord also. I have a long way to go, but I will never get there if I don't walk. I am about to move into week 2 which mean more steps are about to be added. I am ready.

God bless

year starting out good:)
Jan 21 2009 15:32

OK, so I have started my book "Becoming the woman I want to be" I love it.  It is a true blessing that I am getting to read this book. I love that I am taking steps into getting closer with my Lord.  I am not so worried about the weight loss 'cause I know it will come. It is all about baby steps with the weight loss.

   I have also started once a month cooking. Well once every 2 weeks for me. I don't have the room for a whole month. I love it. I never had time to spend with my family when I got home. I felt like once I got home from my Job I started at another job. This is also controling how much I eat out. When I thought about it one of the top reasons as to why we went out to eat was because I didn't feel like cooking, so I would just go get something. This is going to save me time, money and the way see it pounds:) I am suprised, but I found out that I still like to cook. I am cook new things I have never cooked before. I don't feel so bet down from cooking all week so I get more creative when I do cook. Now I am not looking for the fastest and easiest thing to cook in my house. This has also helped me kept my house cleaner. I am not worn out from cooking that I don't want to do dishes. All my pots and pans are washed on one day and for 2 weeks I don't have to clean another one, just the dishes we ate out of. I love the time I am getting to spend with the family. I have so much stress lifted off me. I love it. Well that about does it for today.

God Bless

ready...set...GO!!!!!!
Jan 18 2009 21:27

Well tomorrow is the day. I am starting the book Becoming the woman I want to be. I am so ready for this. This is a book that will help me get closer to the Lord and lose weight. I can't wait. best of all you talk baby steps in to the "life style change". You are not just handed a bunch of stuff and expected to start doing it right then. you take steps every week and have a week to just walk on the new stuff plus all the stuff from the preveice weeks. I am so ready to get my soul, spirt and body all on the same page so that I can move forward with what God as planed for me. I will keep you up dated:)

God Bless

A big plate of starting over PLEASE
Jan 13 2009 15:47

OK, so I am sitting here reading thru some blogs and getting really pumped up again. I really need to do something about my weight. I am so tired of it all and I so know that it is possible for me to lose the weight. I just need to get off my lazy behide and get started and stop telling myself "tomorrow".  I know I can do this and it is going to be hard. I just need to quit looking for the easy way out 'cause there isn't one. I am tired of it all. I know it is going to be one of those things that once I am done I am going to be like "WOW, that wasn't all that bad". We all have chocies and I am just making bad ones when it comes to what I eat.  I make a goal one day and the next I act like i didn't even make a goal. The weight I have gained is all on me, so I need to step up to the plate and take control. I am tired of telling people I am on a diet and then have them ask me "I thought you were on a diet" when I start to eat a candy bar. It is my own fault, it is all on me. So I am asking for a big plate of starting over. I am going to wipe my plate clean. From this day on the past is the past and that is where it needs to stay. All the messing up and not taking control and get so mad at myself is done I will not think about it from this moment on.  I will be updating as much as I can. Here is to starting over:)

God Bless

another year and the same old same old
Jan 09 2009 15:38

Well it has been awhile. I am sitting here trying to think of how this year is going to be any different from all the others. I am so mad at myself 'cause once again I have to tell myself that I am going to lose weight again. I am so tired of saying the same thing year in and year out. I know it is my fault. I think I just get lazy and stop try.

     my goal this year is once again to lose weight. I do not what to bring in 2010 needing to lose weight. I am tired of  bringing in the new year over weight. I know it is going to take a lot of hard work and a good mind set. Please pray for me 'cause I am going to need it.

OK back on track
May 03 2008 06:50

OK, I had a couple of bad days and really didn't log my food and I know the calorie intake was bad. So I am wiping my hands of those days. I know I need to set so goals just so I have something to look at. I really like looking at all the profiles of the people who have their goal on a time line and I really like when they log when the goal was reached:) so I think today I will get my goals on my page. I also need to start exercise. This is going to take a little more effert for me. I want to just get outside and start working. I really want to start doing what I was brought up to do (ranch work). I use to buck Hay and fix fence. To be honest I really mess doing hard labor work. Well heres to me being back on track.

God bless

day 3
Apr 30 2008 06:47

Well last night wasn't all that great. It is so hard to cook for your family and try to watch calorie intake. Well I guess if I would just cook healthy it wouldn't. I am not going to stress over it I have come to terms with it. I no with it being a life style change that I am going to make mistakes and that is OK I have to learn and the only way to learn is to make mistakes right. One thing I am going to do is get more food prepared for the week. I am not a planner at all and it does not come easy to me. I am going to have to work at planning my meals ahead of time. Hey but that is OK I have the rest of my life right:). I did weight this morning and I am down 1lb 202 so that is good. Today is a new day and I plan to act like it is. So on to day 3 with a clean slat.

God Bless