mywildchild_2000's Journal

only 8 pounds to go...
Jan 06 2009 18:46

before I hit 100 pounds down from my all time high weight of 309!

Only 8 pounds!

It suddenly seems soooo attainable!

yay for me!

Sweet Be-Jezus
May 12 2008 11:21

Lost 7 pounds in 7 days last week. Most of that I attributed to post peri-water loss. Then in the last 7 days I am down another 5.

I love Paul McKenna. I think he has given me my life back.

Oh, and I do work really hard at the gym, eat right and enjoy my hobbies which are mostly active ones.

So that is that.

Yay for me!

I so owed that machine today!!!!
May 09 2008 18:27

On tuesday I was totally slammed on the leg press machine by this scrawny legged guy. Usually when I get to the various weight machines at my gym I have to reset the weight, and probably 90% of the time on the leg machines I make it heavier. Occasionally there is some ripped guy on there and then I know I am going to have to lighten the load, but this guy was nothing special. Just a guy. And he was on the machine forever... making me mad as I have a routine that I like to follow and he was taking a long time. When he finally got off that machine he had to have done 10 sets of 10 or more... and so I thought for sure I would be slammin the weights down to my level. Normally I do 5 sets of 10 at like 250, so was set to put it there...

He had been lifting 470. My eyes about popped out of my head! ARGH.

I felt annoyed the rest of the time I was at the gym. Then on Wednesday it was an arm day so I didn't even look at the leg press machine. Yesterday I pulled an extra shift at the job, so no gym.

Today... arms and then legs, after the elliptical. I walked right up to that leg press and put it at 470, took a deep breath, vowed not to push too hard cause I would hate to blow an "o-ring", and then made a second vow to only do it once if I did get it up... and put it right up without even a groan!!!! Coulda done it a couple more times too if I wanted to, but I got an event coming up later this month that I am going to need my legs for (caber toss). I knew that I had been working hard for a reason. I also knew that I had come a long way, but am very very impressed with myself today.

Whole stack here I come. (with the extra weights it will come to a total of 505lbs! Yahoo!!!)

doing well in the long run.
May 02 2008 12:24

I have to stop looking at the short term and realize that I am in this life for the long haul,  I might as well view my health as a long road. Duh.

today I got on the scale at the gym. Down 4 pounds since monday (didn't log my weight cause I was disgusted) and I feel really good about that. I have energy, I have motivation, I have support. I feel really good about all of that too.

Blood work came back fine, again. Have to go in for a follow up appt with doc to discuss my meds and my POA as far as my health goes. I do so hope he understands what it is that I am trying to accomplish here.

I have decided that power lifting is my new love. I love the looks of awe that I get from other people at the gym when I am lifting. So much motivation there, and when I get done, muscles shaking and tired I feel awesome for doing something that I have always wanted to do.

My boy
Apr 10 2008 13:14

Turned 10 last month and is now able to join me at the gym for cardio workouts only. No weightlifting... which he doesn't like since he wants to have big muscles... lol, but I do know that it is better to wait until he is older for that.

He is excited about going and I like that. I am going to get off work early today so that I can take him, and I am excited about that. He will be able to go 4 times this week, and we are all excited about that.

The doc was concerned about his weight, had him do cholesterol test, thyroid, HgA1C, and basic metabolic test I believe and it all came back fine and dandy. (I have type II diabetes, high cholesterol, and high blood pressure... though I had my labs one on the same day and everything came back fine and dandy as well, no meds for the diabetes in like 5 or 6 years... a major triumph for me)

I am just glad that the example that we are setting for the boy is helping him to make healthy choices, and that I am able to provide that example in the first place. I was on a steady decline health wise before turning my life around, and my boy is a major factor in that.

I love him.

a new high
Apr 09 2008 11:35

loving going to the gym. loving feeling like I am in control. loving the way I can see the changes in my body.

I feel high all the time. Probably because of the joy, but I suppose it could be from the good foods that I have decided to allow back into my life. You know, the ones that taste good, that I want to eat, and that are actually good for me. I have spent so much of my life on a "diet" eating what I thought I should be eating to lose weight... now to be able to choose whatever I want, I find that those fresh fruits and veggies win hands down over the junk foods that I thought that I wanted when it comes to taste, texture, and overall enjoyment.

Yay for life!

ouchie, bad day
Apr 07 2008 20:56

I always do this. On the day that I go in for my labs I eat like I have never eaten before after they are done.

Now that I am doing the Paul McKenna thing my tummy isn't used to all that food in there and it HURTS.

Guess I will have to tone down my indulgences. I know that I can still eat whatever I want, just less of them, and I will be fine.

But I still lost weight :o).

Feels Amazing!!
Apr 05 2008 18:16

To be in control again.

To be able to put my fork down. To know when my tummy is full and when it is hungry. To be able to see a difference in my body after less than 2 weeks. To be able to know that I can eat if I want to, and I don't have to eat out of boredom/loneliness/anger/whatever.

I get to go to the gym tomorrow for the first time in a week, as my work schedule pretty much prevented it this past week. I get to also take my son with me for the fist time as he is now old enough to use the cardio equipment. He is excited as well. makes me feel good to know that my hubby and I have inspired him to do better and to make good choices.

Now, if I just didn't have cramps today would be a perfect day.

coulda been better... but also much much worse
Mar 28 2008 20:07

Today I had to work an extra shift at work, which made my conscious eating a bit more difficult than it has been. Having to corral 6 4year olds at the lunch table proved to be more than I could manage while trying to chew slowly and listen to my body... so I wound up guessing. Turns out I wasn't full, so I was way hungrier at dinner time. F.I.L. was here to help celebrate my boy's b-day, so again we were busy busy at the table and I didn't listen. Now my tummy hurts. Ate too much, even though I easily ate less than I would have a few weeks ago volume wise.

Tomorrow is an all day training. It will be much easier to listen to my tummy then, I just know it.

Wonder what Monday will bring at the scales?

oh happy day!
Mar 27 2008 10:08

It is Thursday, I have made it through 2 days of conscious eating and feeling the benefits already. Funny that.

Didn't get to go to the gym today though. I have to head up to the hospital to visit a friend who had emergency abdominal surgery yesterday for something that I diagnosed on Monday... an infection at a previous surgery site that had encapsulated. Then it is out to lunch with 2 other friends. I feel very confident about the lunch date knowing that I can put my fork down between bites and chew slowly and everything will be all good. I am going to have a Ceasar Salad, with chicken. I love it.

tomorrow no gym wither due to an extra shift at work, and I can't go on Saturday due to an all day training...

But next Monday is weigh-day and I am feeling confident about it, for the first time in a long time.