newfern's Journal

rapid loss
Jan 04 2008 07:40

Now that I'm tracking and my weight is dropping dramatically, it just emphasizes to me that I've been forcing my body to be heavier than it wants.

Wednesday I actively avoided (meaning people brought to work - or even to my desk!) NY Cheesecake, Krispy Kreme donuts, and M&Ms. Yesterday I only avoided the trap of eating out along with peanut M&Ms (yay for salmon sliders at Bear Rock Cafe). Though I did go to the cupboard at home, pull out the Fritos, open them, and then put them away. That's when I had the apricots.

There has only been one weak moment thus far. My boss was asking status on a few of the hundred things in my queue. I nearly cried for lack of M&Ms at that point, but my husband was very supportive and talked me away from the wrappers. My office stocks M&Ms, how cruel is that?

I know the rapid loss won't last. And I know I will have to start exercising soon (my home scale has me up at 43% fat). But I am focusing on the process-oriented goals like this site suggests. I have had two wildly-successful days regarding my food intake. After a week or two of good eating, I plan to start adding in a scheduled workout routine.

What is my one week reward if every day, or even 6/7 meets my target? I will order $25 - $50 worth of the yarn I need to finish my crochet blanket. I know my 150# reward is new clothes, but that's a long way out. After my first week, I'll pick a new target for week two (I'm thinking full 6 servings of veggies a day) and a new reward (no clue).

This first week is the toughest. I am afraid already of slipping, but it's one bite at a time!