nicsmilingbig's Journal

I HAVE LOST 85 POUNDS!!!
Jul 31 2008 08:59

I just have to say I am very thankful for my weight loss so far.  I am shocked at how well I have done and I am blessed to have gone passed the lie that my family just has "fat genes."  I do believe my body WANTS to be fat because of my genes... but I am able to maintain health with my actions and self control.

THIS IS EXCITING!!!

When I see.... well, fat girls, walking around, I still identify with them in my head and I just feel bad for what I KNOW they are feeling about themselves.  I wish I could help everyone to feel how I do now, knowing how they feel.

I'm wearing size 12 pants and M/L shirts... My bra has gone down from a 44DDD to a 36DD... still too big in the cup size for me, but I'm hoping they will go down to atleast a 36D.  It is so weird being able to shop at any store now and it almost feels sad that I can't shop at Lane Bryant and the "Plus size" sections of stores.  It's weird because I LOVE fitting in to things, but it was almost my "comfort zone" being in the fat stuff.

Anyway... I'm going through some mental stuff in trying to get myself to see myself as a healthy looking person.  I still weigh 178, so I sitll have 23 pounds left to lose... but I'm so much better than I was at 265!!! (which means I've actually lost 87 pounds!)

Ok, enough... just freakin out a bit! lol