njakamarilyn's Journal

I Knew It

Dec 17 2009 14:42

My doctor arrived for my monthly visit. As soon as I mentioned I was able to get into the vehicle and take a short drive for 15 minutes - the first thing that came out of my doctor's mouth was "now you can see Dr. Billy" (he is the one that performs gastric bypass/lapband surgery). I told him I had an article I wanted him to read about the surgeries. He kept saying he has had many patients who have been successful. It seems like he just turned me off when I talked about my progress this last month with physical therapy, cooking a turkey, etc. He wants me to stop taking the coumadin - says I do not l need it any longer. I was really a little emotional after he left and Andy was asleep so I could not talk to him. I called my Physical Therapist and chatted with her. I feel a little better but ....

Feeling bummed - anxiety setting in

Dec 17 2009 12:05

I wanted to cry this morning! I am so swollen again -and my weight has gone up - talk about a roller coaster - I have taken my water pill now and been drinking my water 6 (16.9 oz bottles) - up to 471 this morning - what is going on???? (unless I am preparing again for TOM (14th last month)- it has become so irregular - is menopause finally setting in???)

On top of this - I get all anxious when my doctor comes to the house to draw my monthly blood level for the Coumadin I am on. He will be here in 2 hours. I think part of it is because I have not told him I do not want to have the Lapband or gastric bypass surgery - even though he feels that is my only answer to weight loss.

Part 2 of Oops I did it Again

Dec 16 2009 14:58

Today, with PT I did my inside exercises. Laying down I did 4 different kinds of exercises (only 10x), sitting I did 4 leg exercises and 7 arm exercises (10x), pedal pusher I did 10 minutes with my arms and 40 rotations with my feet forward and back. Today I had a good pace with my feet.

I went back down the stairs and headed for my "street walking". I haven't walked for almost two weeks because of weather. It felt good, but unfortunately I was only able to go 9 houses and then turn around. My pulse went up to 130 and my oxygen was 96%. After 2 minutes my pulse had come down to 110 with oxygen at 96%.

OK - eating has not been the greatest today but I have written down everything I have put in my mouth!

I've Been a Bad Girl

Dec 16 2009 08:41

Oops, i did it again! Not writing down my journal thoughts! I am going through right now and catching up on my Physical Therapy Notes - last posting was December 6th - yikes!

Catch up with you all later!

Accountability - Don't you just love it!

Dec 11 2009 11:36

I weighed in this morning at 464.8.

So glad PT was here and I did my exercise routine. Unfortunately because of the cold weight weather I did not go outside and walk. When I told her my weight this morning and how bad I wanted to be in the 50's at the end of the year - tears welled up in her eyes. She hugged me and said she has been waiting to hear me say this after working with me for a little over a year on and off.

I have to be honest with myself and the unsatisfaction from yesterdays endeavors which may cost me in my weighing the next few days:

I surely did not want to add all the calories up this morning to see what I ate yesterday but I have to be accountable.

Thursday Report

80 oz water
2 vegetables
0 fruits
Yes I ate after 6:00 PM
No activity - too cold to venture beyond my "safe haven"

Nutrition goals:

Calorie Goal is 1500-1900 - 3622
Fat Target (between 20% - 35%) - 50.6
Protein Target (between 10% - 35%) - 13.6
Carbohydrates Target (between 45% - 65%) - 35.4
Sodium Target (under 2200) - 5266
Sugar Target (under 65) - 89
Cholesterol Target (under 300) - 438
Saturated Fat Target (under 20) - 65
Fiber Target (over 25) - 18

Gee, let's break this down - Eggs, bacon, hash browns and sourdough toast for breakfast; Lunch - sirloin cheeseburger on English muffin with 2 oz. Fritos and dinner lets not forget Taco Bell and then the stuffed Cheese Pretzel at 10 pm. I could not satisfy myself at all yesterday! All those wasted calories. So glad today is a brand new day!

Very cold ..... brrrrr

Dec 10 2009 14:37

I have been so cold over the last few days ... I think it has put me in a blah mood ... my motivation has sunk a little after I was so on fire the beginning of the week ... I just want to stay under the covers to keep warm. Thank goodness PT will be here tomorrow - but we are getting rain overnight so I know I will not be out walking at all.

I think I want something to eat and no that wasn't it. Boy I went and did it and it is only 2:48 PM! All the wrong choices - no planning and I have succumbed to 1,977 calories - a C+ rating and I have not even had dinner.

Norma Jean - snap out of it!

How is everyone doing? Are you just barely keeping your head above the "water"?

Very Tired

Dec 09 2009 16:57

Today I have been real tired - probably because of the lack of sleep. Have had a few things on my mind. I need to let go of the past but lately it keeps resurrecting its "ugly" head.

Wednesday Report

96 oz water
3 vegetables
2 fruits
No eating after 6:00 PM
Yes activity

Nutrition goals:

Calorie Goal is 1500-1900 - 1511
Fat Target (between 20% - 35%) - 31.4
Protein Target (between 10% - 35%) - 18.7
Carbohydrates Target (between 45% - 65%) - 43.9
Sodium Target (under 2200) - 4283
Sugar Target (under 65) - 55
Cholesterol Target (under 300) - 171
Saturated Fat Target (under 20) - 22
Fiber Target (over 25) - 22

Today I had (Stouffer's) Stuffed Peppers with Beef in Tomato Sauce for an early dinner. It is so filling - a little high in sodium and fat grams. I should have planned a little better because I had ham and Potato Skins for brunch.

So - so Day

Dec 08 2009 18:43

I weighed the same this morning - 466.8.

It was so cold this morning that the dish we have out for the birds had a solid frozen ring of water from the rain. The birds could not wait to be fed by my DH - they were so excited to see the bread crumbs.

Tuesday Report

80 oz water
3 vegetables
1 fruits
No eating after 6:00 PM
Yes activity

Nutrition goals:

Calorie Goal is 1500-1900 - 1821
Fat Target (between 20% - 35%) - 43.0
Protein Target (between 10% - 35%) - 13.5
Carbohydrates Target (between 45% - 65%) - 43.5
Sodium Target (under 2200) - 2737
Sugar Target (under 65) - 60
Cholesterol Target (under 300) - 227
Saturated Fat Target (under 20) - 34
Fiber Target (over 25) - 19

I got the "munchies and opted for Fritos Corn Chip Scoops with Ranch Dip - boy did it cost me sodium and a belly ache!

Refreshing - Rain today

Dec 07 2009 13:20

EDITED:

Monday Report

96 oz water
5 vegetables
1 fruits
No eating after 6:00 PM
Yes activity (see

Nutrition goals:

Calorie Goal is 1500-1900 - 1541
Fat Target (between 20% - 35%) - 38.5
Protein Target (between 10% - 35%) - 30.9
Carbohydrates Target (between 45% - 65%) - 29.0
Sodium Target (under 2200) - 4397
Sugar Target (under 65) - 15
Cholesterol Target (under 300) - 355
Saturated Fat Target (under 20) - 26
Fiber Target (over 25) - 14

Cheese, canned soup and Ham is what brought my fat and sodium above my goals.

OK - maybe my scale isn't broken - weighed in at 466.8 this morning.

Woke up to the pitter patter of raindrops - so refreshing! Unfortuntely, I was unable to do any outside walking.

I did first thing this morning walk out to the end of the carport to get the newspaper before my husband came home from work. I even prepared a casserole so there was something warm for him to eat. The house smelled so good. It's hard to believe its been over 2 years since I did any kind of cooking. My energy level is slowly coming back and the pain - what a world of difference form a year ago!

Besides my normal inside exercises with PT, I increased the rotation of the pedal pusher with my feet to 30 rotations front and back. Kept telling myself I can and will do this. I then did the pedal pusher 5 minutes with my arms. Then I repeated with my feet and then another 5 minutes with my arms.

Scale Broken?

Dec 06 2009 09:43

This morning I weighed in at 467.6. (I keep thinking something is wrong with my scale - its going down)

It is another cold morning - cloudy - I think the rain will be here tomorrow. My joints sure have been feeling it the last couple of days. I made myself yesterday afternoon at least do the pedal pusher with my arms for 10 minutes. On Friday I did it 7 minutes with the physical therapist. I sure feel it in my upper body/shoulders this morning.