opeth14's Journal
nov/4/09Nov 04 2009 19:34
Life sucks. I hate being so short. Regural teenage boys eat 3000+ calories a day, I eat like 2500 and I still feel extremely flabby. I can barely see my abs anymore unless I flex, and while I don't care how I look that much it makes me feel so out of shape. My friends' snacks are as calorific as my meals. I hate never being able to just eat what I want. I hate being the shortest one in my class. I hate the fact that I have no 'real' friends. I hate that I can't spend a second without feeling extremely self-concious about my flab. I hate the bloating feeling I get after every. single. meal or snack, which lasts until a few minutes before my next meal, so I spend the entire day, every day with a stomach ache. I hate people making fun of my height. I hate the fact that my brother is a bodybuilder so everyone expects me to be 'ripped' as well. I hate feeling like a whale. I hate looking like a nerdy twelve year old (I'm 14). In short, I hate my life.
/endrant
opeth what as happened ?*hugs*. im so sorry you are feeling this way , your not whale , i think you whole body image is still distorted . i really wish i could do somrthing to help and get you to see the lovely person you are please hang on in there , youve worked so hard h xx where is your picture i dont like the? |
Try not to worry. You're only 14 and everyone grows at different rates. You have to keep yourself healthy so you can grow like you are supposed to. I was always really tall when I was a (not so little loll) girl and I felt so self conscious because I was a head taller than all the boys, especially in middle school. But when I got to high school, guys started growing like crazyyyyy. So stay postitive. You are NOT a whale but your self image is distorted. But the longer you work towards health, you will see yoruself as you really are. I understand the bloating too, but recognize that as feeling "full" not fat. And your appetite will start to increase as you continue to grow. You can do this. Don't go back into your ED. Being a teen is fun most of the time and you don't want to miss it. Especially not high school! Btw, when I saw some of your posts on forums, Idk, I felt inspired that such a young kid could be so smart and motivated. Somehow, I felt super happy the rest of the day. Not to be creepy or anything lol.
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Thank you both for your kind words... you've truly helped me feel better about myself. And tessa, I've put back my profile picture. I'll try to update it soon. |
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