ozmagirl's Journal

Scared
Oct 02 2008 10:55

Okay so my next weigh in is tomorrow and I'm really scared.  What if I haven't lost any weight?  I think I would be really devastated.  I felt like my tummy was bigger yesterday and I had 1534 calories which is way higher than my typical 1350 average.  I don't know what will happen tomorrow morning but I am really worried.

I don't want to become obsessive...but I am working towards a goal and I am working very hard.  To see no progress or god forbid a gain would devastate me.

I also feel really guilty when I eat big meals...even though I know I am following the SB rules, I still feel like I am eating portions that are much too large and that I should not be having.  Like what if when I get off this phase and add in carbs again...my portions are too big and I gain weight??

I am tempted to stay on phase 1, but  I know that is not healthy.  Instead I will add back the fruit and only have 1 meal that has a whole grain in it.  Either lunch or dinner as breakfast will be fruit/ yogurt.

I just have to be really careful....I will do my best though.  I WILL GET TO MY GOAL THIS TIME.  I WILL NOT GIVE UP THIS TIME.  I WILL NOT SAY THAT IT DOESN"T MATTER BECAUSE IT ALWAYS DOES IN THE END.