ozmagirl's Journal

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Dec 18 2008 15:08

So Ive been sick for a couple of weeks which has not been fun.  It kept me out of the gym for the whole time and I have suffered for it.  I couldnt even get past 2.5 miles yesterday (1st day back) whereas two weeks ago I was running 4.5 before I even stopped running. 

Either way, I am 5lbs away from my goal.  It seems so completely unbelievable to me.  I know I look better, though I still feel like I am fat sometimes when I see a bulge over my jeans or whatever.  I wonder when that feeling will go away.  I'm a size six now which I never thought I would see again and it feels so amazing to me!  Everyone keeps commenting on how much weight I have lost, but I'm still not quite there.  I don't know when I will get to the right spot, but it doesn't feel right just yet. 

I used to hate when I saw thin people complain about being fat...but now I guess I can see how they feel.  I don't feel thin even though I may look it.  I still feel overweight though the scale tells me otherwise.  I hope that this changes soon.  I don't want to keep striving for a goal that has already been reached.  Once I get to 125 I want to feel like that is it and I don't need to lose more.