paigeyj's Journal

I'm back again

May 05 2009 11:31

i guess it does count for something that i do keep getting back up on this beast right? after gaining 20 of the 45 i lost back i am back with a vengence!

I jumped of that wagon again!

Feb 09 2009 14:19

This food addiction kicks my butt sometimes. I jumped off the wagon for a little while but i am back. I don't like to say i fell off the wagon because i think i need to take some ownership in it. I have an amazing trip to vegas planned at the end of this month and don't want to be a fatty when i go. whatever it takes i guess. i am also thinking about joining curves. i have heard great things and would love to tone up a little.

Sweet success

Jan 08 2009 07:30

I have really been struggling since christmas to stay on track, but i had a very good successful day yesterday. No over eating, I ate all healthy foods, i exercised, got enough sleep, i meditated. WOW!!! I met all my goals yesterday. I was a little mean to my family though. not sure what that was all about. I hope today is as good as yesterday. So far so good. I have stretched and meditated, eaten a healthy breakfast and exercised! And i got plenty of sleep last night. Yeah for me!!!

the holidays got me!

Dec 30 2008 12:53

Well here i am 9 lbs heavier over just 3 weeks of holiday eating. I told myself that i was not going to let it happen but i fell into the holiday eating trap. the good news is i am back here with plenty of inspiration and hope. Also my hubby is on board with me now which is such a suprise because he has never cared about his weight in the 12 years we have been together. He said he doesn't want to be the overweight lug that has everyone wondering "what the hell is she doing with him?" He's kinda sweet huh? We went on an hour long walk with our kids and dogs last night. He kept suggesting we go farther and so we ended up walking way farther than we usually do when we go without him. I am so excited to have someone to do this with. Hope everyone out there is doing good and staying on track!

overdose!

Dec 03 2008 22:59

I did so good all day. Then tonight i went crazy on the sweets. I raided the house for anything sweet and totally binged. Now i am sick to my stomach and sick of myself. But it made me think of why? Why did i do this? I cam to the conclusion that i was feeling overwhelmed. I have been decorating for christmas. My house is a disaster and I am so behind on the decorating thing this year. I usually have it done by the end of the thanksgiving weekend but we went out of town, then when we got back my husband had to go back to work. He usually helps me and i really need his help because some of the stuff is to heavy for me to drag out of the basement. He works 12 to 14 hours a day and next weekend we have 2 parties to go to in which i am sure he will be hungover after the one on saturday night. so he won't be much help on sunday either. So i feel like i have to do it all myself! Also I have a photography studio in my home that i work out of and it is a disaster too because i have been really busy with my business. I have some important clients coming friday so I have to get it all cleaned up and ready for them. And to top it all off I have a sick kid! I learned that the feeling of being overwhelmed is a trigger for me. So not all is lost i guess.

Funny story!

Dec 02 2008 22:29

ok so i weighed about a week ago for the first time in a couple months and the scale told me i have gained about 12 lbs. I was baffled because although i had not been really diligent, i had not gone way off course either. I was terrified. I gave all my big clothes away so i would not have anything to wear if i gained the weight back. My clothes didn't feel tight though. I couldn't understand. And i have committed to myself that i will not yo-yo anymore! I was so depressed and that is when i decided to start CC again and get back on the wagon. So the other day my 6 year old daughter was in the bathroom with me while i was getting ready for the day and she jumped on the scale. It said she weighed 54 lbs. I knew she did not weigh that much so i got down and started messing with the scale. Turns out it was stuck or something. After messing with it for a minute i put her back on it and it said she weighed 42 lbs. So I got on and it turns out I haven't gained even one little lb.! lol. whew! I tortured myself for nothing but at least it got me back here and back on track with out having to gain weight to scare me into it. My god works in mysterious ways!

Scared of food

Nov 26 2008 13:03

I don't want to be scared of food anymore! With thanksgiving tomorrow, i am afraid once i start i won't stop. I'll just keep on eating right through new years. I will not cave. I will not cave. I will not give up my new healthy choices for a pumpkin pie!!! Being a food adict sucks!!! Also i have to go to my sisters today and help her bake! ahhhhhh! pray for me.

Here We go!

Nov 25 2008 13:33

Last night i chose to have movie theatre buttery popcorn, milkduds, and a diet soda for dinner. lol. I went to see the new movie twilight with my other friends that have read the book, and knowing i would no be able to resist the treats i chose to make them my dinner. amazingly i still came in under calorie allowance, but i still felt horrible for eating that way!

So here we go into the thanksgiving weekend. I'm not scared! lol. yes i am a little. My family starts eating tomorrow and doesn't stop till christmas! So my plan is to stay on plan tomorrow, thursday i am not going to count but i am not going to stuff myself either. Moderation, and enjoy the holiday is my motto! Then friday we all go to the mountains to cut a christmas tree and we take turkey sandwiches, hot chocolate, and pie. leftovers. so i will eat the leftovers but i will count! Pray for us all. We'll be alright! crossing my fingers.

I had a couple rough days

Nov 23 2008 16:38

Well yes i had a couple days where i was very busy and out and about. My grandma took me out to lunch and then my hubby and i went out last night to dinner. I didn't do too bad. I didn't eat enough calories to gain weight but i sure was pushing it. I am proud of myself for still logging my intake. Usually when i know i am screwing up i just throw in the towel and don't log that day. I give myself a free ticket to pig out. I did not do that this time. Progress not perfection! Today has been good so far but i still have to get through dinner. Turkey bugers. I should be alright!

A successful day

Nov 20 2008 23:39

Ah i made it through a day within goal. i ate within my calorie allowance and measured my food and all that. I feel great about this little success!