patchesnpockets420's Journal

Recovery
Nov 06 2009 11:13

So hubby's party was a great success!  But it was hell on my calorie counting, by Monday I was up 2.5 lbs, but considering I fell of the "wagon" per se for the whole weekend  not so bad.  As of yesterday I was only up .4 lbs, I'll take it.  I haven't been counting the best this week, but I don't think eating terribly or anything.  Trying to start back on 1600 calories today, but I may be a little higher than that due to some sushi and sake I plan on taking in this evening!  LOL!!!!  I"ve already had 650 calories today and it's not even lunch, hubby wanted to go out for breakfast and a coffee- its so hard to tell him no when he doesn't ask very often.  I guess I"ll just try and eat very moderately today! 

I am still in shock that I lost 10 lbs last month!  I am hoping to lose at least 5 this month, with 2 Thanksgivings its a small hurdle.  But I have plans to keep hiking, which I feel is really helping.  I go to the gym 3 times a week and do 65 minutes of cardio and 25 minutes of weight training, and then have been hiking between 5-10 miles each week also.  I really love the 10 mile hikes, they kick my butt!  But I know that I worked my WHOLE body.  I can feel it everywhere.  I have a new hike planned for next week, its 9.8 miles in John Bryan State Park. 

All my jeans are feeling very lose, even my "skinny" pants, I know we all have them.  They're the jeans that hardly ever fit.  Well mine are baggy, and I don't care for baggy pants at all.  So next week I plan on making a trip to by a pair of jeans or two.  Its exciting, I'm pretty sure I'll be buying a size 14- YAY!  That's a major accomplishment for me.  I haven't worn a 14 in oh about 6 years or so.  I need to clean out my closet, its filled with clothes that do not fit me well anymore.  I want to set it up so only clothes that fit me well will be in reach, oh and my work out gear. 

Hubby keeps telling me how good I look- he's the sweetest guy ever!  I actually do feel like I look better thanI have in a long while.  I took my measurements: 40-32-44!!!!!!!!  Yeah, really starting to feel like I look "normal" again.  For a long time I felt huge and disgusting, but now I feel average.  I definitely am not stopping here though.  I'm hoping to hit 177 for the end of the year.  That's only 10 lbs in 2.5 months.  Hopefully I lose much more than that, but I want to set realistic goals so I feel good about accomplishments, not bad about near misses. 

Weight loss is really a mood lifter.  I have been so happy lately.  Happy about the food I"m making, the weight I"m losing, the way I'm looking, the way I'm feeling, the exercising I'm doing.  I just feel HAPPY!  I want to feel like this forever.  Now if only it made me as happy to clean the house and it does to have it already clean, lol.    But really losing weight is making me feel like I am in control of my life again.  When I was 229 lbs I was very sad, and today when I look at my stretch marks from the time in my life they make me sad.  But I am trying to view them as scars from a traumatic time in my life.  Its true it may never be possible for me to wear a bikini without disapproving looks, and as I see my body changing to a more bikin-esque shape that does make me very sad.  But bring on the super cute one piece,lol!!!!  I leave for Mexico in 37 days!!!!  OMG I"m just realizing that!!!!!!  So maybe I better step it up!!!!  I would love to hit that 180 mark by Dec 14th!!!!  It would really take a lot of discipline though,  I am spending about a week with family.  Which means eating out, not exercising, and food pushers.  Maybe I'll start with adding another day of exercise and maybe drop my calories to 1500 for awhile. 

I also want to thank you all for the kind words and encouragement.  It means the world to me, and makes me stay focused!  I hope that I can do the same for you too.  I want to see everyone succeed in their goals, and live healthy and happy lives!  So ladies, I hope you have an amazing weekend!!!!