prchick's Journal

Well, after 6 months of slipping up completely... and gaining all the weight back... it's time to start over.

The pressure of my wedding in June made me give up on the diet... then we just let go completely and REALLY enjoyed the honeymoon - dinner out every night. 

So in 2 months I gained about 28lbs.  Disgusting!

Every day I think I should start over.  And every day something happens to distract me, or upset me.  A birthday party, an invitation to go out and drink (which in itself is fine, cos I drink spirits with diet soda) but then I usually stop and buy a kebab on the way home, or fish n' chips.  Old habits are hard to break.

Then in the morning, it's back to feeling shitty about the night before, and being determined to make a positive change.  Then something happens and I'm right back to eating that big bowl of pasta I crave!

Vicious cycle!

Thing is, I know how good i feel when I'm losing the weight, and how much more energy I have when I eat well.  I just seem to have a block against making the change.  I just don't feel strong enough to do it.

It would help if my husband got on board... but so far he hasn't wanted to.  I know he's unhappy with his weight too.  Maybe I'll broach the subject again with him... who knows.

Wish me luck.

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