puh8suwrux's Journal
Hump DayNov 04 2009 09:12
Today has been a good day so far. We ALL went to bed an hour earlier than usual (good use of Daylight Savings), so I was up and ready to go when my alarm went off. The kids actually slept past the time I usually wake them up by about 15 minutes. But #1 was so much more cooperative than she has been, it was worth making her morning a bit more of a rush. And I was able to get the dishwasher and washing machine going before we went off to school, so I'm feeling like I have already accomplished something.
The potty still hasn't been fixed - we started to last night then realized we couldn't attach it to the floor because the plastic flange ring in the floor had deteriorated. So back to the hardware store, and maybe we'll actually get it done tonight. I'm not stressed about it.
The more I learn about myself, the more I realize I NEED to have things in order to feel calm and peaceful and successful. Having to search for library books in piles of clutter makes me feel like a failure. Having 3 different shoes with no matches for #1 in the morning makes me feel like a failure.
Before kids, I could have a pile of things and not feel too stressed about it because things stayed where I left them. I knew where things were, even if they were in a pile. With kids, though, things get moved around, and there are so many MORE piles - that just isn't working any more!
Things are improving, slowly but surely. I just can't quit. The kids are starting to help more on their own - they like things clean too, they just have bad habits to overcome (like me). As long as I keep it up, I see a house that we can invite the kids' friends over to. I SO want our house to be the house all the kids want to come to. The COOL parents - so I can keep an eye on my kids, and know who their friends are. And I want friends TOO!
My parents are coming to visit Friday and Saturday, leaving Sunday morning. And for the first time in a long time, I am not stressed at this prospect. The kitchen looks decent, the living room looks decent (both need a bit of cleaning, but the piles are gone!)
And I feel like I have pretty well found the path I will take in dealing with their change in religion - simply not showing any interest in it, and stating directly I am not interested should they persist. I still feel a little betrayed, which is perhaps silly, but I feel a bit criticised when they talk about changes they have made from the way they raised me (since I haven't really strayed from that).
Gonna try to stay off the computer today, and get a lot of stuff done. And to do better on my diet! It is sunshiney and cool today, beautiful fall weather.
i wish i could get you to relax a little, although i have to say you are doing better. you are such a warm loving person with a grt personality you give yourself such a role to play model mum housewife , to try hard ypou really dont need to . no way in gods earth are you a failure you have achieved so many things i for one look up to you. why wouldnt all the little kiddies want to come to your home ? i want to and im not even a kid:) glad your not stressing about your parents coming. perhaps i should follow you and stay off the computer a bit hope you have a good night all my love h x |
Thanks, Helen - you warm my heart. I know I stress about things too much - but my house had become a health hazard, truly. It really was time to make a change, so that I could vaccum more than once every three months, so that I could walk through a room without stepping on things, so that I could actually wipe off the counters and the table, so that I could mop more than once or twice a year. Things had really gotten bad - and I was so overwhelmed by it all, I just quit. And it got worse. So, now I am trying to make more of my time, to get things cleaned up little by little, and not waste so much of it doing silly things like playing computer games. Though don't get me wrong - I do that almost daily. Just not for hours at a time. Sending a bit of my sunshiney day to you, dear friend. |
This post made me smile. I feel easily overwhelmed with things are messy but I am multi-task maniac when things are in order. It takes some time to get in the habit of finding a place for everything. I used post-it notes to help train the kiddies. Everything had a post-it on the bottom. I am ridiculous too...I used colors for each room. It was more for the kids. It made it easier if they could pick the object up and know right away it was in the wrong room. I try to make everything a game though to get everyone feeling less defensive and more cooperative. I hope you have a wonderful day and you get much accomplished! |
Their change in religion was to a cult, wasn't it? :) Heh, I share your pain. The clutter of my home, when left unchecked, makes me very frustrated when I finally attempt to rein it in. K tries to help, so that makes it easier. I feel so bad about your bathroom. I think I would've had a nervous breakdown! ((((Ruxie))) |
Ha, SSS - it FEELS like it is a cult. They basically only have friends that share their beliefs now, which is sort of a neo-messianic judaism (I was raised rather fundamentalist Christian). They go do campouts in New Mexico and spend a lot of their free time with these people. And keep leaving things "for us to look at" trying to influence us. Not comfortable at all. |
i understand , thanks for sharing this with me h x |
So you can log your weight -- which allows you to do the following:
- Plot your weight curve
- Analyze the trend of your weight (see under Recent in the figure above)
- Determine the projected target date (see under Overall in the figure above)
