rainbowjelly's Journal

Saturday

Nov 15 2009 09:05

Wow is the weather heating up. We are expecting all temps in the 30's this week. I had my first swim since last summer yesterday. I could of swam at other times too but usually i am too lazy lol. I didn't swim for long because it gets a bit boring swimming up and down in the pool. We just got banana lounges so i jumped out and spent some time tanning.

Yesterday i ate good again. I only hit 1300 cals though, just was not as hungry as usual but today i will probably go for 1700-1800 to make up for it. I had 2 egg white and protein powder pancakes for brekkie, tuna and salad wrap-apple-yoghurt for lunch, fibre bar and some rice crackers in the arvo, 2 coucous, tuna and veggie stuffed mushrooms and more veggies for dinner and a frozen yoghurt and wonka nerds after dinner.

I have been super thirsty of late. Usually i struggle to get down 6 glasses of water but i have been drinking 7 with no worries for the past few days and a couple of cans of coke zero (oops).

I am just waiting for Chris (bf) to come home and then we have Date Day ha ha. We are catching the train to the city, buying tickets to 2012, then having lunch in the city gardens and then going back to watch our movie. I am taking my lunch and snacks so i don't have the urge to eat cinema food lol.

Hope everyone is going great and remember, it's only a day at a time. As soon as i stopped giving myself a goal date, i found my attitude completley changed.

Friday

Nov 13 2009 19:56

Well today, I just wanted to eat my feelings lol. I went to the specialist and he was great but i found out i have Alopecia Areata. This is where you immune system attacks your hair follicles and makes your hair fall out. I have the first stage at the moment and have to put steroid ointment on the bald parts for a few months and hopefully it will re grow. If not, i will then have steroid injected into the bald patches and if that does not work, then i will go bald. So at least i have a name now but it sucks i have AA. Its a hereditary problem, my auntie has the worst kind where she has no body hair what so ever.

So yeah its only hair but I am still a little sad and i wanted to eat my feelings lol. I did well and only had a few bits of cookie. I cannot believe how well i am doing. 3 weeks of no over eating or binging. I am soooooooooo happy.

Today i made "pancakes" for breakfast. I used 3 egg whites and a scoop of chocolate protein powder. It looks gross in the mixing bowl because the powder stays clumped but if you just pour it into the pan you get a massive pancake and it tastes great. I had a lentil mix for lunch, protein bar in the arvo and whole wheat pita pizza for dinner. I also jumped on the bike and went for a ride with the bf this afternoon.

By the way...i lost 1.6lbs this week. I must be under estimating my exercise calories but i thought burning 300 calories for 30min bike riding was over estimating..hmmm.

Monday

Nov 09 2009 19:44

Helloooooo.

I got my results back and had my last 8am start. 4 distinctions, 5 credits and top in 6 of my 8 exams for the whole course. So although my perfectionist personality is coming through, i realised I should still be so proud.

Caught the train home at 10am, threw my gym stuff on and off i went. Had an awesome workout at the gym today. 30min on the stationary bike and 30min hiit. Burnt about 500 calories. Ok so when i say awesome, i mean i managed to last an hour but seriously, it is possibly i am just not a gym person? I struggle to last an hour at the gym and i take my ipod and book but i still get bored. I only use the treadmill and stationary bike, the only other thing is the elliptical and I just die on it. I don't do weights. The reason being I go home in 4 ish weeks so no point starting a weights routine then having to quit for 6 weeks.

Breakfast today was a fibre bar, apple and some cruskits.
Lunch was fish strips, veggies and watermelon
Afternoon snack was yoghurt, granola and a pear
Dinner was a tuna and vegetable stir fry
Night snack included some wonka nerds and a yoghurt

I am pretty full now. I had an 800 cal deficit today so i am thinking of having a break from exercise tomorrow and using those extra 300 calories. Do you think this is a good idea or should I just have a bigger deficit?

Tomorrow i am staying at the library to help my friend fix up her ethics report and then i will probably just watch another episode of One Tree Hill. I am hooked but am only half way through season one ha ha.

Sunday

Nov 08 2009 16:38

Hello again bloggies,

I have decided to start blogging again because I have 2 more days left of college and I am done for the year so blogging takes up a little time and therefore I am less bored.

Weight front? I think I have finally realised it doesn't matter how slow you lose the weight, it's more of how healthy you are. I still have about 8lbs to go but once I lose 4lbs I will be pretty excited. I am currently 147 and I would like to be 139. I think that is reasonable for nearly 5 ft 9.I don't care how long it takes me either.

I still go to the gym every now and then. It's just boring for me. I am more of a do things outdoors type plus we now have a stationary bike at home woo hoo!!

College front? Just finished my exams. I got 100% on one of them, I do NOT know how i pulled that off. I also got 95%, 90% and 80%. AND guess what!!! I applied for Law at UNI. I am so scared because it's going to be really hard and I may not get in because they base our entry on our school rank as well as our collge rank which i think is dumb because the whole point of going to college is to get a better rank, you know?

Well anyway, I saw this saying "Stop talking yourself out of the life you want". And I have never been hit by something meaning so much but i did this time. I realised, I DO want to study law, so why should I not apply? I need to stop talking myself out of things I want.

Two more exciting things...actually three. I have not binged for 15 days, today is my 16th. I have not survived this long for more than nearly 4 years. Second exciting thing, tomorrow I find out my final class grades. I am hoping for one distinction and lots of credits. And third, only 4 weels and 5 days until I go home to WA for a holiday

Take That.

Sep 12 2009 07:28

So for the past 2 days I ate about 3 000 calories each day. Now hopefully my body will realise, No it's not dying/starving/ being deprived etc and get over it's little problem. This is what I did in the beginning when I found I was not losing weight and eventually I started losing again. I know I only did it for 2 days but that many calories is a bit hard to eat when i am use to 1500-1800 calories. I ate a lot of pb and drank lots of milk to help get my calories up lol.

The only thing that bothers me is that i should of been at my goal weight in 2 weeks and It's not going to happen now. Oh well, as long as I see SOME sort of loss next Friday i will be happy. It's so frusturating knowing you put in the effort and get nothing in return.

On those 2 days the only exercise I did was going for a 2k jog on the road and going for a 30min power walk, no bike! I just like the bike so much because it's the easiest way for me to burn BIG calories.

Well I hope this some how has worked. If I am at a plateau still, will my body be able to lose the amount of calories I went over and just go back to the weight i was before or will it hold onto them? I just wonder so i can figure if i am over it?

Maintenance Day 1

Sep 10 2009 17:26

Today i was STARVING which i guess is a good thing considering i am trying to reach my maintenance calories (1800), i tried to be healthy for the most part.

Breakfast: 2 pieces ww toast with pb, apple
Snack: yoghurt with a few almonds chopped up
Snack: apple, carrot, 2 pieces fake meat
Lunch: tuna, 4 crackers, 1 gingernut
Snack: orange, rice crackers
Snack: crackers
Dinner: herbed fish strips, veggies
Treat: nerds, protein bar.

There you have it, 1800 calories. My sedentary maintenance calories. But I am going for a quick jog which burns about 130 calories so i will need to eat them back considering i am eating maintenance for 4 days to try see if that helps break the plateau. No stationary bike for me

Should i go over maintenance? I don't know.

Well tomorrow is treat day which means i can eat what ever i want as long as i stay in my calories so i will definately make it up there lol.

Plateau?

Sep 10 2009 06:48

OH NO!!!! I have never experienced this before but yep, i think i have hit a plateau. It's stupid because this time i have tried so hard and done the right thing and what happens, i hit a plateau. I have never hit one in my whole entire life. Why would i this time? I have been close to my weight loss goal before and weighed 8lbs less than i do now even though i only want to lose 4lbs and not plateaued.

For the past 2 weeks I have weighed in EXACTLY the same and in reality i should be down 2.4lbs. I am so ANGRY and ANNOYED. I have even had a 3600 deficit so far this week and i have lost ZILCH. I'm pretty sure it's a plateau as 4 days into the first week i weighed the same as what i did on the 5th day, 7th day, 10th day and now the 13th day. Once it went down 2 ounces but never saw that again.

I'm not too sure how to fix this? Why bother if i'm not losing weight? I'm trying to think if anything changed when it occurred. The only thing i can think is that i upped my exercise. For the past two weeks, some days i was doing 2hrs of exercise. Yesterday i did 3hrs. Sometimes i eat enough to compensate and sometimes not. I have been eating a bit less protein and more carbs but ratio's don't matter THAT much do they?

The plateau started after my 10k run when i started upping the exercise. I drink about 6-8 glasses of water a day and my sodium never goes over 2 000mg. I also stopped going to the gym as much and just using the stationary bike at home..any where from 30min-1.5 hours. I have also been walking on the streets. I only ever used the bike and tredmill at the gym so its not like i do some complex workout plus i want a break from the gym.

So what i am not sure about is, if i ate maintenance, would i then gain because i am maintaining on less than maintenance? I could eat maintenance for a week but then i don't want to gain and be stuck with that weight. I don't think having a high calorie day will do anything because i tried that LAST friday when i saw no weight loss. I ate 3 100 calories and it didn't "break it". If i do nothing, will it eventually fix itself?

I'm a bit annoyed but trying to tell myself I am STRONGER and BETTER than this

EDIT: I checked my measurements and they are the same as per 2 weeks ago.
EDIT 2: Would eating maintenance and ditching a lot of the exercise help? Just go back to 30mins of walking or LIGHT riding?

25 days

Sep 07 2009 20:38

Passed last weeks exam, think I did fine on this weeks exam and came top in 3 practise exams. Just need to pull it off for the real ones lol. Just went to college today, then went to the courts with some class buddies to view some trials, very interesting i must say.

Todays eats:

Breakfast: crackers, yoghurt
Snack: carrot, strawberries
Snack: crackers, yoghurt
Lunch: big piece of hoki fish, veggies
Snack: orange, few crackers, shredded wheat cracker
Dinner: lentil pie, serving of pasta, veggies
Treat: nerds, shredded wheat cracker

exercise: 25min stationary bike, 2 hours walking around the city and up and down the court stairs, corridoors ec

I eat many "snacky"meals whilst at college to stop from raiding the vending machine.

Father's Day

Sep 06 2009 19:41

Pretty proud of myself today, i did not go over my calories, i just ate maintenance (1800 calories). I honestly did not have time to exercise let alone study for my exams arrghh...can you say cramming

Anyway i ended up eating the following

Breakfast: 1 piece wholegrain toast, 1 egg white, 1 piece fake meat
Snack: strawberry no fat yoghurt, rice crackers
Lunch: spinach pie, salad, half a bread roll, cupcake
Snack: fruit and 2 gingernut biscuits
Dinner: still full so veggie sticks, cottage cheese, crackers
Dessert: frozen yoghurt

I think i am in love with light pastry. The spinach pie was SOOO light, it had ricotta, cottage cheese, mint, parsley, spinach and light filo pastry.

I was pretty hungry this morning so figured i would make sure i ate enough before we went to chris' relatives house otherwise i would of ate everything. I said no to all cakes, biscuits etc but yes to a nice cupcake.

Just for the record, i didn't eat wonka nerds for 4 days :) So i CAN do it..plus I didn't eat any today so i definately am doing better.

Plus I am considering maintenance already just because i am a bit sick of losing and i'm thinking about it not because i want to be able to eat more but because i believe i am ready to start maintaining as i have developed a way healthier relationship with food than i had when i started gaining weight at the beginning of this year. The only thing is that i always think in my head, well i have gotten down to "said weight" so i need to do that again but i need to tell myself that i am a healthy weight (BMI 21.6) AND i am the fittest i have been in a long time. The last thing being when i go into maintenance mode, i find i lose weight still anyway because i am adjusting still.

27 days

Sep 05 2009 08:21

Ok so i decided to re evaluate my goal and decided that i am going to give myself until 2nd October to lose the weight otherwise I would have had to push myself a little too hard for the 25th September and that's why i think i was getting angry about gaining such small amounts. I think everyone will agreee but when you seem to work so hard (exercise wise) and eat right and then the scale does not reflect that, you get pretty diseartened because your always told that if you try hard you will succeed.

I think i will definately just stick to a once a week weigh in because i find if i weigh in the middle of the week, i seem to be up a little then all of a sudden i drop 1-2 days before my weigh in day. Soooo rather than see this as a set back, i'm just going to keep going because 27 days is NOTHING compared to the 12 weeks it use to be. Plus the next 3-4 weeks will go fast because this week coming i have some practise exams so classes are not at normal time, then i have a party this saturday, then it's my last week of college before holidays, then i have one week holidays and then i come back and the first week back is the easiet and then i will weigh in on the Friday and hopefully see 63kg lol.

I get pretty excited about maintaining lol, i have not maintained for 7 months so it will be hard to get use to it again but i really want to get to the point where i can maintain my weight at my sedentary calories without gaining. I definately ate more food this time whilst losing the weight so hopefully it will happen.

So i am going to the gym in 50min with a friend. I have not been for 2 weeks lol but this is because we got an exercise bike so i have been doing that plus going for walks etc. I am pretty proud to say that i exercise practically every day now...give or take a day or two here and there so i am pretty proud of myself.

I'm off for a nice cup of coffee before i go and then am coming back to a new creation i found on a blogger's website. You should all try it:

1/3cup oats
2tbs cocoa powder
1/2 mashed banana
1 packet sweetner

Cook like normal, moosh it out to look like a cookie and drizzle with a little bit of Peanut butter and a blob of greek yoghurt. YUM. I would link you guys but i don't know how to link, if anyone knows how can they please leave a comment and let me know. I want to be able to do it so i can be like "yummy cookie here" and the yummy cookie here is the link.

Have a great day everyone and hope your all feeling great and strong to lose weight, maintain, be healthy, exercise more etc etc