replenish's Journal

updater
Mar 03 2009 21:58

meer, I haven't posted on this for a long time and I'm supposed to be studying for bio but..got distracted as usual. x]

So..the overeating problem is slowly getting better, well not good enough to call it "normal eating" just a over indulgence I suppose. It was doing fairly well cause there was no junk food at home to really eat but then like always, dad brings home satan's food. A rasphberry cake, chex mix, and a big box of chocolate (I was known to eat about 900 calories worth of those in one sitting). Though I over indulged on the cake which I coughed up 800 calories (metaphorically speaking of course) or in simpler terms 2 slices. Yesterday I only ate one slice and was satisfied suprisingly. Today I managed to even out the food I ate and didn't just mindlessly eat a ton of calories in one sitting. Though I still think this is a bad habit even though it's been getting better somehow. Now the problem- exercising- I've always been an active type.. exercising from 1 hour-close to 3 hours everyday but I was sick last week and took a week off. Now I'm just really lazy and don't feel like exercising at all, nada! I have to get back to my exercise habit even if it takes away my studying time. Come home, eat a yogurt, jog for 40 mins and then hwk. Snack..skip for 30 mins and then finish with dinner. Simple said then done, I always end up dragging myself home and first thing that's on my mind is food! Gaah. So fat D:
Well, today I exercised for 80 mins and reminded me of how nice it feels so tomorrow I'll keep at it. 1500 calories tomorrow cause of 2500 calories eaten today -__-; (dam cake) and 1 hour exercise. No more strenous exercise. I want to stick to studying for school. Barely making it past honour roll, If I get a min of 67% in bio then I'll get honours. I just really hope it's more than that.. been slacking off school for way to long now. I know every mark cept gey bio, frickin Mr.L >___< 

Oh yea, did I mention not eating half the bag of chex. It just..didn't taste as good as it did before which totally turned me away from eating more of it. Happy, yet still sad that I have even more rolls on my belly and that I can feel the damn fat when I bend inwards. So uncomfortablee, I really wish the fat would go away fast but it will take at least a month to see the fat finally burn off. Nice and slow..

uuuhhhhhhhhh so, my small goal right now, regardless of calories is to give up junk food for good. Starting with one week then one month, and so on...

I MUST ACCOMPLISH IT! I WON'T BE A FCUKIN FAILURE ANYMORE!