restless_girl's Journal
Food Diary - 12th AugustAug 12 2009 20:09
I was thinking, OH GREAT! A deficit!
... Then realised I just drank it away with booze.
Breakfast: 1/2 cup of home-made muesli W/ 3/4 cup of rice milk
Snack: 1 peanut butter and honey sandwich, chocolate chip cookie, half a cupcake
.... Oh god I didn't log the peanut butter sandwich....
Lunch: 1 foot long veggie delight sub from Subway, +1 pack of salt and vinegar chips, christ, didn't log the chips either.
Snack: crackers and cheese W/chutney and sauce
Dinner: Chinese takeaways
Snacks: 2 squares of chocolate, 1 (maybe anotheri n a minute) smirnoff ice)
Total Calories: a billlon.
Ok, it's 1,966 not counting chips, peanut butter and honey sandwich, chocolate and smirrnoff....
So easily 3000, if not closer to 4 i would imagine with all the occasional picking and probable underestimating with the takeout.
*sob* I feel like craaaap.
Sad, depressed and lonely.
I feel like a devorced 32 year old with no hope of happiness ever again.
I feel like I might as well die now because there isn't anything left for me.
... more booze perhaps...
One day can't wreck anything; there is always a tomorrow where you can wake up and start over. I have felt totally hopeless at times. I still never know quite what to say to others going through the rough stuff but just know that you will get through it, you are stronger than you think and this too will pass. It's not a matter of 'maybe', it's a matter of 'when'. It might take a while but you'll wake up one day and have a little more energy, wake up a while later and feel a little more motivated... eventually you'll look back on this time and realise that you did get through it ok in the end. Oh and I hope divorced 32 year olds still have a chance at happiness cos they still got a long 50-60 years ahead otherwise! Haha |
I actually think its great that you are logging!Logging helps me calm down in times of emotional stress because I feel like its one thing that I am doing that is positive, even if I go over. Keeping a log is like a steady hand when I am a rocky boat. I agree with merylwhite1 that tomorrow is another day and its a matter of ;when' not 'maybe'. There will be days when you are delighted at how well you did, and days when you feel like crap because you overate. It doesnt matter, its the long-term average that matters. Oh, and I was 30 years old, no self esteem and just broken up with someone I thought was forever- not very long ago. Never thought I would be happily married and 22 lb lighter just three years later! Dont give up- you ALWAYS have a chance! |
I usually find logging depressing, as I usually only have a 200cal deficit and have been hungry all day. I know, and I'm not even 32! I honestly expected Matt and I would be together forever. |
Hey girl I have had those days and I admire you for having the courage to put up the truth. You can look at it and see that is what they mean when they say sweets, beer and take out is not good for you. It's because all those calories add up so fast and lets face it we are not in our 20s anymore. I used to think no one would want me until I went out and had fun for the first time in a long time. I looked good and felt good and yes I still have a ways to go but thats what u have to do.... one day at a time. Cheers ;-) |
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