samanthasuerte's Journal

new day- Honorio, post dating Brian...
Nov 11 2009 21:41

Its been a while since i last wrote. And I was at 197 a few days ag...or was it yesterday? Hopefully I didnt screw that up by maxing out on PB n J sans bread. But ate two bread this morn with Honorio, who stayed the night last night. He n Luana, from what I gather , are heading separate ways. I dodnt ask or probe...its none of my business but thats where it feels liek its heading.

another reason not to date an artist.... flighty creative types? World wanderer? So imagining being with someone liek Brian (in Gillette NJ) who is honest n trustworthy and form farm in Michigan..who earns good $$ but works hard (An enjoys what he does) is interesting to ponder.

I guess thi skind of DOES feel like A FULL TIME JOb in some ways... but I think id be embarrassed to say thats what I was doing. Hmmm...

ANyway, Don, yes, his name is Don. The actor/theater guy, seems really in touch with his feelings and a good communictaor and wants to live in the city. But hes 45. Brian is 43. MAybe kind of old for baby making. But then, Praveen, well, though hes 30, we never actually met and that may not get off teh ground. I meet up with Don on Saturday. Will likely be raining n we are scheduled to just meet for coffee at 3. If it goes well, we can extend to more I supose thats the thinknig.

Id  like to hear from Brian again- at least to set up a  2nd date. That much would be nice. But maybe I shouldnt have mentioned the pig farmer coming along on our non existant 2nd date to do teh vertical tour at St John The Divine.

Hmmmm.... or he's charmed by my reaching out to country bumpkin bearded old guy. Gues sthats why i mntioned it to see if he could handle  it but that is weird too Elise!!

ANyway, I spoke with Tatra, saw her pad as it looks now and shes goin to acupuncture n stuf to try n increase her chances of having baby. Its kind of strange but I am just feeling like ill get pregnant if Im meant to. IT SO would be nice to be preggo at the same time as the girls though...

ok, gotta go.

calling Tracy now and seeing if shes coming and posted my apt for vacation ..seems she got lots of responses n networking...