sasami9969's Journal

I Hate Being A Girl
Nov 11 2009 00:07

UGH.  I'm so fustrated right now.  It's my freakin time of the month, and for some unknown reason I decided to weigh myself.  now when this curse first started on saturday i weighed myself to see how much I had gained.  It was 2.8 pounds.  UGHHHHHH.

But I knew that 3 pounds wasnt from eating because I hadnt gone over 1400 cals on any day, and I still worked out.  I even worked out for an hour on sunday even though I was in a "fragile state".

So it's been 3 days since the start of this crap, and I decided to weigh myself again today.  MY WEIGHT WAS THE SAME! WTF MAN!?  I thought it would have budged at least a half a pound since this has been going on for 3 days, I've been eating right, and exercising, BUT NOTHING!

This always happens!  I get my period, I see those two pounds at the beginning, then I weigh myself somewhere in the middle of it all, it doesnt budge, I get all discouraged, and I give up.  UUUUUUUUUGH.  This is such bull.  It just really gets to me because I'm trying to lose 10 lbs by x-mas for Dian (not my bf or anything.  He's a good friend and we happen to like each other), and I just dont see that happening.  Not that he cares.  He's always telling me I'm pretty and I'm fine the way I am (he's a sweetheart), but I want him to look at me and think I'm even prettier.  I think 10 lbs is the minimum I can lose that will actually show any difference so that's why I'm shooting for that.

All this just makes me want to give up....but I wont....gotta keep going.  I didnt do as great today because I didnt exercise (freakin cramps) but I still kept my cals under 1300.

That's it.  I'm not getting on that scale until like 3 days after this curse is COMPLETELY over.  Seriously.  hopefully, I'll be back to my real weight, or I'll be pleasantly surprised and will have lost a half a pound or two.

I REALLY hate being a girl.