se1289's Journal

An overall better me
Feb 27 2009 09:01

I have never been too organized of a person. I could never keep a diary, keep my room cleaned for too long, or keep everything in a notebook for too long..or remember to do something every day. Hopefully this journal will help me keep up with everything. Its not just about weight loss, its about a overall better me.

EATING

Between April of 2006 and June of 2007 I lost fifty pounds by counting calories and exersising. Counting calories has become a habit that I dont mind and I can usually think of the calories of something I'm eating without even looking it up because ..well..i'm a loser, lol. Since june of 2007 I have gained back 10 pounds. Now some people may think "Hey..thats not too bad"..but I"m gaining it back because of my poor eating habits, which will eventually turn that 10 pounds back into 50. I have been eating ice cream everynight and fast food everyday since I've been rooming with my "eat anything skinny as a stick" male roomate. I know that I cant eat like that and hopefully through this journal I can balance my eating so I can eat an occasional icecream but not go overboard. Going overboard IS my problem. I eat one thing, one thing turns into 2 things, 2 things turn into about 5 snacks..and mostly at night...which is BAD. So with eating i have a few goals

1. After supper do not eat again. If I am hungary I will only eat ONE snack, but a healthy one. No more bingening at night

2. Learn to balance an occasional treat in and still eat healthy

3. Eat a balanced meal so I lose fat as well as weight.

EXERCISING

My exercise habits are pretty good. I might skip a day or two just because I am getting board of the exercise.which is my main problem. I usually do the same things... thirty minutes on the elliptical or treadmill or bike and weights. My goal is to change up my exercises every once in awhile so i wont be bored with them. Hopefully with my new "Wii fit" I can add in some yoga and new strength training exercises to spice things up. I will pose a new variety exercise later once I work it out. So my goal for exercising is:

1. Have a variety of efficient exercises as to not get bored and skip days or not work as hard at them.

MISC

So I am a person of bad habits and its hard for me to keep with new things to try to make them a habit. Some of the things include studying what I'm suppose to study everyday (I do make strait A's though in college so i cant complain too much), putting on lotion everyday (seems silly but important), cleaning my room everyday (man it can get messy), hanging up my clothes after washing ( thats usually what makes my room dirty ), and maybe some other things I will think of later. So some goals are

1. Wash clothes once a week and hang them up

2. Put lotion on after a shower everyday

3. Study my self-assigned pages everyday

4. Clean my room before I leave the house

5. Charge my phone when I sleep (yea..just thought of that, lol)

6. No more calling my mom (If you knew the situation between us it would make since...basically since I date a black guy whenever I call her it ends in her saying something like "Why do you want to know/do you want it/it only matters BECAUSE your a nasty slut doing it for your nigger.....yea she's racist, lol)

MY DAY

Also, i hope to keep this as a journal to log my emotions, feelings, attitudes, daily activities, and other stuff just because I think it will help me some how in the long run. I Suppose I will add it in at the end of the day, or the beginning if i have exciting news, or the middle if something happens.

So far today I have a job interview at 9 oclock am for Wal-mart. I hope they offer me a Stocker position. If they dont I will most likly not take the job. Even if they do offer me the stocker position I will have to think long and hard about it. It would mean leaving my job at Subway, which I have been at for two years, and earning the trust in the new job. Subway is a guarenteed job, good pay, and friends. Its an easy job and a slow job. I do get bored sometimes because it is so slow, and I do get frustruated with it sometimes because it CAN get VERY busy when your trying to do other stuff work-related, but its a comfortable place to be. I dont make the money I want to make at subway though because not a lot of hours are given. Usually i'm assigned 20 hours a week but can get a few more if I work other peoples shifts. I would like to work 25 to 30..maybe 40 STEADILY if I can..and I Think walmart will offer me that. My boyfriend used to work there and he said they work the hell out of you ,lol. I love him.

I also have work from 11-8. I'm SO not looking foward to that. Its a double shift. It means as well as working the dreaded 11-2 lunch shift..i work midshift which means I have to cut vegtables, stock chips, stock drinks, and do somee other stuff. UGHHHH. I will be working with one of my friends who just started back working there though so that will be cool. Hopefully its not busy so we can both get our work done and then chill.

Well its about time for me to go get dressed. My clothes for the interview are in the dryer. I wasnt sure exactly what to wear. I didnt want to dress TOO nice because it is only WALMART!!!! But i didnt want to look like a bum. Have you seen the people who work at walmart though? They probably went in their interview with some street clothes on. Ghetto ass sunsofbitches in Montgomery, lol.