se1289's Journal

Sunday's are the best!
Sep 06 2009 15:25

So its Sunday...2pm and I'm watching Law and Order SVU at my friends house.  If you wanna know why I'm at my friends house..its becaues I cant be at my house because I'm SUPPOSE to be at work from 2-6. I havnt told my mom or my boyfriend yet that i have quit. I dont want to tell my boyfriend because I dont want him to think I'm a quitter, and I dont want to tell my mom because she will just start crap.

I have a second job that earns me $150 a week and I think that is effiecient since the only bills I have are my cell and utilities for me and my boyfriends house. AND I have money saved. Going to school full time, making strait A's and keeping my 4.0 like everyone expectgs me to do..and working two jobs was just too hard. I wasnt enjoying the job I quit so thats why I decided to quit it. Now I have weekends free..YAY!!

I hate lying to my boyfriend. I feel so guilty. Even my dreams show it...cuz I got arrested in my dreams last night. I need to tell him I just dont want him to think down on me. But I KNOW he would understand because he even thought two jobs and school was hard. I guess I will tell him soon.

My dreams have been really crazy lately. In the past week I have killed a baby, been arrested, cheated on my b/f, and was married to this guy I know. I always have crazy dreams but they have been super crazy lately. I'm a vivid dreamer.

SO there are some things I've been wanting to work on with myself.I"m getting better but I know I need more work!

1. Stop lying so much..just be truthful

2. Dont come off so strong..

3. Read my bible every night. I did good for a few days but I just started letting it go

4. Going to church now that I'm off on sundays

I've conqured some things...like I dont steal anymore, I dont disrespect my mother anymore.. I have been doing good with the working out and eating correctly...so I guess this isthe last I have to worry about.

I always have alot of things on my mind, including trying to make myself better, money, and what I need to do. I think if I write it all down, it wont be in my head, I wont be so stressed, and the crazy dreams will go away.That will be another journal entry..but a private one of cource. Yall cant know TOO much!

If you read all this..thanks! Back to Law and Order SVU and homework on this wonderful saturday afternoon!