seamstresslulu's Journal

I'm My Own Biggest Obstacle
Nov 03 2009 23:40

I am nearly back to 200lbs and I cannot believe the difference it has made to lose nearly 20lbs. The part of my stomach just under my boobies is so much flatter. I can actually feel the cleft down the middle. The corduroy pants that were too tight on me before around the waist are nearly loose and my legs feel a lot smaller.

On a bad note I made it to the gym for only half an hour today after a three day absence. I thought that I'd licked my resistance by writing down all the reasons for wanting to lose weight but it seems like what motivates me shifts from day to day.

I lost 20lbs. I can lose another 20. If I lose another 20 I would weight 180lbs. When is the last time I saw that number on the scale. Its not hard, it doesn't involve self abnegation, it just requires consistency and determination. The biggest obstacle is proving to be me.

I started taking medication to help me with my focus. The doctor said it would reduce my appetite and it has. I don't even feel hungry most of the time. Out of the three days that I didn't go to the gym I actually ate close to or under 1000 calories which isn't good because eating around 1200 calories has caused some digestive troubles that I shudder at.

About these pills they help me focus when I pay attention if that means anything. I still have to pay attention. What I did notice is that I don' t need to read magazines while I do it.