seamstresslulu's Journal

Things I'm Over: Alcohol and Fast Food
Nov 08 2009 14:40

During the time that I've been unemployed I haven't eaten fast food. That's nearly three months eating only home cooked non-processed foods. I longed for fast food and sometimes had cravings for alcohol.

So yesterday when I had saved up my calories so I could have cake I was really looking forward to a binge. I never had my cake because after the movie people just wanted to go to a diner. I ended up just getting Chinese food and a bottle of wine. I had debated with myself over the wine but ended up getting it. I picked my favourite: Barefoot Pinot Grigiot, a wine that has won several awards.

The Chinese food was passable the wine was ok. I loved that wine, loved it. I drank the whole bottle because that was part of the whole binge thing. I didn't like it. It didn't relax me, I didn't even feel drunk. I remember this wine as being fruity and this time it had more like a taste of carbonated water.

Today I went out and got a Big Mac with Super sized fries. I had wanted Chinese but the place that I went to seems to have shut down. So there was a McDonald's right next to it. So off to McDonald's I went. Yuck, yuck, yuck. It was such as waste of money. I couldn't finish it. I just didn't like the taste.

I'm glad that I had this 'binge'. I've been sober long enough and eating home cooked food long enough to change my taste buds and this I think will help to break the last emotional connection to those things.

Come Monday I will be back on the bandwagon. Also regarding butternut squash what I will do to save myself time when I buy it is I'll peel and dice it the day I get it home and freeze it in single serve bags the way I do with the chicken. I will cook and freeze everything in containers on Sunday afternoon so all I have to do is make a salad every night.

I'm afraid I won't be able to get up on time in the mornings. Anyway I plan to get up early all of next week just to get myself into the swing of things.