sharpdust's Journal

Almost Half Time
Jun 23 2009 17:06

Well this year is turning out to be very not good. In additions to personal issues at home with the finances and such, I have not been able to lose weight! Yeah, maybe its not that important given the other things going on, but I feel like I have control over this and still cannot seem to get things rolling. I have to buckle down for, let's say 2 weeks, no drinking, counting calories, to get me back to where I want to be. Weight loss is not everything, but to me it's very important. I have to be hard on myself because I learn that way lol. This week the problem has been no exercise, but tomorrow I am going for sure! The year is almost at the mid point and although I have not lost weight since March, I have not gained it all back and can keep that I suppose.

I want my tattoo next year and need to work to lose a good amount of weight so I can feel comfortable. I'm not gonna throw out numbers. I feel when i do I only end up disappointed. I will take this week to week. I'll make weekly goals and only after achieveing those will I make more goals. I tend to look too forward, and my calculations are always skewed. I probably won't lose 2 lbs a week for 15 weeks. Just concentrate on the present, live in the present. I am stuck on the future, when I will love my body, but is not how I should live. Live with the future in mind, but I need to stop putting my life on hold because of what the future may hold. Why can't I enjoy my body now? These are issues you have to deal with and idk how to make them better, but you need to really reflect the life you want now, not the life you want in 6 months.

So for now, this weekend, no drinking. Why? Because of calories. That will show yourself and others that you are serious. That does not mean no alcohol ever again, but not this weekend. You can have fun other ways that do not involve excess calories. All you need is music and people.

A good note, you stopped biting your nails for about a week. That's good. Manicure in 2 weeks?? Stay on it. Just think like you used to, about everything you put in your mouth. Write it! You can eat it, just need to log it. We're back. We have to be.