shauna_182's Journal

The Scale
Aug 22 2009 07:34

  I have been using the same scale for a year and a half now which is when i bought it new. My problem is why if you step on there numerous times - digital- it changes the number? today it read 142.6 - yay! and after three more times it said 143.6. i never believe it so i just check it 3-4 times to make sure im not blind!

which number does a person go by?

dieting means willpower
Aug 12 2009 14:49

  For some reason when i diet i want peep to think im serious so i dont tell them really and stick with doing it here online. I do workout but i know food is my weakness.

today i had a customer bring these cookies in from this new store that opened and i was able to deny it. i still want it just thinking about it, but i gave it to my kids instead.

  Willpower has to be my strong point i know- and this just proves my seriousness with it. i know ican indulge as well, but i stick to things that state the calorie content!

when does your dieting irritate other peep?
Oct 09 2008 11:12

so my friends gave up on losing weight again - i dont know y when they were doing so well   - the problem now is they can be bad influences when we go eat out bc now they dont care- they think oh it is like a cheat day- but they have like  3 cheat days a week then! I have a hard time sticking with this sometimes although still better then ashland peeps who really do not care!

y cant more of them want to better themselves - i only lack motivation bc i want peep to have the same ambition as me but they really dont. Whenever i bring up calories i feel its irritating them - but its a serious matter - we have to watch them FOREVER!

wow this is hard!

150.4
Oct 08 2008 10:46

I am happy to say the scale read 150.4 today - although due to fluctuations i am sure it will change- however i have been at 152.4 and occasionally 151 but not 150! so im super excited!

i walked 2 miles to go hunting w/ my hubby yesterday and i have been trying to throw in more workouts so im going to keep this up-- i dont always eat the best but with a workout i at least feel better that day!

wow - all i can think is only 5 lbs to go until healthy bmi! im almost healthy-- wow so fantastic

bfing soon coming to an end
Sep 24 2008 10:16

well another day passing me by- i worry about when i stop bfing jordan how i can continue on loosing weight bc i eat all the time  and ya - i guess dieting will really take place then!

and i wry on how i am going to stop feeding him-  its the hardest part i think with breastfeeding- i will have to hurt his feeelings and stop - it saddens me but i am excited too! It was my goal untill he is 12 months and i never knew growing up how i would be as a mom but i am content that i have done well!

when i finish feeding him i will have no more excuses!! I must do this for myself- i can do this!!! 18 lbs to go!

anyone??? am i alone in this feeling?
Sep 15 2008 12:25

Life is so confusing sometimes. I am still hovering around that 153 mark and am steppin up the work outs again and watchin the food bc i need to! I know the reason i stop trying is bc i get comfy and with my hubby always all over me i feel good about myself.

the weird thing is that now that im sexier to him he is all insecure. Although i find him so attractive he is like 173 lbs and 6'1" so not overweight at all - but he gets all weird now if i dont want sex he thinks im rejecting him. He has always had this insecurity that he would be alone although i have been with him for 7 and a half yrs!

it makes me feel weird - like is something wrong w/ me bc i dont want sex all the time? Sometimes i think he is using it as a emotional need more an more now and he always makes me feel good so i dont need it to just feel emotional with him. when i was 185 lbs i felt like having sex was necessary to keep him with me! Am i alone in this feeling??

Size 10-- WOW WOW WOW :)
Aug 29 2008 22:21

So i went to the store yesterday and OMG i fit a size 10 pants- HELLO AMAZING!!  I hop on the scale and fluctuate 153-155 and that is just fantastic -- i am almost to the 140's!!! HEllO that is crazy! I am so stoked how well things are going - a size 10 is so fantastic im so happy -- when im going down sizes it really hits me that im losing!

i do see these amazing changing numbers- but im so flabby - i hope i will b happy eventually- i wry that i will never reach that inner happiness bc i have such a bad view of my body- im going to keep my hopes up - i hope that i can reach  happiness all around!!

i feel like im crumbling- what do i do?
Jul 24 2008 18:09

I hate it when i get comfortable but my hubby loves it.  He has finally chose an item for our dinner menu and it happens to be grilled beef ribs and corn on the cob- ya like 700 calories at least for the dinner. I have been doing it though and he loves it, but then its the whole dairy queen and pizza and buffets that he wants too! I want to get to the 140's but with our recent attitudes it isnt happening soon!

its been 100 degrees here and in a camper its like 85 and really hot for working out so i havent been doing that either, i cant let myself crumble but i feel i already have.

motivsion is weak when my hubby even admits since losing 28 lbs im already so perfect to him, and i love that but i think it takes its toll - i cant go back to gaining!

What do i do?

finally- plateau gone!
Jul 08 2008 09:04

well - i just got back from a vaca and am back to calorie watching again- i been stuck now for like 2 months- but today i hopped on a scale and 156.8 wow- that is fantastic!

i have been btwn the 158- 161 and to see a 156 gives me hope that im slowing going down again - oh thank lord!  i get so depressed and feel like w/ breastfeeding if i dont eat enough i will have no milk but that prob my excuse to eat more- heck idk!

so im still thinking 1700-1800 cals, and i think this can work- u know it makes me happy to think that one day i could be in the 140's and then i see my goal really coming true!

when i was 17 i lost 20 pounds from a steady 145 my entire life to finally a healthy 125 and i was there only for a yr bc i got together w/ my boyfriend- now hubby and i got comfortable- but i want to be comfy in my skin- not in couple mode- so i can do this!!

Im back on track
Jun 19 2008 21:04

  I feel like im such a downer when things arent working out right- maybe i did stop paying attention and letting myself off easily sayin oh im still around 1800 or whatever. But this past week i got back in gear and stick around 1750-1800 typically and try to throw 25 min of workin out w/ it too, not every day though.

i also make sure to drink more just water not tea or other stuff just water- whuich i have never drank much before and now every morning i drink like 2 med cups of coffee and cream and at least 3 bottles of water at 1 pint and.9 oz i dont know how much that is exactly. i am peeing more so it must b working. also i was getting lazy and eating tv dinners and already pkgd stuff w/ prob way too much sodium - along w/ light beef hot dogs which i love- but also sodium rich so i need to watch those.

but any who i got on the scale and it read 158.4 i hadnt been there before the lowest was 159.2 and then kept jumpin to 161-162 so i am goin to have to watch it better. bad thing im goin to  see my fam this weekend so i need to behave- and sat a whole day walkin at the zoo is planned so that is great!!

ok ladies and gents im back on track!