shiguresflower's Journal

Not much, just my regular woes.  I ate about (this is SUCH an estimate) 1400 today. 

It's friday and i had a crap week.  I think i've had an average of about 5 hours of sleep this week.  That coupled with suprise 25 min english in class essays, history quizes and a french quiz with one days notice i'm going into the weekend a happy camper.  oh and a have to revise a major english essay, study for a chem quiz, teach myself math cause my teahcer doesn't do anything, and do all my regualr homework.  lovely. 

ok, the rant is done. 

aaaand.  I made a list and i'm one out of the 4 girls who don't have a date to prom (it's a really small private school with like 40 people in a year). I was going to ask my person after school today but i think he went home early.  plus, i wanted to ask the same day my friend was going to ask the guy she likes.  It's still pissing me off though.

i think i'm at 120.  I don't understand.  still.  good thing though, my friends are under the impression that i'm like 100.  They said i could POSSIBLY be MAYBE 110 but not over.  so, at least i don't look 120 and thats good, right?  :)  lol.

ok, i need to go sleep.  I'll be happy when i wake up, i promise. 

ttyl


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hey guys

I just wanted to say thankyou for the wonderful responses to my last post.  This is really is starting to freak me out, especially with prom coming up.  I was really close to giving up and sticking to a 700 cal diet but after i thought about it--that would be so hypocritical and stupid of me.  I'm going to commit to a 1200-1300 cals a day if i'm sedentary.  I'm not going to go below and screw with my metabolism even more.  I'll do it the right way!  :)  thanks guys--it's all cause of you!!!  *HUG* 


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I think this is my body's way of punishing me for my scant eating habits in the past.  I'm not losing anything.  In fact, i seriously think i might be gaining.  ok, i admit, in the last (maybe) three days i haven't been exactly "good" but i NEVER went over maintainace.  so whats up?  I hate this feeling.  I've been working so hard to resist overeating.  I always work the bad cals into my day and i come in under or just right.  I don't understand.  any suggestions?  What should i do?    

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ok, no prom dress but i got some awesome tanks, a pair of flats and a really pretty skirt.  I feel a little bad about spending so much money but then i look down at my pruple shoes and it's all better.  :)  I ate chinese for dinner but i had eaten really lightly before hand so even that didn't really get me down.  It's all evened out which was nice. 
I heard the guy i like (senior) doesn't have a date and would probably say yes to me.  *omg*  I'm really excited/nervous.  lol, i'm going for it though. 

I've been good today.  lots of fruit and yogurt.  I'm having veggies at dinner.  and protein.  lots of good carbs and peanut butter too.  I'm good for cals.  I think i'm good.  I'll only weigh myself tomorrow though in fear of the sodium in the chinese.  The verditc awaits!  :)

have people begun to go swimming yet?  I don't think i'm mentally prepared for a bikini. 

how are ya'll?


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*sigh*  new day.  I'm going shopping today too.  I'm still prom-dress-hunting.  wish me luck!  :)  lol.

I'm still a little disappointed about my weightloss because i've been doing all the right stuff!  UGH.  It's really frustrating.  maybe my body just likes where i am.  gr.  I want to start losing before the prom!  It would give me a total confidence boost. 

I've decided that putting yogurt cups in the freezer for an hour and a half is the most AMAZING FRICKING THING EVA.  It's so good.  I highly recommend it.  :) 

What have ya'll been doing?  I've been reading your journals but drop a line anyways!  What up guys?


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I'm really disappointed today.  I don't know what's happening!  I weighed myself today in the morning, right after i got up, before i had eaten anything, and it said 117.  I haven't lost ANYTHING in WEEKS.  Whats going on?  I've had some junk but i always worked it into my daily cals.  ?!?!?!?!

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wooot.  I just wnet to the gym and did about a mile on the treadmill--burned about 100 cals.  I did a few muscle toning stuff but not much. still, it's mroe than i've done in a while.  lol, i hope working out helps cause i think i might be (weirdly enough) gaining.  I don't get it... 

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WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.  I JUST PASSED MY PERMIT TEST.  esjkhgaeshg.  *jumps for joy*  YES.

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Thanks for the comments guys.  and actually Liz...lol...volley ball season is...not now...so i've been anti-gym/working out recently.  like for a couple (ok, not gonna lie), FEW months.  maybe thats my problem?  Well, it still doesn't makes sense cause i'm eating within a good cal range and still not losing!  I don't get it!  

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ugh...at a friend's house...just had a bunch of chips...dang...

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