shizzigirl's Journal

Day 450: put up or shut up

Nov 06 2009 09:18

I can not work out because my knee barely lets me shift gears while driving. Plans to see a doctor about that next week.

What this means: I have to count every effing calorie that goes near my mouth and in general have better control. As far as exercise goes, I'm looking at my gym class schedule and will start picking up pilates/yoga/ab classes so I am at least toning. Reminder:

Recap from September 2008 - Reasons I'm doing this:

1. I'm tired of being fat.

2. I'm not saying I used to be the #1 hottest chick around but I DID always have a steady flow of guys, which after gaining 60lbs in 2 years has trickled to a stop...

3. To be healthier...

4. Because I can. I have it in my power to lose weight. At my thinnest I was 220 and a size 14 - I can do that again and better and I will.

cw - 264.75

mini gw - 263 by Sep 5

gw - 200

Day 447: my job/what I'm up against

Nov 03 2009 14:31

This morning our title company brought in fruit and donuts, an agent brought in a cookie bar and brownie tray that she just HAPPENED to bake last night for the heck of it and our lender brought in a chocolate birthday cake. All of that was just hanging out in the kitchen. When I went in the kitchen just now the only thing left was 1 cookie bar and about 1/2 the cake. We do NOT have that many people in this office so I did what I thought was the right thing for the sake of EVERYONE: I threw the second 1/2 of the cake away. WTF PEOPLE!

Day 446 - ROUGH weekend but

Nov 02 2009 09:48

I'm weighing in at 226 which is a good 3-4lbs than the last few Mondays so I'll take it!

Friday - went out with my friend who's home from NYC. Had several drinks but no late night junk food!

Saturday - my best friend's birthday outing. We started with Mexican for dinner including Margaritas. From there we bar hopped to 4 different places. At 2am my friend Jenny and I decided to go with a group of guys (strangers) to a bar in DC bc the bars are still open AND recognized the time change. Long crazy night but again NO LATE NIGHT EATING!

Sunday - IHOP for Lizzie's birthday in the AM. I ordered eggs, bacon and toast - NO PANCAKES! Dinner with my mom (mashed potatoes and 2 chicken wings) and then ended up at a hooka bar. There I had GREAT hummus and some baklava.

Still no gym, maybe tomorrow. Here's to seeing 224 on the scale Saturday morning!

Day 442: whew

Oct 29 2009 10:37

Strained my knee on Saturday and haven't really worked out since then. I did 30 poor minutes on the elliptical on Monday and then decided to just lay off. Starting to feel much better so I'm hoping that by this weekend I'll be back to the gym.

On the plus side, I'm eating much better since I don't have the wiggle room. I'm also in a pair of skinny leg size 12 pants. When I bought these pants 2 months ago the cut was so slim they just didn't look so good. Today I'm wearing them with my biker boots and feel AWESOME!

Today is PAAAAAAAAAYDAY!!!! I need a pair of gray pants and some black booties.

Also, I got an A on my BIO midterm - this whole studying thing actually WORKS!!!!

Day 439 - weekends

Oct 26 2009 09:23

I LOVE the weekends but I don't love my lack of control. Sunday morning I weighed 226lbs, then I went to early service (7:45), played with the fire department - it was First Responders appreciation day and I got to ride in a fire truck, hung out with my best church friend who's home from NYC, then went to visit 2 "sick and shut in" members all before noon at which point I was STARVING and so the buffet SOUNDED like a good idea... 3lbs of bloat later I now realize it was not a good idea. I have to tighten up! Here's to seeing 225 on the scale this Saturday morning.

Day 438: in love with myself

Oct 24 2009 20:24

Last week I went to the gym 5 days in a row, this week I went 5 out of 7 days. I think I finally have my gym mojo back! Tonight at the gym it was me and like 6 other people...it was like we had an understanding.

Last night I went to an 80s cover band show for my friend's birthday and it was great. Something I noticed: MOST of the girls there were wearing leggings and MOST of the girls there had something covering their butts and MOST of these girls were much smaller than me. I wore my leggings with a tshirt that came to my waist. At first I was uncomfortable but quickly decided "eff it". I have worked so hard for so long that I refuse to not love my body. I refuse to nitpick and not wear something that I actually look perfectly fine in. Am I ready for a bikini? hell no. But I am okay in things that show my assets off. If/when I get down to my goal weight I refuse to not be happy with my body.

I love me.

Day 432: takin it easy...

Oct 18 2009 21:21

So the gameplan is very simple...hardcore workouts, watching what I eat and laying off the scale.

Yes I can.

Day 430: 5 days in a row

Oct 16 2009 18:49

Gym 5 days in a row? CHECK!

Soooo rockin and rollin, now we just need the scale to cooperate. It's small things like NO MAYO on my sandwich and drinking water only.

HOPEFULLY I can hold out over the weekend :)

Day 429: Part B (tmi?)

Oct 15 2009 15:45

Tom-tom just arrived - oh thank God. Now I can get over this kicked-puppy feeling!

Day 429: oh for hell

Oct 15 2009 09:45

I am up MORE and I have no idea what's going on. It's gotta be that my period is going to bumrush me any minute.

So I decided today I'm not going to sit here passively and get fatter.

Realistically I will eat out at least once a week for lunch. We have vendors that bring lunch twice a week AND a Ruth's Chris next door w/ a serious discount. I have to get back into the weight loss mode, not the maintain thought process. Along with that I'm going to have to shell out my own money and turn down mama's homecooked fatty goodness.

I CAN DO THIS! YES I CAN AND WILL!