shoeofkuribo's Journal

Happy October

Sep 30 2009 19:35

Looking back on my last post, Sept. 1st, I haven't made much progress. My scale is currently measuring 215, when 30 days ago, it was 216. Sigh.

After starting out the month really well, I had a week or so of reckless eating, and my weight jumped up to 219. Then I worked to get it back down, and now we're at 215 again. So I gained and lost the same couple of pounds, plus one.

200 pounds by New Year's? Still not impossible, but I'll need to work harder than I have been. I haven't been losing anywhere near 5 pounds a month at this leisurely pace. However, we're low on cash right now, so the whole not-wasting-money-on-Applebee's downer has the hidden benefit of better weight control. And I'm paying for the gym for both of us, I better use it.

Other things going on with me: Looking for a new job, haven't heard back from any. Freelance writing work is going well, but they're sending me more than I can handle while working full-time (they really like me, that's a plus). My grandfather is dying. Money is really tight because of dental bills - I went to the dentist for the first time in 6 or 8 years, and I need a root canal. Plus, I need new glasses, a new car and Christmas is coming. I'm worried about my car making it through another winter.

If I suddenly got a new, higher-paying job, this would help things a ton.

Happy September

Sep 01 2009 08:00

216! I managed to get to 216! I wanted to see 215 by Sept. 1, but as of a couple of weeks ago, I didn't think I'd even see 216. I am pleased and proud. Only 16 more pounds until the big 200.

Also, my highest-ever doctor-recorded weight was 286. So I'm SEVENTY pounds down from there. That's insane to think of. I still have most of the "fat" issues I had then - uncomfortable with my body, can't find cute clothes that fit/look good on me, self-esteem issues. But I've got to admit, it's getting better. I do respect myself a lot more than I did, I'm more comfortable with photos of myself, and I'm more comfortable in my own skin. I'm healthier, and can exercise for hour-long workouts saying "I could do more."

Looking ahead, I still feel like I have a long way to go, but it seems like a short ride to 200 from here.

Goals:

By October 1: 212

By Nov 1: 208

By Dec 1: 204

By Jan 1: 200!

Four pounds a month. Keeping up like I have this past few weeks, this can happen. I've gotten into a habit of going to the gym (hubby coming helps, but last night I went alone) and I'm feeling inspired to eat well. Let's go, Fall!

"My body, my life"

Aug 26 2009 23:21

I was flipping through a book at work today - "Your Body, Your Life" - and it had a little section of motivational phrases to say to yourself when you're struggling for that extra lap or final push. Among its suggestions were "Go baby, go baby, go" and "I can do it, I can do it" but what sat well with me was "My body, my life."

My body, my life. My body is more than just part of my life; I live my life through it and in it. My body is my own, and I am responsible for it. I will always have to live within it, and it cannot be separated from what is "me". Therefore, it needs to be respected and worked with. My body, my life.

I said this phrase to myself many times today, and it inspired me. I was slouching at work - "My body, my life." Stand up straighter and suck in the stomach. "My body, my life." Walk with confidence at work; take longer strides and keep my head high. "My body, my life." Get that heart rate back up when I see it slacking on the treadmill. Push harder. You're worth it. My life is worth it. My body is worth it.

End-of-year goal

Aug 25 2009 22:59

Ok, I had a bad week last week. Lots of trouble at work, trying to find a new job, my boss whom I really like is leaving, so that's all the more motivation for me to leave.

Also last week - major PMS and then AF crankiness. No more excuses this week, though.

Weight is at 218. I don't expect to reach 215 by Sept. 1 by any stretch, but there are 19 weeks left until the end of the year. So at 1 lb/week as my goal, 200 lbs by New Year's is still reachable.

Hubby has promised to go to the gym with me every day this week. I just made him promise again not to let me be lazy.

Today we had a great workout - 15 minutes of weight training, 15 minutes of exercise bike, a couple more weight machines, then 15 minutes of walking, then 10 minute stretch. It was fantastic - I feel beat, and really proud that we made it through a whole hour!

4 pounds in 2.5 weeks?

Aug 13 2009 17:40

Unlikely, but I'm going to try. My goal of 215 by the end of August has snuck up on me, and I am unfortunately back at 219 (but it's been holding, at least, even through a couple of parties this past week.)

So, 2 pounds per week isn't unreasonable, but my pace has been more like .5/lb per week. But I can try! Let's get my butt to the gym every day and make magic happen.

Progress

Jul 31 2009 19:24

I haven't logged for the past week or so - maybe two? - yet I'm down to 217.5. Huzzah! And I went to the gym yesterday and was so proud of myself that I want to go again. And I'm dying to take the hubby, but his leg is hurting and he doesn't want to go tonight.

Anyway, I'm more than on track to reach 215 by the end of august. Woohoo! I'm still not nearing a size 16 pant though - all my weight has really come from the top this last 20 pounds.

Now we can be an "active couple"

Jul 30 2009 22:15

I signed my hubby up for the gym! YAY, motivation to go, plus couple time doing something productive!

Random low?

Jul 26 2009 08:16

My scale this morning said 214.5! It has to be a fluke - five pounds overnight, gone? - but I'd love if it were true.

New pictures

Jul 16 2009 10:40

I uploaded some new pics of me at 220 pounds, for posterity and my eventual comparisons. I'm still wearing the same size as I was at 238 pounds, size 18, but I've lost more in the top, and even the face. I think you can tell. What do you think? :-)

Eight days a week

Jul 16 2009 09:08

My scale is being silly. It is currently fluctuating between 218 and 220. However, my mom's scale told me 219, and that was in the evening yesterday.

Lots going on today. I have two scheduled phone calls this morning, and at the same time, I'm expecting people to come and look at my rug, which is flooded by a mystery leak in the wall. Extremely annoying. Then going to work, and then coming home and covering an event tonight. Very busy day!

I have been good all week with my calories, so I'm expecting a reward from my scale soon. Hoping to see 218 by the end of the week, and in this case, I'll consider that Sunday. I'll be at my mother-in-law's house Sunday morning, so I'll see what her scale says then. This also means I can't drink Saturday night at the concert, because that shoots my weight right up.