shoolpooter's Journal

On the Road to Changing my Life One Calorie at a Time
Nov 10 2009 15:13

Hello my name is Sarah and I am from Flowery Branch, GA and I am obese. I know it sounds like an Alcoholic in AA, but this is sort of what it is like for me. One of the first steps in helping yourself is to admit you have a problem, right? I have known that I am over weight, but not obese. I can still play softball well, bend over and tie my shoes, touch my toes, etc. all the things that in my mind you can’t do if you are obese. I am sorry if I offend anyone because of my stereo typing or wrong assumption of what obese is.  Then a few weeks ago a picture of me was posted on facebook. Wow, I look like that, really? I am obese! My eyes are open now. It’s like in the movie, The Matrix, and they all look great in The Matrix, but not in real life. I can’t remember exactly how they put it. I call it my internal self image. How I see myself in my head is not what I saw in the picture and boy did it put me in a bad place. So here I am trying to change the image in the picture so it matches what is in my head. It will be a long journey. The last time I was anything close to my “ideal weight” was a husband and two kids ago, roughly 15 years. I just have to take it one day at a time and be consistent. I have learned that is really the key. I have dieted before and they always fail because I pretty much quite on the weekends. I would lose weight through out the week and then gain it all back Saturday and Sunday. Anyway, I just wanted to put that out there. Something has clicked and it is just time to change. I don’t want to look like this and it is not all about looks either. I saw a chart the other day and when your BMI is 40 and over you are 300% more likely to die. What an eye opener.