snowfence's Journal

i was determined not to weigh myself today...
Dec 02 2008 08:00

i was determined NOT to weigh myself today, but i did...  AND i'm happy!  i'll go for it...

AND if this is staying off, it's NOT working...  i am really trying hard NOT to come on, but i've been on all morning!!!  LOL

i WILL break away!!!

good luck everyone!!!
Dec 01 2008 06:18

wow...  december 1st already?  that doesn't give me very long 'til christmas eve.  i really need to break away from here again.  i need to stop logging, keep up my exercise & try to just plain old eat right on my own.  i think i know how to get an A by now.  LOL

i'll probably be on here everyday anyway, because this site is my homepage.  i don't think i'll ever change that.  drop a line if you need anything.  i have the toolbar, too.  :D

ok, wish me luck!  i know i can do this...

good luck everyone!!!  hang in there & be strong!!! 

i just need to do this.    i need to grow, be strong, self confident, etc.

last year on this date:
Nov 28 2008 08:16

wow!  how things have changed! 

yeah, i'm up...  139 today.  who cares?!  that's within my "safe zone".  i just gotta watch that scale & not get carried away with the "HOLIDAY SEASON".  it's kind of scary.  LOL  holiday season.  yep.  it's not one day.  it's a whole season.  i can handle it.  besides, it will be here every single year for the rest of my life.

last year on this date, i weighed 179.  that is pretty awesome considering that i had just started losing on 9/4 weighing 218.  when i started, i figured that losing ANYTHING would be fine (AND not really expecting to lose), but that was a loss of 39 pounds in less than 3 months.

by this time last year, i had already realized that it WAS true!  i was NOT "born to be fat!!!"  it was ALL up to me.  i had made my own choices in life & my own choices are what had made me fat.  i knew i COULD do it.  i knew i COULD go all the way...  just pick ANY weight & be it.

i knew it wouldn't happen overnight, but i also knew that it wouldn't be that hard either.  once getting started, this really has been pretty easy!  LOL  i did it!  i changed my lifestyle!!! 

i realize that there are alot of people on here that don't agree with my eating habits.  but, hey!  look where they got me.  :D  i'm done!  i'm not losing anymore.  it's maintenance time & i've been here for 4 months already.

i had reached 143 by may & pretty much quit writing my weight on the calendar, so as not to hear that "too skinny" & "you better stop losing now" crap. 

so...  yeah...  i'm pretty proud.  there is NO going back to the old me.  that life is gone forever.  i look & feel so much better now & healthier.  this is it.  the new me.  it's not even hard!  so what?  eat less, eat better & stay active!  LOL  geez...  anyone can do that! 

the holidays don't scare me anymore...

i hope to hear some good reports from you guys.  hang in there & be strong!

ALSO, i just want to send out a very special thanks to CH.  thanks for that email reminding me that you DO care & were rooting for me!  that was awesome advice.  i just wish i had got it sooner.  hehe  it came shortly after i left, so i didn't read it 'til around 9 or 10 at night.

i could've done alot better, but i could have done alot worse, too!  :D

another good day
Nov 25 2008 06:37

i had another good day.  we went to the chinese buffet, but i think i ate way less than usual.  i ate alot of fruits, too, and i didn't even bring home my usual sundae cup of them sugary peanuts.  i only had a few mints, too.

then i had all that salad stuff as usual lately & a couple of oranges.  later on, i had pretzels & chocolate.

it's almost thanksgiving & i'm almost 134 again.  i probably will be if i weigh myself again.  lol  i guess i won't worry about it.  there are 2 more days anyway.

have a great day!

edited:  this is it, though.  this is my downfall.  i need to be really careful!  it's almost thanksgiving (which is bad enough for my weight!), AND hubby has off tomorrow, thursday, saturday AND sunday...  not to mention all the company.

i won't be able to walk much, if even at all.  :(

at least i should be able to find a little dancing time & toning time.  i'll try!  thanks CH!  that dancing thing is great!!!  :D

OMG...  stuffing...  i just know i'll be eating stuffing for a week.  god, how i love stuffing!

i think i found a job!
Nov 24 2008 06:26

hey guys!  i think i found a job.  well, it kind of got thrown into my lap.  lol  hubby's nephew just got his wife & daughter in & they put batteries into hearing aids.  it's a real clean place.   you need to keep shoes there that you don't wear outside & you wear an apron.  it's only 6.6 miles away.  it only pays $9 an hour for the first month,  but i don't care.

i saw him & his wife last night at a wake & she came right in the door yelling "come work with me!  why don't you want to work with me?!"  she said it's real easy & you get 1/2 hour lunch, 2 - 15 minute breaks & there are even "stretch" times where you just get up & stretch for a bit.

she sounded really happy & eager for me to work there, too!  the really weird thing is that i thought she never even liked me.  there aren't very many people who i ever thought that about.  LOL  hmmm...  i guess she DOES like me!  :D

anyway, i think i'll go apply today & see if it's true that i can just get in so easily.  i guess that'd be cool.  i hate the "hunt" & i always wanted a job thrown into my lap.  that never happened before!

hopefully, first shift has openings, because i want to work when hubby is working & that'd be 6 - 3.  i think that would help me to eat better, too!  i could bring my own lunch instead of meeting hubby all the time & going to buffets, etc.

geez...  i haven't worked since 2001!!!  i didn't need to.  we just lost our health insurance though, and we have to start paying for it again like "normal" people & pay them high deductibles, etc.  :(

i had a really great weekend!!!  135 today!!!  WooHoo!!!  i can actually make it down to 134 again by thanksgiving if i behave!!!  AND i'm thinking that if i get this new job, it would be pretty easy to get down to 129 so 134 will be my new high.  geez!  i could probably do it by christmas!  :D  i gotta get away from them 140's for good...

i guess i'll walk before doing anything & then i'll either go apply OR call first.  i'm not sure what to do.  LOL  except for throw their names around!

good luck everyone!  be extra careful!  it's almost thanksgiving!!!

edited:  i called the guy & there are no openings for 1st shift.  they have 2nd, but if i get into 2nd i can't switch over to 1st.  bummer...  oh well, he did say for me to call back on tuesday.

that kind of makes me wonder though...  do people quit often?!  LOL

alright, i know...
Nov 22 2008 14:12

i know!  i need to try harder on my healthy eating.  i eat tons of celery, carrots, cucumber, salad, tomatoes, grapes, apples, bananas & oranges though.  :D  sometimes i eat tons of cantaloupe, honeydew & strawberries.

i really need to watch my fats, sugar & sodium though!  i'll try harder.  oh!  i need to drink more water lately, too.  i've been slacking there again & with not eating breakfast.  :(

i went to lunch with hubby again.  i'm pretty happy.  we went to subway today, so that's alot better for me...  even though i had a cookie.  lol  i'm still walking alot & still 137.  yep!  even after yesterday!  WooHoo!!!

maybe i'll see 136 tomorrow!

for the rest of the day i'm planning on eating a banana, 20 grapes, 15 baby carrots, 3 cups of salad, 1/2 of a cucumber.  then maybe later tonight i'll have some pretzels, candy corn & chocolate.  the candy corn should finally be gone tonight.  lol  ok, so i think that's gonna be it for the day.  that'll get my A, i think.  i don't ever log my night snacking, but i think i will today...  yeah, i'll log it first!  just to see if it's gonna ruin my day.

thanks for the concern, guys!  lol  i count on you to keep me inline!  around here, they all just want me to eat more & they're happy...  and the worse i eat, the happier they are!

hang in there AND stay active! 

yeah, so i was bad today :(
Nov 21 2008 16:44

man!  i can't believe i did that...  i went to meet hubby for lunch & i had a whopper with cheese & another 1/2 of one because the first one had onions on it.  i also had a spicy chicken sandwich & small fries.

so...  i walked 8 miles!  LOL

and now, i need to eat 1/2 of a cucumber, 3 cups of salad, 15 baby carrots, 20 grapes & something else...  maybe an apple.  i dunno yet, but i only have a B- so i need to fix that.  :D  and i will!!!  at least i was 137 today.

ohhhhh, the sodium...  ohhhhh, the fat...  i'll fix it though.

i hope you guys are all doing better today than me...

WooHoo!
Nov 19 2008 14:06

WooHoo!  i walked 6.6 miles so far & i have my A for the day.  :D  of course, that all depends on what i eat later, but i'm sure i'll keep my A.

i'm gonna have to get a job.  :(  oh well.  i guess i'll just have to be careful what i eat for my lunches & find the time to walk still.  i applied at a bunch of places around here that i could walk to if i want.  i wish i could bring my treadmill with me & walk for lunch instead.  lol

later...  behave yourselves!  :D

oh yeah :D 138
Nov 18 2008 07:14

oh yeah!  138!!!  almost 137  :D  that is soooooo cool...  i can't believe i did so good on vacation.  i guess the main difference between dieting & a new lifestyle change is STILL watching that weight.

i used to diet & when i was done i would gain 5 pounds immediately.  then the next thing i knew, i was up 10.  5 pounds is no big deal, but 10 ?!  up 10?!  LOL  then the whole thing would be over.  this time it really is different.  i chose my weight & i'm sticking with it...  OR going lower!  :D

i didn't make that 4 miles yesterday.  i did 3 miles though AND i ate good.  i can't believe i'm back where i started.  LOL  that wasn't hard at all...  of course, with all the buffets, etc.  i really did try to do good for the rest of the day.  :D  but then, hubby would say, what's for dinner?  LOL

oh man, oh man, oh man...  he knows where i want to be AND that i'm trying to stay in my range.  whatever.  i think i did great!!!  AND i WILL  continue to do so. 

hang in there, guys!!!  if you go up, don't even worry about it!  just work on it!!!  ASAP!!!  it comes off...  :D

OMG! this is awesome!
Nov 17 2008 07:54

OMG!  this is awesome!  that extra weight must have been sodium or something, because i'm 139 already!!!  i was 138 when i left, so i'm only up a pound.  :D

i know i ate really bad, but AGAIN...  the walking must have helped!  on most mornings i walked at least a mile.  sometimes 1 1/2 or even 2.  yesterday i walked 3 miles & i ate alot.  i had alot of junk too, but i had tons of salad, tomato, carrots, & cucumber to counteract the junk & i got my A.

huh.  i guess whatever i had working is still working!  i even purposely ate late.  you know...  to keep the metabolism up...

my goal for today is to walk at least 4 miles, get my A, and to have some kind of deficit.  it doesn't matter how much.  lol  well, i'll shoot for 500 & hope i don't eat it all back at night. 

i WILL see that 134 again before the holidays.  :D  AND i think i'll make that my new high.  geez...  i hate the 140's...

i hope you are all doing well!  i read alot of the journals yesterday & things are sounding good.  keep it up!  the holidays are coming!!!