solareclps's Journal

Weight Loss (yea I talk about that too lol)
Jul 03 2009 22:42

After a short hiatus due to a journey into my twisted world, today let me come back to world of fat and food. The last time I actually weighed in was about two weeks ago. I have steadily been falling off of the calorie counting wagon due to some deep personal assessment as my journals reflect. I know what my calorie limit is and I really try to rough estimate it with what I eat. Now I know this isn't the way it should be done as I am bound to go over, probably by a few hundred each day. However I am under my maintenance usage. Though not by the 1000/day I was going for. Can I live with losing the weight slower? Yea. I may go back to counting meticulously after I go grocery shopping this weekend. I wish I was a better cook. There are so many healthy vegan foods out there that can be made at home, yet I am afraid of my cooking non-ability! I tried to make chocolate chip vegan cookies, and instead I learned what just a half teaspoon of extra baking powder will do! (It makes the dough rise!!! it turned my cookies into little dough mountains!) So instead I am a processed vegan. Umm...I just made it up. (it means a vegan who eats lots of processed food, like me!) I have been trying to get off the processed stuff but darn it I can't cook. I know you all are going to say just learn how to cook....that's way to much right now lol. I want something that I can prepare and eat in like 10 minutes. It has to be vegan and it can't be high in calories(if you have any ideas I'm all ears!) Well being a processed vegan has reduced my weight regardless so I figured that until I get some cooking skill or a personal chef, I'll be using the convenience food as weight loss fuel. With veganism as my diet I am sure that I will continue to shed the weight. I can't measure it anymore (my scale broke! read my journals to find out how) so what I do now is usually just look at my upper body shirtless and hope that I am shrinking. With my horrible view of myself, lol, it's like I am always gaining! Scales are important, they tell you that your eyes are lying to you lol! I really do think I am losing weight. It can never go fast enough though. I hate seeing this extra weight around my mid-section and having all this fat in my face. I wish I could just expel it all from me. Oh I wanted to comment about the yoga I took up. I started doing it about 2 weeks now. I am trying to do it at least 4 days a week. Right now that isn't happening. Next week I am going to make a schedule as when I will set the time aside. It's really tough( I cant even do the opening pose right lol).  It's really crazy. When you usually work out, weight lift or whatever, the surface muscle is where you feel sore the next day. Like when I go jogging I feel my legs are sore the next day. Well when you are doing this yoga workout the muscles that are sore are like inside the muscles you used. Does that make sense to anyone? So like my biceps aren't hurting where I curl my arms but inside the muscle is where I can feel the collapsed muscles rebuilding themselves stronger.  I hope I don't sound crazy, but it's so true. It's totally weird for a workout. Onward with my journey of weight-loss, calories, and everything in between! My goal is still at least 180 by the end of summer, hopefully I am closer than I think...

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