songwinds's Journal

Bleh.
Aug 20 2009 12:01

You know, I was starting to feel motivated again...but not now.  The scale shows I gained 4 punds from yesterday.  I know some people say not to weigh themselves everyday, but I do, because it helps keep on track.  But 4 pounds? Really?  WTF?

Sometimes I just want to cry and throw a tantrum.  We had "engagement" photos taken at the beginning of August, and I'd lost 10 lbs.  And the pictures make me want to hang myself.  I look horribly fat.  I cannot believe that I look that awful.  I had no idea.  Now I don't know what to do.  I try to eat right and hit the gym every day, and for all my efforts, thats where its gotten me.  Still looking huge.