sooji's Journal

im so lonely

Aug 05 2009 23:15

im so lonely.

so fucking lonely.

i need a guy.

why am i being so fucking desperate?!

I just purged........

Aug 05 2009 17:54

Had 2 cinnamon apple muffins...

And a bit of the 3rd muffin...

But then I felt sooo full and then suddenly the guilt came crashing down on me.

And I panicked a little bit and the word " PURGE " entered my head.

Then I stood up from my chair, headed for the guest room, locked the door, and did it.

This all happened in like couple mins. Well, except for the purging part.

Maybe the wine made purging so painful.... shit came out of my nose as well.

I feel better after purging though.

It's.... refreshing

GOD, YOU'RE FUCKING GORGEOUS

Aug 04 2009 21:30

JUST PLEASE SMILE JUST ONCE OMFGGGGGGGGG I LOVE YOU

My Trainer Has The Hots For Me? [READ!!!]

Aug 03 2009 19:11

My trainer.... has been kind of got me thinking..... hahahahahaha

Maybe he has an interest in me, maybe he's not. idk.

He is definitely gorgeous. Mmmm....♥

Just read some of these "observations" and give me ur opinions!!!

Called me "cutie" several times when texting. But he doesn't say this face-to-face.
Replied to my very late-replied text @ 8-9 PM.... and kept it going for some time.
Likes to gently touch/hold my waist when moving from one working to another.
Offers his hand to me when I get off a machine.
Talks to me for quite some time after our workout. Last time, we talked for like... almost an hour But ofcourse, there were no clients WAITING for him during tha time. (I mean, he owns a private gym and has a strict time schedule for each of his clients. It's a 1:1 workout, no one else can enter the gym.) Today, he had a client waiting for him, but still talked to me for... idk, 10~15 mins?
Asked me when I was leaving for Korea all of a sudden. I was SO STUPID for not asking him "why?" ................. I changed the subject, because his question reminded me of something I had to tell him. Bah!

Hahaha maybe I'm just going crazy, because "I" think he's hot!!!

Too Much

Jul 29 2009 13:14

Ate too much.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Going to kick my ass in roughly 3 hours =)))))

My butt isn't hurting too much that I can't function properly - must mean I'm quite fit??

The trainers said that I was "very strong" than most women who joined the place. Said those women liked to talk them into doing less reps, less intensity, etc.

Well you see, I don't like to compromise when it comes to lifting weights.

I loveeeeeee the pain, loveeeeeee pushing myself :)♥

So lazy these days...... I spend all my day in front of the computer most of the time. Either that, or I'm eating. And every other day, working out.

I feel really sleepy right now.....

please come before i get too moody.

Jul 25 2009 17:19

71.5

hemorrhoids??

Jul 17 2009 10:48

just found out what they were.... and it does not sound good at all... bad... horrible....

oh man.... im afraid now....

disgusting subject.

the end.

Why would I be so hungry right now?

Jul 16 2009 09:46

It's been awhile since I've written a decent journal entry.

Let's see... what have I been up to...

It has been gym-home-gym-home for me hahahaha!

Been wondering whether I'll ever be able to lose the 10 kgs..

I've lost almost 4 kgs so far, but I need to lose until I'm fit. Real fit.

I don't like fat people.. nor do I want to be one myself..

But then.... I kind of like fat people.... hahahahaha

waiting for my dad

Jul 14 2009 18:35

while downing glass after glass of yellow tail cabernet sauvignon............

heeeheeeheeeeeeeeeeeeee

im not drunk am i? wahaha!!

cabernet and chocolate chip cookie cereal is a weird match...

but i think they blend in somewhat well...

sweet && bitter... hmmmmmmmmm....

watching rush hour 3 right nowwwww !!

i wonder whether they'll make rush hour 4?? id definitely watch it

okay, this wine is taking its toll on me

i have the swine flu.

Jul 06 2009 13:02

it seems..

my dad first had this illness.

then my mom.

then it came to me.

except it seems like i have more trouble breathing than they did.

went to the doctor today. he just said it's a throat infection.

but i think it's so much more than just that.

im praying, hoping that it isn't the swine flu.

my fever is gone for now - meds.

how long will this last?