sparky0892's Journal

first day
Nov 09 2009 21:46

okay so i havent officially started yet but i want to talk about my starting point. I am honestly skeptical of myslef because of the constant wieght struggle i have had. but today i went to the doctor and the nurse told me that my cholesterol was way too high. And i dont want this. I could almost ignore and excuse the weight, but this is rediculous. I am 17 and i dont want to start my life off with health problems.

I will not limit myself to this.

And on the days when i dotn want to stick with the plan or be active (probably most days) I hope i will look back to this entry and remind myself not to limit myself. and if that isnt enough here are some more reasons:

i dont just want to be the bigger girl with the nice personality. I dont want to start college not even being looked as as more than a nice girl. i want to be hot, and if not hot then something better than cute as a button. i dont want to feel inferior everytime a guy i talking about a cute girl or a pretty/skinny girl comes into the room. this is no longer a "fat" issue-- its a health issue, and it will only get harder to fix.

DO NOT PUT IT OFF TILL TOMORROW-- THERE ARENT MANY LEFT.