star1020's Journal

Wow.  I almost didn't weigh myself this morning.  I was too scared.  I was PMSing all week and had at least one major binge and a few minor "I shouldn't have eaten that" moments.  Then last night I actually saved up enough calories to have a huge slice of chocolate chip cookie cake (omfg so good) from Gianna's since my BF always buys me one on the first day since I have cramps from hell and don't feel good.  I only saved enough calories for the cake, but I decided I needed to wash it down with light vanilla soymilk with tons of chocolate syrup mixed in.  I had two huge glasses.  Then I was craving something salty so I had a bunch of pretzel sticks dipped in peanut butter.  I probably ate at least 2T of peanut butter which is 200 cals right there, plus a lot of salt which would contribute to the water retention I'm sure I already have.

So Wednesday is weigh-in day for me and I almost didn't do it - thought it would just depress me, and I'd wait until next week when I was hormonally normal again.  But then curiosity just got the best of me so I got on there.  I'm down exactly 2lbs.  WOW!  Odd, considering that the two weeks previous I had stuck to my diet like glue and actually GAINED on one weigh-in and got stuck at the other.  I'm not sure why a week of eating a bunch of chocolate and crap helped me lose 2lbs even though I've really only been losing 1 a week or less since this whole thing started, but I'm happy for whatever the reason.  Time to get back on the wagon though.  I'm supposed to go out with my friend tonight who just moved back here from L.A. to some breaks monthly at Fluid.  I'm not sure what they're drink specials will be (I'm only taking 10 bucks so I'm all about the specials) so I just saved enough cals for 3 non-light beers.  I figure that's enough for me for 4 hours.  I gotta drive and all.  If there's a special on light beer though I'll be having that instead and that way I can either have a bigger deficit (right now it's only 350ish for the day) or have a snack if I'm really ravenous when I get home.  So I'm eating really light today, I've had my cereal for breakfast and snack of natural peanut butter spread on a whole wheat pita (I know, weird, but it's so satisfying!) around 10am and it's currently 12:40 and I'm not hungry yet.  I have black beans and rice for lunch which I'll probably eat around 2 which will definitely get me to dinner time.  I'm going to try to squeeze in a pilates abs workout and my arms routine with the free weights before heading out to Fluid.  I figure I get home at 5, workout from 5-6, shower & primp my girly ass 6-7:30 (yeah, I'm one of those girls who takes friggin' forever), head out to pick up Melanie and be back at the apartment by 8, pre-game until 8:45 and then head out to Fluid.  The club is like 5 minutes away but I'm planning on having to drive around for a good 30 minutes to find any parking near South Street.  Maybe we'll get lucky because it's a Wednesday.  Man, tight schedule.  I'm gonna have to hustle.  I'm looking forward to a fun night though, yay!