stellajo's Journal

Missed Weigh-In
Apr 06 2008 08:16

I missed a weigh-in on Friday with my group ... this is the first time on this journey I've been so disappointed I've not been able to even admit what is happenening.

This is my second week with a gain, and I know what is causing it.  I've just been making really poor food choices, and snacking too much.  Actual portion control I'm still doing okay, but lately I've not been able to keep away from the junk I get for the kids on occasion.  This weekend is really bad, usually they would be out of town with their dad and the stuff wouldn't even be here, but they are ... and it is. 

My biggest downfall is not logging food.  I've obviously got a handle on portion sizes, just not on accountability. 

SO ... rather than wallow in it, I'm going to use today as a fresh start.  My husband got some news on Friday related to his weight and health.  Also, I have a goal, too - a  very specific, short-term one.  I want to lose 10 pounds by May 24.  Some band friends of mine from my hometown are booked to play here and have asked me to work up a song to sing with them.  I'd like to be a little trimmer and look a little better ... and mostly, be back in control of ME before I get onstage in front of a bunch of strangers.

Wish me  ... not luck.  Wish me dedication!

New Scale
Mar 06 2008 07:45

Well, I finally broke down and bought a digital scale!

Got home, tried it out, ran back and forth from the new scale to the old scale a few times to gauge the "difference" and YAY, it only seems to be about a pound! (A pound in the wrong direction, but it could have been worse so I'm not complaining.)

Now I can try to refrain from weighing obsessively (because it is SUCH a cool scale, the display is HUGE and lights up!!), and I can post my weight in .2 of pounds.

No Appetite?
Feb 23 2008 11:31

Since yesterday.  I don't know that I have ever experienced this before.  I had to take a couple of bites of my son's burger and a few fries last night to even reach 1000 calories yesterday.  Way WAY WAY too low for me.  But I thought, "well, I'll wake up hungry tomorrow and be okay."  But this morning, I woke up with not even the slightest rumbling in my tummy.  Got up around 7, finally around 8:30 I ate my Fiber One cereal with milk.  I didn't really want it, but it also didn't make me feel icky to eat it. 

It's 10:30 now so I should probably go find a snack.  Maybe I'll hit on something today that will wake my appetite up (but not TOO much I hope.)  This is the strangest feeling ... I never thought I'd have to search for a way to force down my daily calories.

Hmmm, I guess we'll see what the rest of the weekend holds.

edit: 11:30 - skipped the snack and ate a light lunch at 11-ish.  A sandwich, a Roma tomato, and 6 triscuits.  Maybe that will get me going.

March Madness??
Feb 16 2008 08:15

2008 has not been what I thought it would be, so far, in my weight management.  I started off very motivated but within a week something just turned off inside me.  I've reached a point where I'm bored being at home all day by myself ... I've worked since I was 15, full time since I was 21 (I'm almost 39) - only taking time off for the RARE vacation (probably 3 in 15 years) and to have babies.  I'm just not used to this.  And I'm beginning to think I won't ever be.

I boredom eat and I just can't get motivated to move my fat ass and while in 2007 I managed to lose 20 pounds, doing well even through Thanksgiving and Christmas, 2008 has been a disaster so far and I've gained back 5 pounds.  Not water, REAL pounds.  Of fat.

So ... I'm going to take the rest of February to redesign my days and find something to do besides veg in front of the computer, and by March I hope to be back on my way to my goal weight.

I've set my wedding anniversary date as my goal date which will involve some pretty low calories ... MORE incentive to MOVE MY BUTT (if I exercise, I get to have more food that day!!!)

So here I go.

A New Year (A New Day)
Jan 01 2008 09:41

Well, it is Jan 1 of 2008 and I thought I'd be closer to my goals than I am, but the new year gives a new mindset, the "start from now" thinking.

I'm not where I want to be, I'm not where I ought to be, but thank goodness, I'm not where I was.

Happy New Year everyone.

Some changes to "progress"
Dec 05 2007 06:26

I have begun donating plasma at my local Plasma center, and they weigh me each time on an official doctor's-type scale.  Unfortunately, (a little depressing) their scale weighs me in at around 5 pounds heavier than my scale at home.  Well, probably more like 4 pounds, because I do have to eat a full meal before I go, so they weigh me with food in my stomach each time.  However, tomorrow when I go, I am going to weigh myself here at home right before I leave, so I can calculate the difference, then I'm going to tare my scale up to make them the same.  That way I can start logging a truer weight.  However, I still feel very accomplished, because I know I've still lost the same amount of weight, I just started at around 225 or so, instead of 220.

I'm still making progress and I'm not going to let this little fluctuation get me down.

edit:  It just occurred to me ... I also have my shoes on when I weigh at the Plasma center.  So maybe the discrepancy isn't as much as I thought.

BMI (December)
Dec 01 2007 07:18

12/5/07 - BMI 34.2 - EDITED to reflect BMI based on the medical scales used by my local Plasma center.  I weighed 205.4 there yesterday, so my BMI is higher than I thought, but still lower than when I started!

12/1/07 -  BMI 33.8 - because of some weight gained over Thanksgiving, but that is coming back off.  One pound to go to be back where I was.

Loonies running the asylum today.
Oct 25 2007 12:35

I have seen today an anti-milk and and anti-soy post.  These items were not posted as opinions, or as preferences.  They were posted as facts.

I especially like the anti-milk one that says "humans weren't meant to drink milk which is why 90% of the world is lactose intolerant."

WRONG - ALL the way around.  Humans weren't meant to drink milk, huh ... so I guess after I had each of my babies, the whole lactating thing was not a great idea designed by nature, but just brilliant plot to embarrass me at work and make me have to change shirts at least one a day.

Heh.  Who knew??

Well, I'm off the forums for today while I can still chuckle at these idiots.  If I hang around much longer I may actually get upset.  But hey, this is America.  You can say whatever you like, no matter how STUPID it is.

BMI (October)
Oct 28 2007 08:20

10/28/07 - BMI 33.9 

10/21/07 - BMI 34.1

10/13/07 - BMI 34.3 

10/8/07 - BMI 34.4.  Got past TTOM and saw some weight come off once all the water retention went away! 

10/4/07 - BMI 34.8 - have had an up and down week or so, but now I feel back on track.