sunshine25's Journal

Scales are not my friend today.
Oct 03 2009 09:57

Don't mean to sound so down in the dumps all the time, but it's been a year and I still haven't figured his thing out. It has got to be my age. But have made friends with CC's my age and they seem to be doing just fine.  My weight does come off eventually, but it takes a month to loose 1 lb. Now co'mon. I do have patience, but this is ridiculous.  I weight myself every morning and it goes up a lb. down a lb. Some days are better than others, but on the whole usually weeks later I am back to where I started again. I am happy for one weigh-in a month, cuase that is when I see progress. Since September 5th, I have been changing things. Taking a very close look at my fat, carbs, protein, especially my protein. Reading every night on the computer, watching tv shows on how to speed up metabolism, pre-planning my meals, cut up my veggies and fruit, joining dance classes, walking a bit more now, exercising to video's, back on my treadmill on rainy days and drinking water continuously. I somehow think I am drinking to much water, but I keep drinking. I make sure at every meal I have a protein, veggie and fruit. Carbs are low 50-52%, fat is fairly low 20-22%, protein 25-30%. Sodium is always below 2400 and sugar is 30-40. I am on the go continuously, maybe not walking 3 miles a day, but I am always on the go doing something. i hate to sit.

So this is pretty much how my months go. Then like today I get fed up and want a cheat day, but I'm scared. Cause I can't have a cheat day like many others, if I take a cheat day and eat maybe 1800-1900 calories, ( which is a big day for me) I will gain 2-3 lbs. and it will take me another 1-2 months to get back down again, so it's just not worth it. Been reading lots about "south beach" sounds similar to Atkins, so I might try that for 2 weeks or so. I have last month tried to follow "In the Zone", but that only worked for 1 lb. and then just gained it back anyway.

I really had my heart on hitting the 40 lb. mark for my 1 year anniversary with CC. But there is no way I can do it now. I have been at about a 36 lb. loss since July. So there is no way I'm gonna loose 4 lbs. in 2 weeks. I'm disappointed in myself. If I wasn't trying so hard, I don't think I would be so disappointed.

If I knew what I was doing wrong, or haven't tried, I wold be so pumped to try something new. But I am out of ideas. Finally got my sister tojoint Weight Watcher's, thought maybe I would go with her to see if there is something I am missng here, doesn't hurt to get some new information. There isn't a magazine or a talk show (Dr. Oz) that gives me any more information than what I am already doing and these people have lost like 50-80 lbs. It's crazy.

I am happy about the loss I have had, but at a snail's pace and I have read that's good also, but I would think with everything I am doing, my eating that 1/2 lb. every two weeks isn't much to ask.

Well gonna go get some breaky, I'm starving, breakfast will be Go Lean cereal with 1 % milk. Lunch will be 1 whole grain tortillo with 3 slices of low fat chicken breast, lettuce, watermelon with yogurt. For supper, to hell with it, I'm gonna let hubby take me out for supper tonight. It certainly isn't going to affect my weight loss. Think I'll have a big fat plate of spaghetti with meatballs or big plate of poutine with a greasy hamburg.  Hee Hee. My body hasn't seen that food in months. I think I'd have to go to the emerg with "carb overload". 

Oh well now were off to another week. It kind of makes you loose interest, feel like you've disappointed yourself. I'll get over it, I always do. Hmmm, that spaghetti and meatballs is making my mouth water and it's only 10:00 in the morning.