sunshine_rjs's Journal

186 days until my wedding!
Aug 25 2009 08:06

Only 186 days (6 months) until I get married! I need to get back into shape. Not only for my own self esteem, but also so that I look phenomenal in my wedding dress! I also want to do it for my fiance. I want to look great for him and feel great on our honeymoon. I need to remind myself of these things when I want to eat those 10 cookies or skip my workouts. I need to do it for my own benefits (looks, confidence, and health) and for my future husband.

Starting today I am changing my life. No more binge/restrict. If I want that cookie, I can have it... but I have to limit myself! If I want to skip my workout, then I have to make sure I eat very healthy that day and make my next day's workout even better.

I have to get the mindset that I don't have to starve myself and I don't have to binge. There is an equal medium between the two. If I mess up, that doesn't give me the right to mess up my whole day, week, or month! And it's not the end of the world. I just need to admit my mistake and get right back on track the next minute.

I am tired of being ashamed of my body. I am tired of feeling inferior to every other girl out there. I want to for once love the way I look. And not just for a day or week, but for a lifetime. I CAN DO THIS! I AM BEAUTIFUL!