susiekitten's Journal

I'm here
Oct 06 2009 09:50

My baby's recouping at home with Mamaw. He's not ready to go back to school.

 I'm working out of another office and feeling overwhelmed. I feel like the new kid and I don't know what I'm doing. Today has started better than yesterday. Yesterday I was thrown into the deep end. I'm only supposed to be here until we find someone else. I don't know if they're really looking. I don't know what to do, D. doesn't understand. He keeps saying it's the same thing you've been doing, no it's not. The last agent left and took all our files. ALL THE FILES> we don't know who paid what for what, if it got deposited, if they got travel docs, there aren't even phone numbers in the pnr's to find them. I didn't eat anything yesterday during the day but a fiber bar. I was too stressed. My shoulder's hurt, my head hurts. I'm terrified. I ate crap when I got home. Fatfree chips and velveeta cheese dip. and a beer. There were no chairs at home to sit in, the kids had both couches  and then my mother called. I was just pissed. D. keep making sex jokes, like I was going to do anything last night! I finally just went to bed about 8:30. I didn't bite anyone, but I wanted to.