sweetrandi's Journal
LEAVING TOMORROWNov 09 2009 08:40
Wow! What a whirlwind weekend. I'm in the process of changing health insurance and the old cards aren't working, even though I am covered till the 25th. What a panic filled weekend..but all will be straightened out, when I return.Mel got sick, of course...she didn't finish her antibiotics. The Doctor had a very stern talk with her..and told me to go away to Michigan..for my health.
I am going to see my Fiance'...My Joe...He's bought me a bunch of food I like and I sent him a box of my oatmeal and protein powder and teas...all the things that make me comfortable. I am nervous but so excited...I hope my body co-operates while I am there...Just want to relax..something I just can't do with Mel.
I will be treated with extreme love...amazing gentleness..and laughter....I haven't done much laughing in a long time. He emailed me today, his heart is racing, he just is so very revved up that I truly am coming.
Hard to describe what happens to me when I am there...It takes a bit, but all the tension just leaves...and this 6"6" gentle giant envelops me in a world of intense peace and acceptance and enormous love..Our relationship is based on
Monster Acceptance
Monster Passion
Monster Love
Mind, Heart, Soul, Body .....we touch...on every level to a depth I have never been before....We say Our Vows....and the experience begins...
Odd to do something for me...All I do is for my Girls....but I need ...more now than ever in my life...for I am battered and beaten up.....extended belly..and sick...108 lbs....scary thin. but I'm going where someone thinks the sun shines out my behind..Good Mood, Bad Mood, 125lbs...or 70 lbs....Through thick or thin...I'm going to have some one love me a little bit...For I deserve it..I've earned it..and every thing will be here...all my responsibilities, when I return.
Time for a good breakfast, and will be ever mindful to eat well every day..
It is in my medical charts....when I'm in Michigan with Joe...my pain level goes down...my symptoms go down...I eat the most....my mental state is at its best.
I am treated well...a far cry from this abusive environment...
Just chatting...scared...nervous...but going anyway...It's Time.
I'm going to miss everyone....but I'll log on if I can.....
You have helped me save my life..and I am forever Grateful and Blessed.
you just enjoy yourself this break is for you and you deserve it . i know you are scared and nervous but once you are there i think you will be fine . joe sounds like a really nice guys who loves you for you , you dont need to be anything else mel will be fine nala will be fine . so go pack your bag think happy thoughts have a grt time , we will all be here when you return to help you through h x |
Thank you so very much.....my precious friend. xoxoxo |
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