sweetsmiles's Journal

I hate myself. To the MAX. I'm so sick of this controlling eating disorder. I just want to be a functioning human being. Apparently far too much to ask for. I want to be dare I say...HEALTHY! But I can't do it. I was put on this earth to let others down. So they could celebrate my failures. I hate myself. I want to tear off my skin. Burn myself inch by inch. Bleed out ounce by ounce. Cry myself dry. And die as the miserable yet numb human being I've let myself become.