tamji's Journal

Self-reflection...

Jul 23 2009 17:32

In between dusting, vaccuuming, emptying/loading/running the dishwasher and attacking Mt. Washmore aka THE LAUNDRY, I revisited my virtual model at mvm.com.

Now in Dec 2008, I was weighing in at 216lbs. As of today I'm at 195lbs. My goal has always been driven by the BMI calculator, ie- shooting for that "perfect" BMI which = 150lbs.

...but when I compare the 150lbs model to (I think) a more reasonable 160lbs, there is no visible difference! The only difference is my BMI drops from slightly overweight to normal.

When I lost my 43lbs previously with CC, I was at 172lbs - only 12lbs shy of 160. The more I think about it, I'd be completely satisfied with 160lbs.

I've changed my user settings to a goal weight of 160lbs. Suddenly I feel HOPEFUL, to have a realistic goal that is in my reach!

I'm going to try and post the THEN (216lbs), NOW (195lbs), and GOAL (160lbs) virtual models:

Feelin the burn

Jul 23 2009 10:29

holy aching thighs, Batman! Just did a 10min thigh dvd workout and ZOMG. Then managed 15mins full out on my elliptical.

Took the girlies to see the new Harry Potter movie yesterday afternoon ~ they loved it. Ended up going out for dinner last night to the Keg...instead of having the usual bigass steak and loaded baked potato, I had a salad and the king crab leg dinner. YUM.

So even tho I was totally off the wagon for most of last week and last weekend, I managed to only pack on 1lb. So I know my working out and food logging is working. Just gotta keep at it.

Tomorrow is my and Luvie's 10th anniversary ! His mom is going to take the girlies for a sleepover at her place tomorrow, so we can go out for dinner and have some fun at the ca$ino (my only vice HAW HAW). Then on Saturday, Luvie and I are checking into a downtown hotel for a mini vacation!!! I am soo looking forward to it!

Today's food:

B: fibre 1/2% milk/blueberries (too hot for coffee today)
L: pnut butter sandwich, nectarine slices
S: lemon meringue 2% yogurt
D: BIG SALAD w/hard boiled egg, cheddar, fresh squeezed oj for dressing

OK off to shower

Wed workout

Jul 22 2009 13:03

so once again, we all stayed up til almost midnight. Luvie made it off to work on time, but the girlies and I slept in til almost 11:30!!!! gotta love summer vacation

I did a 10min dvd arm workout with my 5lb weights. OMG my abs are SO SORE today. That pilates really works 'em. Didn't think I had it in me to do 20mins on the elliptical, so I aimed for 10min and actually made it to 15min. Good enough for me!

Now off to shower!

...and that wraps up Tuesday

Jul 21 2009 22:50

Fat - 31.8% (48 grams)
Protein - 24.9% (84 grams)
Carbohydrates - 43.3% (146 grams)
Alcohol - 0%
Other - 0%

Daily Sodium Intake - 1,588 mg
Daily Sugar Intake - 52 grams
Daily Cholesterol Intake - 186 mg
Daily Saturated Fat Intake - 13 grams
Daily Fiber Intake - 29 grams
Nutrition Grade

~~Date Calories Grams Fat Carbs Protein Grade~~ ~~2009-07-22~~ ~~1,325 1,745 48 146 84 A-~~

B: coffee/splenda/2% milk, fibre 1/2%milk/strawberries

~~L: stoned wheat thins + pnut butter, zucchini/carrots/celery~~

D: bbq'd chicken breast, greek salad, ~~rice~~

S: ~~lemon meringue yogurt~~, nectarine slices
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I'm looking forward to tomorrow's nummies and my dumbbell arm + elliptical workout! Time to scamper off to bed

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Slight change in menu....hey. It's what I do LOL!

I took the girlies to see the new Harry Potter movie, and....I dunno....it's a THEATRE. It's a MOVIE. THE POPCORN SMELLS SO FRICKEN GOOOOOOOOD.

So I canceled lunch, then I'm taking out rice and the feta at dinner, and the yogurt. Here's my new pie chart:

Fat - 51% (77 grams)
Protein - 20.7% (70 grams)
Carbohydrates - 28.2% (96 grams)
Alcohol - 0%
Other - 0%

Daily Sodium Intake - 1,665 mg
Daily Sugar Intake - 31 grams
Daily Cholesterol Intake - 219 mg
Daily Saturated Fat Intake - 25 grams
Daily Fiber Intake - 27 grams
Nutrition Grade
Date Calories Grams Fat Carbs Protein Grade 2009-07-22 1,328 1,423 77 96 70 A-

Fats are super uber high. I may even hope back on my elliptical..

the funny things is, after I took off that stuff and added in the popcorn, my carlories are at 1328, which is my actual allowance. weeeeeeeird.

oops, Luvie's home! later dudes & dudettes!

H2O's working

Jul 21 2009 16:13

pee is clear for the first time in prolly a year!!!! ha ha I kill me!

3...2...1...BLASTOFF

Jul 21 2009 12:41

I found my motivation!

After almost 2 weeks of solid insomnia, I think I am coming thru the dark tunnel of depression into the light of health once again.

I made a valiant attempt at doing my 20mins windsor pilates dvd. Holy crap. It's been a while to say the least! I then wrestled my dusty neglected elliptical out from our bedroom into the living room and sweated it out for 20mins while watching Food Network ~ I know I know, here I am trying to work out, and I'm watching delicious mouthwatering food ~ somehow I find it inspiring.....?

I also adjusted my activity level in my settings. My plan is to alternate pilates, arm workouts with 5lbs weights, and ab exercises, (1 each day) and then to finish each workout with at least 20mins on the elliptical.

I've been waiting and waiting and WAITING for a decision from E.I. re my unemployment claim....all I'm asking is for some assistance thru the summer just until my new childcare clients start Sept 1st. Crikey moses it's been like pulling freaking teeth. But yesterday I finally spoke to someone in the bureaucracy who CARES! My claim has been accepted! Prolly why I was finally able to sleep last nite. I also interviewed a family on Sunday who is thrilled to be joining us in Sept ~ so now all my spots are filled!

It's been 18mos of pure hell and I am glad that things are finally settling down career-wise and with our younger daughter's anxiety. I feel reborn!

OK time to post the nitty gritty stuff:

Fat - 31.5% (48 grams)
Protein - 19.1% (65 grams)
Carbohydrates - 49.4% (169 grams)
Alcohol - 0%
Other - 0%

Daily Sodium Intake - 2,132 mg
Daily Sugar Intake - 63 grams
Daily Cholesterol Intake - 322 mg
Daily Saturated Fat Intake - 21 grams
Daily Fiber Intake - 35 grams
Nutrition Grade
Date Calories Grams Fat Carbs Protein Grade 2009-07-21 1,319 1,840 48 169 65 A

B: coffee/2% milk/splenda, fibre 1/2% milk/strawberries

L: mixed greens, cheddar, mushrooms, orange cubes

S: lemon meringue yogurt

D: bbq'd smokie in white roll/mustard, homemade potato salad, corn on cob

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UPDATE @ 5:45pm

So my Luvie arrived home this evening with a brand new bbq. Gotta love that man....he really doesn't ask for much, he's been making do with a bbq that's technically on it's last legs FORVER.

...and of course, because we have a new bbq, he naturally bought all kindsa treats to 'q' on it. Sigh. Which means I need to tweek my menu.

So scratch the yogurt above for snack, the smokie, bun and mustard, and add instead sockeye salmon and pork loin center cut chop (no fat)

MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

here's the new chart:

Fat - 34.8% (53 grams)
Protein - 29.1% (101 grams)
Carbohydrates - 36.1% (125 grams)
Alcohol - 0%
Other - 0%

Daily Sodium Intake - 1,429 mg
Daily Sugar Intake - 46 grams
Daily Cholesterol Intake - 430 mg
Daily Saturated Fat Intake - 20 grams
Daily Fiber Intake - 34 grams
Nutrition Grade
Date Calories Grams Fat Carbs Protein Grade 2009-07-21 1,333 1,822 53 125 101 A

Managed to maintain...

Jul 16 2009 12:28

...at a steady 194lbs. Incredible really.

I seriously need to get serious. Seriously.

Yesterday I stocked up on all fresh fruits and vegs, bought a box of fibre 1 cereal ~ it really helps get that fibre intake up and it's somewhat yummy too. What a concept LOL.

Personal life has been a bit chaotic lately. Who's isn't tho right? My girlies and I are having a bit of a sad day...my youngest daughter's mice had babies a little over 4 weeks ago, and this is the week where we have to say goodbye to a few of them. I've already pre-arranged to give them to a local pet store THAT DOES NOT SELL THEM AS FOOD, so we just finished scooping each baby mouse up in a water glass so we could see who had jingle bells and who didn't LOL. We're going to keep 2 females ~ who are so fricken cute I can't stand it! So momma mouse Hermione will be living with her 2 daughters, Cheezy and Oatmeal. I'll post pics later. Dad Harry unfortunately has to remain in solitary so we don't end up with more food-named baby mice! All in all, though it was a great experience for my girls, and I'm glad we let Harry and Hermione breed.

OK. Slept in til 11 today ~ aaaaaaaaaah! Then off to the pet store. Then into our little pool when we get home. It's another scorcher today.

B: fibre 1 + 2% skim, strawberries, coffee
L: carrots, celery, apple slices + peanut butter
D: california roll, crab salad roll, sirloin steak on salad

xoxo

wOOt wOOt Let's Celebrate....ummm...

Jul 10 2009 11:10

Remember the fab homemade healthy meatloaf and wonderful homegrown salad I was going to dine on last night? Yah. Me neither. Luvie came home all stressed out and announced that we were going out to dinner so we could all relax...and also to celebrate me becoming newly licensed in the world of childcare!

So how could I possibly say no to that.........?

Here's my pie chart just from last night's dinner:

Fat - 39.6% (129 grams)
Protein - 16.6% (122 grams)
Carbohydrates - 43.7% (321 grams)
Alcohol - 0%
Other - 0%

Daily Sodium Intake - 3,338 mg
Daily Sugar Intake - 160 grams
Daily Cholesterol Intake - 571 mg
Daily Saturated Fat Intake - 73 grams
Daily Fiber Intake - 3 grams
Nutrition Grade

CALORIES = 2,838

OMFG!

So this is me today:

wish me luck..... xoxoxo

Dusting myself off

Jul 09 2009 13:25

Fat - 36% (51 grams)
Protein - 27.9% (89 grams)
Carbohydrates - 36.1% (115 grams)
Alcohol - 0%
Other - 0%

Daily Sodium Intake - 935 mg
Daily Sugar Intake - 59 grams
Daily Cholesterol Intake - 240 mg
Daily Saturated Fat Intake - 13 grams
Daily Fiber Intake - 18 grams
Nutrition Grade

B: oops slept in!

L: roast turkey breast on kaiser, veggie sticks

D: meatloaf, mixed greens (picked from my garden), tossed w/mango, strawberries, blueberries, raw pumpkin seeds, topped w/olive oil + balsamic vinegar

S: apple slices & reduced fat cheddar cubes
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I'm so disappointed in me. I had a great day food wise yesterday, drank all my h20 yada yada yada. Ran a bubble bath for 9yr old daughter, then she asked me if I'd cut her hair - short. She has long long long beautiful brown hair cascading down her back. Not exactly the best summertime 'do. And of course she's been "blessed" with my thick heavy hair (poor thing wah wah I know). Well I gathered her mane into a big ponytail and snipped it off to shoulder length, then took out the elastic and evened it all out. OMG she looks AMAZING!!!

So after we tucked both girlies into bed, hubby settled on the couch to attempt to watch Tropic Thunder - we bought it awhile ago, and barely managed to watch half of it before turning it off in disgust. Stupid movie. Apparently it was still stupid, as Luvie was sawing logs about 15mins into it. So I was tippy tapping on the laptop, playing all my wordy games...

...when suddenly....

..........."eat me"............"eat me"......................

those damn kettle bbq chips in the snack cupboard!!!

I fought a valiant fight. I switched from wordy games to the new slot machine game Luvie bought me for my bday. I was winning and things were great. Then I hit a losing streak in the game and started telling myself, well if I lose THIS time, I'm going to eat the chips.

don't ask.

suffice it to say, I murdalized that bag. snorfled it like a horse eating oats.

Thank gawd I get to push the "refresh" button today and start over!

Biggest Loser Challenge

Jul 08 2009 15:48

*\:D/* yay I just signed up for the BLC. Hopefully this will keep me in line!