texasteach's Journal

Ooops!
Jan 14 2008 06:19

Well, that was one HELL of a slide... I"m up 20 pounds from my former lowest (recently)... but no time like the present to start again... The GOOD news?  I'm still down 17 from where I started this last summer... and, POSSIBLY, can still reach my goal by the end of summer.

It's so easy to ignore yourself... and youe health... THe whole time I hear that little voice in my head SCREAMING at me that if I don't count calories... I let this happen...

Doesn't matter.. it's all water under the bridge now...I'm nowhere near my 343 pound top... and here I go again!

My first thumbs down
Oct 22 2007 13:52

That's what happens after gaining ten pounds in a week!

 I went to Cancun with my family... what an AMAZING week at the all inclusive... for the first day and a half... I was EXCELLENT...  Chose my meals wisely... Worked out first thing in the morning... and then the weekend came!

Sugary/fruity drinks...  laying out all day...  food food and more food.

 It was awesome.  I have not one single regret.  I wish the pounds wouldn't have PILED back on... but whatever... it was a metabolism rever I'm sure... *lol*... I STILL weight almost 30 pounds less than I did in June (had I not lost weight before hand who KNOWS where I'd be today...)

 ...and as for today... back logging again... I did do one LAST pigout last night... pizza and s'mores... but always knew I'd be back here this morning... so here I am calorie count...  my weight loss for last month is negated...  but it'll come off just as fast as it went on... and it's all about lifestyle... some weeks are just for splurging!

 Hi ho, Hi ho.. it's off to the gym I go!

It's never going to be easy
Sep 28 2007 08:16

So I had one week with a huge weight loss and I was on top of the world...  THen, TOM... then last night I eat half of a pizza... and my calories have been closer to 2000 than the 1700 I usually aim for... and two/three weeks have gone by... and I haven't lost anything... and I know why...

 peanut butter for breakfast is never a good plan for me... starts me off on the wrong foot all day.  Every one has their trigger foods... no more peanut butter for me!

No more pizza either... at least not the kind we order out.  Somehow, no matter what my best intentions, I always eat half of the large pizza... I sop off the grease, don't eat the crust, and order cheese only... which is better than what I USED to do... but still not good enough.

So right now I have the "Monday" mentality... which is WRONG WRONG WRONG....  As in "I'll start again on Monday."  Start WHAT?  I am NOT on a diet...  I have to watch what I eat every day of my life forever and ever.  Some days I may PLAN to eat more than others... but there are NO days when I can just ignore (that doesn't work for me AT ALL)... 

I have to cut back on diet coke again... I'm drinking just that and no water it seems... so I'm going to a one a day limit... no more peanut butter, no more ordering out pizza...

all starting Monday... :-)  

New weight loss in progress picture
Sep 21 2007 06:45

Okay, so I hit the inevitable stall this week after a free fall weight loss of the last two weeks... but I knew it was coming.

Anyway... I took a new body in progress picture of me 23 pounds lighter than my "starting weight" picture.  It's the last one in my gallery.  Check it out!

FABULOUS DATE NIGHT!!!
Sep 18 2007 08:13

My DH set up reservations for us to go to a high end food and wine pairing tonight... YAY!!!!  I got the menu and tried to plug stuff in to the best of my ability... but really I'll only nibble... (I would say sip... but that's not necessarily true!)

 I've had a GREAT couple of weeks... I'm teetering at the 220 mark, which ROCKS because in JUNE I was at 256...  even when it feels like it's coming off slowly, it obviously isn't!!!

I need to remember that for the rest of this week and next... next week is TTOM... and ALWAYS the week before I go into a holding pattern that doesn't end until TTOM ends... (SEVEN DAYS LATER for me!!!  I HATE THAT!)

But... I"ll keep looking back at this entry... keep my spirits up... and remember that it's only two weeks out of every month that nothing happens... and even with those two weeks... the others are fine... (I just REALLY want to break through into the teens again... )

Last November I was 209... I would REALLY like to be there again...  I haven't been below 200 since summer of 2005... I'm getting pretty excited about that!!!

I suggest NO ONE try my plan :-)!
Sep 13 2007 11:37

Okay... so on Monday I was up six pounds since Friday... I KNEW very little of it was probably actualy WEIGHT... but I woke up this morning... Shock and AWE... loss of three pounds since yesterday...

The BIGGER shock and awe part of that is that I'm down two pounds since LAST Friday...I was going to be thrilled if this turned into a maintenance week because I LITERALLY ate a whole week's worth of food this past weekend... and VERY few good choices ( i ate fudge, and cake, and Mexican food and drank like a bottle and a half of wine ... and other bad stuff.)

But here I am... on Thursday... no ill effects!  I feel better since I've gotten back...  and I lost more than I expected to!   Life is GOOD!   God is always good to me...  I need to remember to thank Him more often!

Just about back
Sep 12 2007 05:59

So glad... I'm only .4 pounds above where I was last Friday...  (and actually down half a pound since this day last week)... so I'm hopnig things are back to normal by weigh in this week.

 I know.. that's why so many people weigh in once a week so that a weekend splurge doesn't make them run screaming off of cliffs... I myself find it somewhat fascinating!!!

How MUCH did I used to eat to make me gain actual weight???  It has to be a pheonmenal amount... I haven't been starving myself since my return...  just normal eating again... and almost all of the six pounds are gone.  How much food I must have put in my body to KEEP the six pounds on in the past!!!!

DARN IT!
Sep 10 2007 06:05

I had been doing PRETTY well until Saturday night...  I had eaten a LITTLE more than I intended... but swam... ran... etc. worked out for a long time on the beach, so I was doing well.  My hands felt too puffy... I was retaining water... but not that big of a deal.

Then, Saturday night... I wrote down all of my caloires before eating dinner...

R- saw me eat a chip with guacamole after dinner... shook his finger at me like I was a bad girl... and said, "Are you going to log that?" I know he was just trying to help me because i've TOLD him the only thing that works for me and weight loss is to log my calories... HOWEVER... I have ALSO told him he can't criticize me or make me feel guilt if I decide to overdo it... 

I have no idea why.. it was an odd decision... but I SNAPPED...  I then proceded to have another FULL plate of food... followed by THREE pieces of cake... that I didn't want...  and felt horrible...

Then, last night I polished off a bag of this really yummy... but highly fattening cashew crunch and nut stuff...

to the tune of 6 pounds gained this weekend.

Real pounds?  No.... but I'm just hoping that I can be back to where I started by NEXT weekend.  Who knows... maybe my metabolism will get excited by such an influx of food.  Even worse... I can't go to the gym tonight because I have open house after work.

Oh well, I"ll eat right today... go back to the gym tomorrow... and start feeling good by Friday... GOing camping with my parents this weekend... but THERE I KNOW I can behave!  (My mom has a 100 mile bike ride on Sat and a triathlon on Sunday... and we're going to support.)

I'm in no hurry at all to lose this weight... I just wish I hadn't had a backslide... but I figure I"m doing this for a life time... and those weekends WILL happen every so often!

Big challenge coming up!
Sep 07 2007 07:37

So, this afternoon I'm headed off to the coast with my family.  It's a yearly advanture...  we stay in these condos... play laser tag in the hallways... in short.. .have a fabulous weekend...

But like with so many families... this is a drinking and food fest!  R- and I are sharing the condo with my parents and my sister-in-laws parents... We're in the main "party room" (six other couples will be there).  We're in charge of brininging the food... and it's like NOTHING that's planeed is good for you...

Tonight... finger foods...  egg rolls, meatballs, etc.  (so I'm bringing veggie tray)... tomorrow morning... french toast casserole, sausage... etc.  (so I'm brining fruit)...tomorrow afternoon... sandwiches... not so bad... I can do that... tomorrow night...Mexican...

It's not that i CAN'T eat small portions... I CAN... but I'm posting this here just to announce to the world that I WILL!!!  (I'm not going to worry about curbing drinking too much, tho.)

The other problem is lack of structured workout for the next few days. I'm going to the gym this morning... but tomorrow I'm going to try to fit in beach time... not guranteed, tho... On Sunday... I'm going to the gym if we get back on time...  and Monday I won't be able to work out at all... I have open house and won't be home until after nine.  Regardless, I've been working one day a week OFF working out into my schedule since going back to work... now I only lost half a pound this week... but it's okay.. .I'm in no rush...

That's what I keep telling myself about this weekend...  I am not on a diet... (and for the FIRST time in my life... that's true... I SERIOUSLY am not on a diet.)  This is a great chance to prove to myself that I can make good food decisions in a party kind of atmosphere.  My weight WILL fluctuate for the rest of my life once I"m healthy... but NOT MUCH!   I'm sticking within a ten pound radius FOREVER...so...  if I maintain this week I'm golden...  but I do not intend to actually GAIN over the weekend... no eating so many extra calories that my weight goes up... Vacation does not have to be about stuffing yourself and eating unhealthy foods... It doesn't even make me FEEL good... and I have to remember that.  I can have a PIECE of mom's fudge... I don't have to eat half a pan!   I can have a bite of hubby's cheesecake... ONE tamale...

I can do this... I can do this!

Bad weekend?
Sep 04 2007 07:47

Okay, of COURSE I knew better before I did it.

This weekend, I had planned to go to San Antonio with the world's GREATEST husband... (He sent me flowers at work last week for NO reason...  he does all the cooking, all the grocery shopping, hired a maid... and we don't even have kids... He really is the BEST!)  Anyway, he's had this ongoing back problem sort of thing and on Friday it got REALLY bad...  HORRIBLE pain in his hip, glutes, and all the way down his leg... basically leaving him bedridden for the weekend...

Well, I had PLANNED to go to San Antonio... so I chose not to work out on Friday even though I could have... and I brought frozen pizza home from the store.  Stayed under my calories... but not healthy choices....

On Saturday... I DID have a good workout... but really nothing else... I sat in the house and catered to hurt/bedridden honey all day... but decided that the frozen pizza WITHIN calories didn't really take care of my splurge factor so I got ordered REAL pizza on Saturday... slightly over calories... but still a defecit.

Sunday... had a good workout...then decided I wanted Pei Wei for dinner...I looked it up on Calorie Count... the Pad Thai fit into my calories, so I went and picked it up... The order was HUGE... but I ate all the tofu and chicken... a bout half the noodles...and felt STUFFED.  The next day I looked up the calories on the Pei Wei website...  DARN!  Each order is TWO servings... Over my calories, over maintainence... and up a pound.

Yesterday, I caved and bought peanut butter at the store... it's natural good for you peanut butter... but I generally overindulge... I did workout... and I made light chicken parmesan for dinner... Problem?  When I eat dinner, I snack while making it...  I ate two pieces of mozzarella while cooking... still... under my calories... but stuffed!

Anyway... long story short... weighed myself this morning... NO change since Friday.  I'm THRILLED...  I know that I overindulged this weekend... I will have it under control next weekend... (going to the coast with the family... ALWAYS a food fest!   I'm not participating!)  and the next weekend (camping with the parents... I'll bring some chicken breasts and make GOOD choices).

The hubby started being SOMEWHAT mobile yesterday... limping really bad... but said it was just numbness... I hope he takes it easy.  He had to cancel our last two mini vacations...hopefully he can make the next two.

Thank you God for helping me stay on track and for helping my poor, wonderful husband feel better!