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The first snow fell today.  Not a lot, but it stuck to the ground.  I don't partake in winter sports.  I prefer to sit by the fireside watching the snow on the golf course.  My fireplace is electric but it's warm, looks pretty with no ashes to clean.  I've schlepped it along with me wherever I've lived.  I'm doing well the last couple of days and that is happiness for me. 

I'm easily bored foodwise, so you never know what I'll eat next.  I try to balance my meals, with all the food groups, and most of the time I do just that.  Today I ate steel cut oats with milk (200 cal)and a banana (110) cal) for breakfast.  I had "chocolate milk" with that, made with almond milk, 1 tbsp of cocoa, 1 tbsp of coffee mate and a tsp sugar (136 cal).  Total cal 446.  Dinner 2 Thin slices Montreal smoked meat (50 cal) 1 slice low fat swiss cheese (60 cal) 1 sl. grain bread (65 cal) 1 lavash cracker (60 cal)1 no sugar added butterscotch pudding (45 cal) w. 2tbsp of low fat Redi-whip (17.5 cal) 1/3 c. blueberries (35 cal?) and 2 tbsp. low fat redi-whip (17.5 cal);  total: 540  Lunch was at the diner mentioned below (Cal. 375)  total 1345  I promise I won't bore you again.  Promise!

There's a small old fashioned restaurant, more like a diner, not too fancy, with good food.  The waitresses are great - they "honey" and "sweetheart" you, and remember what you usually order.  The other thing I like it is alway full of plain people enjoying themselves and talking in an animated manner.  Very often they'll make conversation with me, just to be friendly.  Also the price is right.  I usually go very couple of weeks to have my bacon, with 1 egg and a small amount of homefries. Nirvana. I finish with an excellent cup of coffee and left with the feeling that all was well with the world. 

There are other places I eat where the food is both good and inexpensive.  The Chinese restaurant down the street has a great tofu and Chinese vegetable dish for lunch for $5.95.  I divide it into 2 meals, and have delicious food for $3 each.   Tim Horton's a chain of Ontario donut shops has terrific sandwiches which fall within my calorie limit, and the local Zellers store is good too.  Before you think I am cheap, cheap, cheap, I do frequent the better restaurants for special meals.  It's not hard to tell that I'm into food.

I'm tired of slaving over a hot computer, so goodbye all you little chickens.

had a bit of a shock this mornin it was -5 last night and -3 when i went out this morning. jack frost had been out playing all night . went for my hydrotheaphy and i sddenly thought on my way out i have a bone density scan on fiday which is in the same department, so i thought if they could do it today it would save e a journey . lucky they could my consultant hoped that with the added nutrition my bone density would of  stayed the same and not gone down . my prayers have been answered in 12 months the density of my spine has gone up by 3% she said this is really good as your bk isnt weight baring. when she got my hip result her words were amazing . she said that my hip ratio had gone up by 11% she said she had never known this before i no longer have osteophrosis in my spine i have osteophina . im thrilled , al those months of eating and thinking nothing was changing it was . my bones are getting stronger its not to late my body want s to heal. i came out happy but mindful . mindful of the fact that things re improving but i need to keep going in order for them to get better further if i relapsd they could just go back. i need to sty strong and keep going. hopefully my theapist will be bk tomorrow im not so sure . i have a feeling something is not right she is a manager and i think she has been suspended for something not that i think shes done anything but when working with mentally ill patients you are liable to this. she said it was work issues . if she isnt bk i shall make the trip and get weighed its been 3 weeks i need to know were i stand . i hope she isnt off for to much longer im mentially flagging . so not a bad day all in all . need to get the decorations out she what ive got and if i need anything new . i do love christmas . wishing everyone a happy tuesday h xx

Just read the funniest new forum in the group "The Lounge".  It's entitled "Dear Santa"  I highly recommend it.  I laughed myself silly.

The temperature here has gone down to 0 Fahrenheit (freezing) which is 32 in Celsius terms.  Although it didn't snow in either October or November (which is unheard of in Ontario) we've been promised a pack of it this week.  That's OK, because I have my snow tires on and am prepared.  I'm ashamed to say that I never got around to taking them off last year, and as time went by I was too embarrassed to go to local repair shop to get them removed.  After all who goes to get their snow tires off in July?  I go back to the Y tomorrow, and I dread the thought of starting over at a lower level.  Weight wise I'm still at 208, which I'm satisfied with, considering the week that was.  It seems that I'm mathematically impaired when it comes to setting my mini goal.  Since there are 8 weeks still available till New Year's, even shooting for just 1 pound a week , will bring me to 200 lbs, and not 202.  I see no reason not to succeed which will get me over the dreaded 200 mark.  I think my fear of dropping off a cliff when I get into the 100's has stopped me from doing what was necessary to reach this goal.  Fear of success eh!  I actually had a panic attack for about a month contemplating my fate to eventually be a smaller woman.  I'm 5' 5" in height and that won't change.  I even have pictures which show a younger me  looking quite svelte, and may I say attractive, at any weight between 128 up to 175.  So there is lots of room to choose at which weight I will be at maintenance.  For now I'm aiming for 160 pounds, although that could change.  for now I bid you adieu!

I wanted to pass this neat little tip to you first: well actually I have told 543 people already, but no matter.  No calories in this one, but it is a secret:  did you know I wear salad dressing on my head?  Real good MIracle Whip too.  It draws salad enthusiasts like crazy.  They have that glazed, pleading look in their eyes which says "Can I graze?"  Well you ask, are you out of your gourd.  Well no, its ON my gourd don't you know.  Actually to burst the bubble, mayo has long been known as a tamer of the frizzzies.  Just slather it on in the shower, rinse, and like magic out comes soft, smooth, touchable hair.  Of course you have to be really fond of mayo, and of course stifle your appetite for a BLT sandwich.  So now you know!

After a wild rollercoaster ride along with a resultant depression, and a feeling of instability, I think I'm back on track.  It's easy to feel despair and think you'll never get back on top again.  I pray a lot during such times and God has seen fit to take my problems on his shoulders, and so I'm back.  I'm at 208 lbs now, only 1 pound up from my low of 207.  I'm happy with that.  I noticed ohers setting mini-goals but didn't really apply that to myself.  After one of my Calorie Count friends mentioned her mini-goal, a light-bulb finally went on.  Bingo!  How about a nice little mini-goal of 6 lbs a month, i.e. being 202 lbs on January 1, 2020.  Anything in addition to that is bonus, not to mention a belated Christmas present.  I did a little of reading too: excerpts from Thin for Life, an excellent book about successful weight losers, and Dr. Phil's 7 Steps to permanent weight loss: a pep talk Dr. Phil style.  I take my inspiration where I find it.  Keep counting kids.

I officially have lost 10% of my starting weight.  I was 321 on 8-29 (before I started CC) and as of today, I am 288.80...wooo hoooo

My next goal is 280 by my birthday 1-7-10 and then my next goal is 256 which will be 20% of my body weight.  I want to be at that point by 3-20-10, which I might beat but it seems like a good goal.  I might adjust come January to see where I am.

This is sooo exciting....I had to share!

I guess there is a plus in cooking your own dinner...LOL  I just did the calorie count today and  my meal today is about 1100 calories including pie. 

And then that leaves me enough to have a turkey sandwich later in the evening since we are doing a 2pm dinner.  I might be a bit over my normal intake but I won't exceed my burn meter.

2 weeks ago I went out for dinner and pretty much ate what I wanted (within reason) and I was stuffed and felt so disgusting that I don't want to feel that way again.

So here goes to sorta kinda being good today!

I've noticed lately that I've been whining and feeling just a little bit sorry for myself.  So I thought I'd be all sunshine and light in this entry.  I had the pleasure of taking Tulip to the hairdresser for a mani and pedi, a shave and a haircut today.  It's a miraculous thing: I handed in one little, long, fuzzy haired doggie over one end of the counter, and presto! out comes this teeny, tiny, little cutie, beautifully coiffed and perfumed an hour later.  Aaahhh! How sweet it is.  I went out for dinner with my women's group tonight, and I did not do well.  I'll spare you the details.  I decided that I was not going to do the usual self-bashing, and just get on with my next day.  I intend to return to the Y about December 1st, and should be able to do aquafit fairly soon after that.  I will have to see what my trainer says about anything else.  I'll ask her to review the physio I am to do to strengthen my knee.  All of that should help. 

The above phrase is so true:  I've had so much experience with this seemingly contradictory statement, that I could write a book.  I've got lots of book smarts and a couple of degrees, but that never stopped me from foot-in-mouth (or food-in-mouth) disease.  I'm very good at the former and very bad at the latter.  I'm now in my 11th month of (no not pregnancy!) my eating programme and have all the phrases down pat.  This is a lifetime plan; I'll never go back to my former style of eating; I've given all my fat clothes away. I actually believe that too, so why, oh why, do I forgot everything and why are those phrases not available to me when I need them.

I went down to 207 lbs this week.  Wonderful, wonderful.  So yesterday was my first day back driving and I celebrated by going to the grocery store to choose my own food, which I've not been able to do for a little over 4 weeks.  I indulged by buying a couple of items I'm usually smart enough not to buy: liverwurst (yeah, I know) and Lavash flat bread which I had not tried before.  They go extremely well together.  After I ate my regular meal, I noticed that half the roll of liverwurst and the Lavash had suddenly disappeared.  I ate and I ate, and it mattered not that I shouldn't.  Back to mind fog and confusion not to mention self-loathing.

Today, Sunday, we had a church lunch.  I had a close friend go with me to get my food (shaky hands and walking with a cane).  I ate properly and not too much of it.  Then I addressed desert by saying just a little piece, which turned into two.  Supper was roast chicken, 1/2 a baked sweet potato, 3/4 cup red cabbage and a small tomato.  I sliced up an apple, sprinkled it with sweetener and cinnamon, and microwaved it, then topped it with Cool Whip.  This was good.  But then I thought I should have a little chaser of Lavash and more liverwurst.  After 3 of them I did what I had to do: threw it in the garbage.  If the Lavash tempts me tomorrow it's going the same way.

So now I have to relax and get centered again, and get off my own back.  I know you understand that food addiction is an insidious and devious monster which has nothing to do with intellect, but rather with our primitive instincts. 

My that sounded pompous!  On the plus (pun intended) side: I'm back on my feet, faster than I thought I would be.  My knee still aches and I'm trying not to do any fancy footwork.  I hope to go back to the Y on December 1st, and take baby steps toward fitness again.  Also although I'm still over 200 pounds I have been able to find some nice clothes which look good on me.  I bought a magenta dress jacket and a blue sweater with sparkly stars on it.   Of course it was on sale, although my Visa is groaning!  So I look forward to tomorrow, not just with the hope, but the knowledge that it will not be a repeat of the last 2 days.  I'm making a list now of the food I'll eat tomorrow.  Bye everyone and think skinny.