You kno, i'm not who i used to be.Nov 10 2009 16:32
you know i dont wear tight shirts anymore, i dont like people to look at my boobs.
i wear loose shirts with sweaters, i think its cute. and i wear caps, all sorts, baseball caps, tuck aways, conductor hats, and knitted hats. i love hats. i wear babydoll shoes with sneekers. i listen to adele and kings of leon(if you didn't know who they were before aha heartbreaker, then you aint cool).
hah. and i hate makeup. i know you used to see me with make up caked on, well now i really only like to wear mascara, but im pale so ill throw on some blush, but its not much. i finally like me...skin deep.
i would say that i have gotten comfortable with baggy pants, but i still really like my pants tight, and super tight.
but you know i'm not who i used to be.
i dont angry, well not much.
i'm not mean and snobby like i used to be. i promise.
i'm sorry for who you knew me as, but that girl has gone.
i'm a much nicer person, who has the heart of gold. i have love for everyone, i'm always doing things to help people or to make them feel better. i don't set out to hurt people's feelings anymore.
i will admit. i was crazy. i was a crazy crazy little girl.
but i'm not little anymore, so please hear me out.
i've changed. and i really think you'll like who ive become.
this is who i am:
i dont really like to party anymore. i mean i got my friends, but i dont do that whole huge party scene anymore, i don't like people looking at me. i get really shy and clam up.
and i like to stay home and read. i love books, my favorite books so far have been the harry potter books, i went through two in a summer, when before it would take me a year to finish one book. [im a bio major that loves to study]
i have a ferret, omg. shes soo cool. no shes doesnt really smell that bad. but man this critter is the coolest thing.
im really into being healthy. from the food i eat to the calories i burn to the plants and atmosphere. i'm down to earth with everything.
i still tell you like it is, but i think im nicer about it...its because i hate to make people upset. i get hurt in the process.
i like to ride my bike still, and i love to take walks, i'll walk with anyone. caus when you walk you start to open up to whats really on your heart. and i love knowing whats on peoples hearts.
heres a big change:kendalls mom is not psyco.
shes actually really really freaking cool. i know back in high school i used to hate my mom and did everything that was wrong and so we were always fighting and i was always so angry. but thats all changed. i love my mom.
and sure ill admit it, when im scared i go sleep in my moms kings size bed with her, and why? because i love her, and i dont wanna sleep by myself. and also because i'm sad that she doesn't have someone to love her like landon loves me.
and yes. i dont date around anymore. i dont cheat. o o o o nooo. i hate even talking about it. it makes me wanna.
ok. done talking about that.
so landon kahler and i are very happy. i fall in love with him every single day. this is something i have never felt before.
hes made me a very funny down to earth real person.
random note: i like to longboard and visit grandmas!
thats who i am now.
and yeah i do like to smoke pot....i said i like to, not that i do.
