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ok so the picture is something to see!  Just me clowning a bit on my anniversary... the kids like to take these pics lately with their lips twisted up and giving the peace sign... don't know what it is, but thats what they do... So I sent this one to my baby girl on FB to give her a chuckle...

Not being at all productive today - just waiting on the day to end - and prayerfully it will be soon.  I have LOTS of cooking to do yet, and whips to crack at home... *SIGH*

I will post pics of the spread on tomorrow just because....

HAPPY THANKSGIVING ALL!!!

My Pumpkin Chocolate Spiced Pie! I tried a little sliver (as you can see) and it's not award winning in my books so it's going to work. I've decided on a graham cracker crust pumpkin pie with a pecan strussel topping.

And YES! I'm going with the caramel for my chocolate pecan pie. I just can't not.

In my fridge I now have the dough for my pecan pie (which is SO beautiful. The butter was cold and broke up into perfect pieces. It's going to be so flaky and good, I can tell!), my graham cracker crust for the pumpkin, and the pecan strussel for my pumpkin. Oh and that beautiful bread. I've been havin fun today :)

You know food is an art to you when you make something and go "oh my god that's gorgeous!" like I did with my crust. Ha. Okay now off to watch Twilight with Ezra.

I worked at the game last night, so I shouldn't have to do that again for a while. I was starving and dead on my feet when I got home about 8:30. The kitchen was dirty, there was no food, I told them the first one who asked what was for dinner (including the husband) was getting their neck slit. I made 1/2 a peanut butter sand. and then had some baked tostitos with the dreags of the cheese dip. I was starving and we'd been working with the nachos, and frito chili pies, and hot dogs and pizza and candy bars, and I was really good. I had nothing. It helped that I had no cash on me.

  Today is mother's birthday. I have the gift I was going to mail her behind my desk. after she made such an ass of herself last week I refused to mail it out of meanness. I'll send it sometime. I sent her an email. It just makes me furious.

   I'm trying to get back my MOJO. I got up this morning (later than I intended) and did the "lotte burk method for hiphugger abs" ouch. It's 27minutes of sit ups and pushups and streching. but it's what I had that was short.  I've been buying antique picutures again. That never heralds good things emotionally. And I have not been very "sexy" lately. I'd like to just be left alone and of coarse D. always thinks it's him...... It's me, all me, I feel about as  sexy as a canned ham. But I'm working on it. Tonight is basketball, tomorrow is a mamagram (I hate that so much) and I have to take Chris back to the Dr. about his leg. I'll leave here about 1:30 then be off until Monday. I love that.

I don't understand my weight!  I don't....it just jumps around all the time anymore!  Ugggh.  I haven't been doing good since Friday.  So I know I deserve some of this...but up seven pounds?  You have got to be kidding me!?!

Oh and to top it all off...I found my first grey hair!?!  25 years old...and I have a grey hair...lol :)

Not me, D.  I usually leave him in bed asleep but today for some reason ew were both awake early but I assumed he would stay in bed and try to fall back asleep so I quietly did my 15 mins of waking myself up and preparing myself to get out of bed and into the shower.  So when D comes in with me I think "wow, nice surprise!".  Nope.  He's grumpy as all get out.  Which in turn makes me grumpy because he won't tell me why he's grumpy and proceeds to stomp around all morning while I'm getting ready.  I finally get him to tell me what's wrong and he's mad that I didn't snuggle with him this morning.  I told him I assumed he was going back to sleep and he gets all pissy with me so I gave up and left for work.  Sometimes I remember why I'm not always sad to leave him in bed asleep in the mornings.  Grouch. 

I'm still in the process of changing my name, what a freaking mess that is.  Oh well, it's getting there. 

And I fell down the basement stairs last night.  I'm not sure what happened to tell you the truth.  All I know is I was walking down to get wood and the next thing I knew I was on the floor.  The side of my foot hurts like a bruise but there's nothing there, just sore to the touch and if I put all my weight on it and my knee hurts from landing on it.  So it could have been a lot worse but I have an insane fear of falling down the steps.  I mean I actively think about falling down the stairs almost every time I go down them and as I was falling last night I remember thinking "I wasn't thinking about falling".  Weird. 

Trying to shake this bad mood today, cookies would help. 

I got up and worked out. I just felt like hell all weekend. I didn't feel sexy, I felt like a big old blob, so I'm going to start again. I didn't eat too bad, it was just the not moving. I did take down my halloween stuff, it's only 3 weeks late.

  We did basketball from Thursday until Saturday afternoon. We had a tourny and ended up 6 out of 16 teams, some 2 A like us and some 3A or 4A so we didn't do badly. After the game Saturday we went and go Am's hair done. The place we used to go is not there anymore so we just went into the hair college and let a student cut her hair and it looks really good. While I waited I got my nails done. I've had better looking manicures, but I don't believe I've ever had a massage on my hands and arms that was better. I thought I was going to go to sleep in the chair. She kept saying "you're under a lot of stress, aren't you? I can feel it in your hands" The whole thing for both of us was 9.00. come on! I'd pay more than that for just the massage. The next time I go back I'm bringing my own polish (theirs was cheap and flaked off in hours) and I'm getting my nails wrapped. I intend to do that ever month or so. I felt so much better.

  We went to the club Saturday night and I got to see my friends. There were quite a few people and we had a good time, I just wasn't feeling myself. I hate it when I'm "off". We may skip this week, or maybe I'll be back to Susie. IDK.  I'm at odds with my mother right now. She called last Thursday and bagered D. about Am going off to college to play basketball. She thinks it's awful. She hates sports and doesn't get that we want her to have the best chance to go to a college we can't afford to send her too. She's  going to have a scholarship somewhere, we have calls nearly everyday, and my mother just thinks she needs to live at home and drive back and forth to the college here. D. was so upset , and she started in on how we should go to Austin to see her this Christmas and Thanksgiving. We, as in me and D., since the kids have to work. We are supposed to leave my babies at the holidays and go see her. She says she's not coming, we have to go. FUCK THAT. I'm not leaving my babies, she can get her fat ass in a car and come up here. It's a hell of a lot easier for one or two people to get in a car than 6, especially since we'd have to take 2 cars, and the kids can't get off, I can't get off, Am has basketball practice, D. has work. She is right there on the edge. D. is nearly done, and I am too. I don't feel like I owe her anything. She was not a nice person when I was growing up, and she hasn't improved.

Happy Turkey Week everyone!  I'm SO excited for this year!  Dinner on Friday was a huge hit.  I made onion tartlets which turned out really good!  I was experimenting for turkey day and they are a must!  But they take forever to cook so plan accordingly.  Then I made pot luck potatoes (cheesy potatoes) and homemade bread and chicken saltambuca which is a roman dish.  Basically we pounded chicken breasts thin, put on a layer of spinache and parm cheese and rolled them up and cooked them in a frying pan.  D also made some veggie dish with brussel sprouts, beets, carrots and sweet potato with a TON of spices on them and roasted them.  Too many spices for me but others seemed to enjoy them.  So after a ton of bitching from his mother, it ended up being a nice dinner. 

Oh, so with all of this cooking (and cleaning) I didn't have time to set the table.  Usually his mom always offers to help so I left the table setting for her to do.  Well isn't this the ONE time she doesnt offer to help!!  She sat on the couch like a bump on a log and didn't help with anything!  Maybe it's just because it was her b-day dinner but she didn't seem to have any interest in what we were doing at all.  So luckily BIL helped set the table and get everyone's drinks. 

Saturday was spent by the fire cleaning the kitchen and relaxing and folding laundry.  Then I got the genius idea to have a melting pot dinner!  We started with cheese fondue with carrots, celery, homemade bread and apple dippers.  Then onto mojo broth with filet mignon, pork chop, chicken, potatoes, broccoli and mushroom dippers.  Then dessert was pb chocolate with strawberries, rice crispie treats, banana, marshmallows rolled in grahm cracker crumbs and cheesecake dippers.  YUM!  It took like three hours from start to finish.  By the time you cut everything up, mix the cheese/broth/chocolate, clean in between each meal etc, you use a TON of dishes and it's a lot of work!  But it's so fun and we don't have to drive two hours up to the actual restaurant and we can do it in front of a roaring fire in our pj's watching the new Star Trek movie!  SO much better!!

Sunday was spent cleaning and then we went outside and raked leaves for about four hours!  The entire yard is finally done and it looks great!!  But my hands have HUGE blisters on them and my back is killing me!  But it's done!  Then I ran to JCP to get new bras and then to BJ's, Michale's and Target for misc items.  Got back home at 7 to the chili that's been in my crock pot all day smelling up the house!  It was delish! 

Today's menu is cheerios for breakfast, mid-morning snack of chedder rice cakes, salad and chili for lunch and whatever I can figure out for afternoon snack.  Oh and an orange somewhere in there!  I'm SO cold in my office right now!!  I'm not sure how long I can stand this freezing temp in my office!  65* is just rediculous!

Well the scale was up a pound this morning. 137.2. *shrugs* I didn't do anything to actually gain weight. I didn't work out yesterday and ate 1200 cals on the nose. One of which was canned soup at 9pm (canned soup 160 cals, light toast w/ splenda and cinnamon, 1/2 cup double churn vanilla bean ice cream, and popcorn I shared with Ezra). I always get in late from cake class, and that's what I had. Sooo I blame the Progresso and their Lite Zesty Santa Fe Style Chicken soup which contained more than 1K mgs of sodium. My poofy hands prove it :) So plenty of water, some exercise, and I should get the water weight to move. I think it's funny I used to get SO upset over moments like this in the past. Our bodies are like sponges. Considering we are mostly made of water, that extra 16 ounces hanging around is possible from time to time.

And I haven't drank this weekend. This is the longest stretch I can remember in.. well.. a long while. I can't even remember a time where I didn't drink Friday nights. I have caught myself wanting a drink. I ask myself why, and really it's just been so routine when the clock hits a certain time on a certain day, it pops into my head like an email popup. Kind of like when the clock hits noon and you know its lunch time! So I just need to remind myself that it's not apart of my routine anymore, and it totally goes away. I'm VERY VERY surprised how easy this is actually going. I guess when I make up my mind, I just follow through. It's time to get my health back.

Speaking of drugs and health, my dad is out of prison. According to my mom, he wants to be sober and he's tired of getting in trouble and going to jail, prison. Mind you, he's still mentally ill, but if he can stay away from the drugs and get back on his meds, he'll be 10 times better. I asked my mom if he was going to be at christmas dinner, and she told me that he's welcome. :) I'm kind of excited to see a sober dad. I need to give him a call every few days just to check in on him and make sure that he's doing well. I'm my fathers daughter. I take after him a lot more than my mom. He's an all or nothing, he's into extremes, and he's coo-coo in the noggin :) Like me and my little bro bro.

Welp I'm gunna finish up this oatmeal and play in fondant. Probably turn on the heat. Haha the high is 76 today in Phoenix, but I'm freezin! The nights are getting cold.

Happy Saturday!

For those that didn't see it last night:

I think it came out good. It was fun to make. We made roses too, but you wont see those until my final cake in 3 weeks (we take thanksgiving week off). FUNNN with fondant. Don't worry, fondant tastes nasty. Now the devils food with whip cream filling is good. But who can cut that purdy cake?

Morning weigh in - 182 

Workout:  46 mins (23 min Treadmill incline walk/jog & 23 min Elliptical)

Tonight - Enjoying some Italian food with my Ma & Dad.  Splurging on some dark chocolate cake.